22 December 2017

 

추운 겨울 끝을 지나 Past the end of this cold winter
다시 봄날이 올 때까지 Until the spring comes again
꽃 피울 때까지 Until the flowers bloom again
그곳에 좀 더 머물러줘 Stay there a little longer

- 봄날 Spring Day, by BTS -

 

I've finally completed jotting down everything that I could recall from the past four days.

I guessed I've spent almost 2 hours to complete everything

Drenched in tears, especially the moment when I typed out these lines; "You did well" "You've worked hard"

 

I just listened to his songs just now.

Thankfully, I got through the fear I had.

I didn't tear up while listening to his voice.

I think I've fought well too.

 

I've listened to the song he sung during his last concert - Only One You Need

Since he has planned his suicide, this was the song he wanted to calm us with after learning about his death

"I made this song to tell someone not to be sad when you are in pain when a person you love is gone" - Jong Hyun said it during his concert.

Hitting us right at our heart with that message of him, but instead of feeling more sorrow, I felt settled.

It wasn't a slow pace song that I thought of, but it was a little upbeat instead.

I guess that's the mood he wanted us to feel, he didn't want us to mourn too long as well

 

Remember the pearl aqua moon that he gifted us?

He's telling us that he's happy over there.

 

It's time to move on. 

I guess that's what JongHyun wants from us.

He has already received tonnes of

You've did well. You've worked hard from us

 

It's time for him to take care of us with God.

It's for sure that I will be missing you a lot.

 

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