20 December 2017

 

It was the second day.

Artists and fans continued to pay their last respects to JongHyun

Some with "third eyes" or could feel "it" claimed that JongHyun's spirit is around

Lingering around, watching them

I wanted to know more from them 

What was his expression that time?

Did he managed to get rid of the depression?

Was he feeling happy and excited that he will be watching us from afar?

Or was he feeling heartache seeing that everyone is mourning for him?

 

There were more videos about him on my YouTube recommended videos section

Lonely, Breathe, Replay were some of the videos that appeared

And I still didn't have the courage to play them

I jokingly told my friends too, "I guess playing the pumped up song, Everybody will get me teared up"

I guess it was not a joke, that was the fear I had at that time.

Not just Everybody, but any of SHINee songs, as well as his songs.

His albums from Base to She is till Story Op 1 & 2 and his other singles and OSTs 

Watching the fans singing to 'Replay' outside the hospital, I couldn't take it and quickly exit the video, before it reached the third line of the Chorus even..

 

"Detective" fans found out more about his depression

It has started way too long that we didn't even realise it.

We should have realised it.

But knowing that Jong Hyun is the kind of guy who freely expressed anything he likes on his IG or Twitter

We wouldn't have realised it

Who would have thought he wanted all of us to hear him out through his photos and captions

They were too vague that we couldn't capture them well enough.

Or was it us who were too busy with our life that we didnt take note on this little things he did...

Only when things happened, we started to search back what we have missed and everything seemed to have the correlation with one another.

We have only became "detective" to decipher his photos and captions after what happened.

Too late, we were just too late to realise it.