They say that those with the brightest smiles suffer the most pain.

 

He said that my smile was like one of an angels.

 

He said he loved me more than anything.

 

Lies...

 

I thought I had finally found someone that I could spend my life with. I guess I was wrong.

 

He said that I had the brightest smile he had ever seen. I guess that's because I was suffering the most on the inside.

 

All the hate I received for loving someone.

 

Messages left in my locker...

Notes telling me to suicide...

All the bullying...

Trying to study when someone texts me and tells me to go die every few minutes...

 

My heart is scarred.

 

Yet you failed to notice Kise.

 

All the pain I hid behind the fake smile you never cared about.

 

All the cuts on my arm hid under long sleeves.

 

All the pain and suffering hid behind a smile.

 

Yet you still claimed to love me.

 

I thought that maybe. Just maybe I'll be able to survive with Kise in my life.

 

But I was wrong.

 

"Hey (Y/N) lets break up,"

 

It's the first time in years that he didn't say your name with a cchiiiiii~

 

"What why,"

 

"One of my fangirls said that you beat her up because she called you ugly,"

 

"What no I didn't,"

 

"(Y/N) stop lying you're just like them. Dating me for fame. You're a monster hiding behind a fake smile."

 

And with that he left.

 

I mean he wasn't completely wrong.

 

I'm just a monster hiding behind a smile except this monster is tearing my heart to shreds.

 

(3 years laterr _(:3」z)_)

 

Kise's POV

 

She was the one I loved. 

 

Why was I so foolish back then to let her go.

 

I knew those smiles were fake.

 

I knew that she was hurting on the inside.

 

I knew about all the bullying and all the hate she received.

 

I knew about her hurting herself.

 

And all because of me.

 

Yet I did nothing.

 

Why?!

 

I was afraid of hurting her more.

 

I regret everything I did back then. I should've stayed with her and helped her get better.

 

But I chose to be a coward and to leave her to suffer alone.

 

I'm sorry (Y/N)-cchii.

 

I'm sorry that you left this world and it was my fault.

 

I want you back (Y/N)-chii. I want to see your angelic smile again.

 

 

 

 

:)