Concept: ANGST & FLUFF

A Ra’s POV

(I lost everything. I have no one. My parents. Abandon me when I was a kid. Relatives. I have none. Friends. Used to, until I found out they were talking behind my back about how I was weird because I have no parents and they probably abandon me for that reason. Boyfriend/Exs. None, no one dared to approach me. I was always considered a weird person in everyone’s eye. Because I was always alone. I have no expression/emotion and I don’t talk at all.

They have no idea how it feels to be all alone. Feeling like you want to die because you have no reason to leave. Feeling like your chest is constantly squeezing you and making you suffocate. Pleading in your head for someone/anyone to save you. Fighting the demons inside you all alone. I don’t even know why I hadn’t end my life yet. Maybe, just maybe deep down within me. I really hope I could find someone I can depend on. Someone that could pull me out of my darkness. It’s tiring to even make it seems like I was alive. Trying to make it look like I was okay to be alone all the time. In actual fact, I just want to break down. I just want someone to hold on to me. I just need someone there. Anyone… Please… Save me…)

//I was walking down the street, minds filled with thoughts. I couldn’t hold it in anymore. I’ve been strong for too long. That’s why, I ran to find an aisle near where I was. Squatting down, breaking in to tears. I jump back in shocked when I felt a hand on me. I thought it was the end of me, I thought I would get . But as I jump back in shocked, all I could see was lights. A guy in front of me, shinning so beautifully as of he was the key for me. The key to pull me out of darkness.//

Min Hyun: I’m sorry. I never meant to scare you. I just thought you might prefer someone to be with you when you’re this down. Ehmmm…. Can you talk? Ehh… Nah, it okay. I’ll just stay right beside you. I’m scared that a girl like you here might attract unwanted attention. It’s dangerous to be alone.

//He sat down beside me. And keeping quiet. (Why, did he care about me. I don’t want it. I don’t need it. Why just why is he so nice to me. I don’t want to depend on someone, that will eventually leave me.) I have no idea why, but I started crying again with those thoughts in my mind. And it didn’t even bother me when he suddenly pat my head telling me words I would never thought I would hear from anyone. Words that I needed.//

Min Hyun: //Patting on my head to comfort me.// You’ve done great. It’s been hard on you.

A Ra: //I subconsciously reached out for him with one of my hand. Tugging lightly on his shirt, while I was still crying with my head down. While I finally cried out words that I wished someone would hear.// Don’t leave me….. I need you……

Min Hyun: //Taking my hand that was tugging on his shirt, to his hand. Pulling me in to a hug. Which I have no idea why I even hugged him back. I cling on to him as if my life depends on it.// I won’t leave you. I’m here.

A Ra: //After what it seems like forever to me. I stopped crying. I pulled back a little looking at the mess I’ve made. His shirt was soaked with my tears.// I’m sorry..

Min Hyun: Huh? Ahh. You don’t have to apologize. It’s nothing. But a pretty girl like you shouldn’t be crying. You’ll look better when you smile. //Wiping the tears off my face.//

A Ra: Why?

Min Hyun: Why what?

A Ra: Why did you comfort me. Why did you care for me. Why.

Min Hyun: I just wanted to.

A Ra: You shouldn’t. I don’t need it.

Min Hyun: Don’t lie. I can see it in your eyes. You’re pleading. You’re pleading for someone to notice your pain. You want someone to depend on, right?

A Ra: No, you’re wrong. I don’t need anyone.

Min Hyun: I can see right through you. I’m Hwang Min Hyun and I’m available. Well, you can always depend on me or fall in love with me. Whichever you prefer. //Chuckling// Let’s go, I’ll send you home. //Pulling me up and asking me to guild the way to my so call ‘home’ he calls it.//

//We finally reached my so call ‘home’.//

Min Hyun: Get it safe. //Giving me a smile. Walking away. But before he did, I reach out for his shirt tugging it a little. While looking at my feet. Making him turn his back at me. And as if he really understands me. He said.// Do you want me to stay?

A Ra: ….. //Not knowing how to respond//

Min Hyun: Come on, let’s go in.

//We sat in my living room, talking, and sharing stories to each other. It’s weird for me because I have never been able to do that. I have no idea why I could open up to him. But because of that, I’ve learn that he was in the same situation as me. He doesn’t have any family or relative by him. He works and supports himself. He told me he saw the past him, in me. And that, he wanted to get me out of my darkness. I don’t know when and don’t know how. I fell asleep somehow. And woke up on my bed the next day. Seeing a note on my desk “011 1855 3684 call me 😉”

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*2 weeks later*

//2 weeks has passed, and I didn’t contact that guy called Min Hyun at all. Ever since then, my mind was filled with him. It was bad. Why did I even let him get to me? Why did I even let someone who is temporary get me to open up to him. Those thoughts were in my head throughout the whole entire class. Class was finally over, I could finally crawl back into my darkness at home. Where I feel most comfortable at.

I was walking out of school when I saw a few girls crowding the school gates. Even before I reached the school gates, I could hear what they were talking about. ‘OMG, why are you so handsome’, ‘where are you from?’, ‘who are you looking for, we could help.’ I guess there must be a handsome guy out at the gates for them to be crowding him and asking him all those question. I slip through the crowd of girl out of the gate. But before I could take any step further than that. Someone held my hands and pulled me to them.//

Min Hyun: Thank you. But I found who I was looking for.

A Ra: //Staring at him in shocked//

Min Hyun: Let’s go 😊 //Pulling me away from the crowd of girls with him. Walking down the streets.//

A Ra: Why did you??

Min Hyun: Because someone wouldn’t contact me even when I gave her my number.

A Ra: But, how did you?

Min Hyun: Don’t forget you were wearing your uniform when you break down that day.

A Ra: What do you want?

Min Hyun: It my off day. And I want someone to accompany me.

A Ra: Why me?

Min Hyun: I only have you remember?

//We spend the day eating ice cream, visiting the library and taking a walk in the park. Sending me home after that.//

Min Hyun: I’ll call you. Since I finally got your number. Get in now.

//I was going to sleep when my phone vibrated, indicating a call was coming in. I took my phone and saw it was Min Hyun.//

A Ra: Hello?

Min Hyun: Going to sleep?

A Ra: Ya.

Min Hyun: Okay. Get on to your bed. I’ll sing you a lullaby.

A Ra: You don’t have to.

//He sang it anyway after insisting. His voice was so gentle and smooth. Voice of and angel if I could describe it as.//

Min Hyun: Well, since I’m done singing. You should get to sleep then. You still have school tomorrow. Good night. As always, you can depend on me or fall in love with me. Your choice. //Chuckled//

A Ra: Good night.

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*Next day in school*

//As I entered back in to my class. It was unusually quiet today. I didn’t know if it was me or I felt like everyone’s eyes was on me. But I choose to ignore it thinking I was just being paranoid as usual. As I was sitting on my desk I could hear all the girls talking out loud. As if wanting me to hear all their conversation on purpose. ‘Who does she think she is?’, ‘How did she even know our senior who graduated last year’, ‘I think Min Hyun is just pitying on her’, ‘I bet she seduces Min Hyun oppa’//

(What he was our senior. Why didn’t I notice it? Why didn’t I know. But they are right, he couldn’t have like me. He is just pitting me. He is just being nice to me. What was I thinking, trying to depend on him. I need to stay away from him. He is too different from me. He stands out and is so popular. We could never even be friends. How stupid I was to actually depend on him. To actually liked him…)

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*1 week later*

* Ding Dong! Ding Dong! Ding Dong!

 A Ra: (What the! Who could it be! So annoying!) //As I get up from my bed, I walked towards the door. Not bothering to check who was it. I opened up the door to see him. Hwang Min Hyun. Standing right infront of my door looking breathless with sweat. I was about to close the door on him, but his reflex was faster then mine. He was already grabbing the door letting himself in to my house.// What are you doing.

Min Hyun: What’s wrong with you?

A Ra: Huh? I should be the one asking what’s wrong with you?

Min Hyun: Why did you ignore my call and text for the whole week. You even skip school for the past week didn’t you.

A Ra: It’s none of your business.

Min Hyun: Why are you pushing me away?

A Ra: I didn’t.

Min Hyun: Every time I feel like when we’re getting to know each other better. You pushed me away.

A Ra: I didn’t ask you to get close to me in the first place.

Min Hyun: A Ra?

A Ra: I didn’t need anyone. You push your way into my life yourself. You came in without permission, you didn’t even ask for my opinion if I really need you.

Min Hyun: I…… I….. I’m….. sorry…

A Ra: We are too different Min Hyun. You shouldn’t be hanging out with me.

Min Hyun: How are we different? I don’t get it.

A Ra: Min Hyun, you’re popular. While I’m not. You’re sociable. While I’m not. You’re nice. While I’m not. You have so many people to hang out with. While I don’t. So, we’re too different Min Hyun. I don’t want us to hang out anymore. I know you’re our senior. Funny how I only found out last week.

Min Hyun: We’re not different A Ra. I don’t get why you’re saying all of this?

A Ra: I’m saying this because I don’t need your pity. I’m fine on my own. I don’t need anyone. Especially, not someone who is going to leave me someday. I don’t need someone to depend on, especially not someone who is just here temporary. Do you get it now?

Min Hyun: You’re pushing me away because we’re different? Because you thought I was pitting you? Because you thought that I would leave you eventually. Because you thought I was only here temporary.

A Ra: Just go Min Hyun. I don’t need you.

Min Hyun: //He came up to me hugging tight towards me. Resting his chin on my shoulder whispering.// But I need you…… You don’t know that you’ve caught my eyes since the first time I saw you last year. I don’t know why but when I first saw you, you really reminded me of my past. I always wanted to approach you. But I didn’t dare. When I saw you at the aisle crying. All I wanted to do was hug you and make all your pain disappeared. And when we finally got to hang out and talk. I was so happy. I feel so comfortable around you. I feel connected to you.

Yes, I’m popular. But I hated it. No one truly knows how I feel. And I’m only nice to people I want to be nice to. I’m not that different from you A Ra. I’m not just going to be temporary in your life. I’m not leaving you. When you thought all this time you were depending on me. I was actually depending on you finding comfort from you.

A Ra: Min….

Min Hyun: A Ra, I want to be in your life. Can I?

A Ra: No…..

Min Hyun: Why?

A Ra: Because…… I ….. Fell ….In love with….. you.

Min Hyun: //Chuckled// That’s it? That’s why you’ve been avoiding me? //Pulling back from the hug looking at me.//

A Ra: ….

Min Hyun: You’re cute. But didn’t I tell you to depend on me or fall in love with me. I was actually hinting you that I was in love with you silly.

A Ra: Huh? //Looking at Min Hyun in shocked//

Min Hyun: So, what’s your choice? Depend on me or fall in love with me?

A Ra: I…… Can… I… Choose both? //Looking down on to my feet.//

Min Hyun: //Chuckled, taking both of his hands to cupped my face up looking at him.// Of cause you could silly. //Lowering his face to him, capturing my lips to his. Savouring each other and the moment we have. Pulling apart after that.// I’ll be the key to pull you out of your darkness my angel.

A Ra: //Hugging him, hiding my blushing face in between his neck.// I….I.. Love… You.

Min Hyun: I love you too my angel. //Placing a firm kiss on top of her head.//

Little did I know, I was actually the key to pull him out of his darkness.