Out in the open

My Crush was Two-Sided After All

During lecture, Youngjae was bored and was scrolling through Jaebum’s timeline on Facebook with a dumb smile on his face.

 

He had reposted some cute cat videos and some dance competition videos and a selca with his cat Nora.

 

Jackson after a while saw that Youngjae had stopped typing and instead had a weird smile on his face.

 

“Ya!” he whispered screamed to Youngjae who jumped regardless of how low Jackson’s voice. “When did you work up the balls to friend JB on Facebook?”

 

“It just happened...” Youngjae muttered not wanting to remember that night in the least because that was the worst way to ever first talk to your crush.

 

 

Earlier in the Fall semester.

 

Youngjae had found out Jaebum was a part of a fraternity called Pi Delta Psi and decided that for once in his life he was going to go to a frat party and of course he easily convinced Jackson to tag along who also brought along his dongsaeng in freshman year Bambam. Youngjae didn’t want to ask Jinyoung since he was sure the elder would not only not go, but also disapprove of him going.

 

The three of them dressed up to be a little bit more appetizing which for Youngjae just meant skinny jeans with rips and a tight fitting shirt while Jackson wore a sleeveless shirt and leather pants and Bambam just dressed like Bambam because as long as Youngjae has known the boy, he looked like he walked out of a fashion show or was ready to party at any time.

 

Jackson had forced both of them to take 3 shots of vodka so that by the time they got to the party they would be more loose and open to dancing and flirting.

 

A bad idea in Youngjae’s opinion but he couldn’t be the party pooper amongst the 2.

 

Youngjae, however, didn’t know that it was Jackson’s plan all along to get both Bambam and Youngjae with their crushes in Breakfree who were both going to be at that party, Yugyeum and JB.

 

 

Long story short, Youngjae got drunk for the first time in his life and could barely function and of course who he turned to in his drunk state just happened to be his crush, Jaebum.

 

“Jaebummiiiiiieeeee” he whined when he caught sight of his crush by the bar getting a drink and hugged his arm causing the said boy to almost drop his newly fixed margarita.

 

Jaebum was upset at first but when he saw who it was he looked really confused and shocked “Youngjae? Youngjae are you ok? How much did you have to drink tonight?”

 

“Whatttt? You know my nameeeee?” Youngjae hiccupped.

 

Jaebum realized he ed up and changed the topic. “Did you come with friends? Where are they?”

 

“Dunno. Haven’t seen them in…..” Youngjae glances at his watch “A long time.” He finished and giggled.

 

Jaebum looked at him and his eyes flickered as if he was making a hard decision. He downed his drink and then looked back at the boy who was still clinging to him.

 

“Come on Youngjae, I’ll take you home.”

 

“You don’t know where I live...” Youngjae protested.

 

“I’m an RA for your dorm this year. I know where you live. Come on!” Jaebum said ushering Youngjae to the room where all the guests put their jackets.

 

“What! How did I not know this? I could have just...walked to the next building and seen you instead of...hic...watching you at the library.” Youngjae muttered upset.

 

“Wait…you do what?” Jaebum asked surprised as to why Youngjae would ever watch him at the library when he doesn’t know him.

 

Youngjae stayed quiet and just clung to his arm to walk properly.

 

“Youngjae? Youngjae?” Jaebum slightly nudged the boy leaning on his arm to make him open his eyes.

 

“Mmn?”

 

Jaebum tried to ignore how much that sound sounded like a delicious moan from the younger. “Did you bring a jacket with you?”

 

“No…I don’t think so…. It’s so hot here….” Youngjae murmured.

 

Jaebum just sighed and took his jacket from a couch and draped it over Youngjae’s shoulders.

 

“Wow, you’re being nice. Here I thought you would be cold because you’re so neomu chic and y.”

 

Jaebum for the first time felt himself blush from the words from Youngjae’s mouth coupled with the glazed over eyes from his smiling face. He needed to get himself together.

 

“Come on, let’s get you home.” Jaebum said and coughed and looked away not wanting to look into Youngjae’s eyes that had the same gloss as someone lost in lust. “Where’s your phone? Call one of your friends.”

 

“Don’t wanna!”

 

“Give me your phone.”

 

“Whyyyyy?”

 

“So I can give you my number.”

 

Youngjae at the speed of light reached in his pocket and fished out his phone to give to Jaebum.


Jaebum immediately typed in his number in his contacts and quickly called himself. Then added himself on Facebook.

 

“It doesn’t take that long to do that….” Youngjae complained. Even drunk he was still smart.

 

“Give me a minute.” Jaebum said and then he looked through his contacts and called his most recently messaged person.

 

That person was unavailable.

 

He called the second person and they were also unavailable.

 

“Yah! Who are you calling with my phoneee?” Youngjae whined and to shut him up Jaebum pulled him into a hug and rubbed his back soothingly which easily shut the younger boy up as he settled on his chest.

 

Jaebum willed his heart to calm down while he called the fourth and fifth person and got the same response. He then gave up and slipped the phone back in Youngjae’s pocket.

 

Jaebum tried to tug Youngjae off his chest but the boy wouldn’t budge. “Let’s go, I’ll take you home.”

 

“I don’t wanna walk home.”

 

“Do you want to be carried home then?” he asked sarcastically.

 

But Youngjae’s face lit up and he reached out his arms and pouted. “Pwease Jaebummie.”

 

Jaebum’s widened in shock as he stared at the y Youngjae that was there a second ago disappear into a cute baby-like pouting Youngjae. The look combined with the innocence of his statement made him blush again for the second time because it threw him off. Choi Youngjae what are you doing to me….

 

“Jaebummie….” He whined again.

 

“Just reminding you Choi Youngjae. You don’t know me and I don’t know you but you’re asking for a piggy back ride?”

 

He nodded cutely and Jaebum realized he was too drunk to think rationally so he just got down on his knee and turned around and waited till Youngjae was settled around him to stand up.

 

The sudden change in height made Youngjae gasp which made Jaebum freeze because the breath from his mouth ran against his neck and ear causing goosebumps to spread all over his body.

 

He took a deep breath to try and calm his body as Youngjae fixed his position so that his arms were wrapped around his neck and his face lied on his shoulder.

 

He held Youngjae’s legs closer to him and readied himself for a perilous journey back to their dorm.

 

It didn’t help him at all that he wasn’t sober either and all his blood kept wanting to stay away from his brain and go to other places.

 

“Ya Im Jaebum.” Youngjae slur whispered into his ear making Jaebum almost trip on an invisible object.

 

“Hmm?” he hummed in response forcing his body to just calm the hell down.

 

“I don’t know…..I don’t know if I’ll remember this….but if I don’t, I just want to say thank you now.” Youngjae stated slowly.

 

Jaebum again found his heart racing and was thinking of an answer when he heard the deep breathing of Youngjae next to his ear.

 

“Youngjae?” he asked. No answer

 

“Hey are you awake?” No answer.

 

Jaebum sighed with how troublesome a drunk Youngjae could be but he found himself smiling because it was also really cute.

 

Jaebum carried Youngjae all the way to his single room and then tried opening the door realized it was locked.

 

“Damn it.”

 

Jaebum then shifted Youngjae from off his back into bridal position and then used one hand to pat Youngjae’s pockets to find his keys.

 

They weren’t in his shirt pockets, or the front pockets of his pants. Jaebum sighed before realizing where they must be.

 

He reached under and patted both perky cheeks of Youngjae’s peach which made so many inappropriate thoughts run through his mind. The second cheek had his keys and Jaebum couldn’t lie that he didn’t enjoy reaching into those pockets for the keys and decided to give them one last squeeze before turning back to the door.

 

He picked back up Youngjae in one hand and then used the other to open his door.

 

He dropped Youngjae on his bed who immediately curled up as if he was there all along. He stood up straight and stretched his back which cracked.

 

He started muttering to himself that because of tonight he would get back problems.

 

With a sigh Jaebum looked at the boy cutely asleep on the bed and realized that he gratefully wasn’t as heavy as he ever thought he was.

 

With one last lustful look at Youngjae, before his temptation could take over to stay, he left the room.

 

 

Present

 

“What do you mean it just happened?”

 

“I don’t really remember much from the night either Jackson." Youngjae lied avoiding eye contact "I just remember I was with him and when I woke up there were anti-hangover pills and water and when I checked my phone I had his number and as friends with him on Facebook."

 

“Don’t forget you called me too.”

 

“Whatever. You weren’t the only one I called that night.”

 

“What do you mean? I’m your best friend. I should be the only person you call when drunk.” Jackson pouted and Youngjae rolled his eyes.

 

“I'm closer to Jinyoung hyung than you!" Youngjae teased " But in order I called Jaebum, you, Jinyoung hyung, Nickhyun hyung, Bambam, and Mark.”

 

“Mark?” Jackson questioned with his brows furrowed. “Why would you call him? When did you guys get close?”

 

“Well he approached me at the beginning of this year and I thought it was a good idea to hang out with people in Breakfree if I wanted to at some point get close to JB.”

 

“Smart.”

 

“That’s why we’re at the top university.” Youngjae responded smirking and with a wink.

 

 

 

“Jackson and Youngjae, if you are just going to talk throughout my lecture please take your leave now.” Their professor suddenly called out to them causing both of them to apologize and flush with embarrassment and go back to taking notes.

 

 

 

After their class ended, they both left to go to the dining hall where they had planned to meet Bambam and Jinyoung. They spotted the two sitting together chatting away happily and the two greeted them with big smiles on their faces.

 

“Did something happen while we were in class?” Youngjae asked puzzled from seeing them so smiley and settled into the seat next to Jinyoung.

 

“Bambam worked up the guts to ask Yugyeum to eat with us at dinner today. He should be here any minute now.” Jinyoung said proudly ruffling Bambam’s hair.

 

“Hyung~” Bambam whined. “I spent time styling it this morning.”

 

“You spend time styling it every morning.” Jinyoung teased back sticking his tongue out at the younger.

 

Jackson proudly swung his arm around Bambam and playfully headlocked him. “Becoming a man already? Mn?” Jackson playfully teased and we all laughed along except I had some bitterness in mine. Bambam is making steps with his crush in Breakfree why couldn’t I?

 

“Youngjae?” a voice questioned and he looked up to see Mark shyly standing there.

 

“Mark hyung? Hey, how’s it going?”

 

“Good….I was just wondering if I could sit with you. Jaebum said he would be late because of a class but I don’t want to eat alone.” Mark muttered while glancing from him to in front of him where Jinyoung was sitting also staring at Mark.

 

Youngjae looked around at his friends who gave him a shrug as to say they don’t mind, well, all except Jinyoung whose ears had started to turn a bit pink at the sight of Mark.

 

“Yea sure, of course you can hyung.” Youngjae said smiling to Mark after giving Jinyoung a weird stare.

 

Mark sat in front of Jinyoung and they shared a long stare before looking away from each other and Youngjae made a mental note to ask his hyungs about this later. Bambam and Jackson also had awkward faces on not knowing what to say and it just registered that they didn’t know each other.

 

“By the way guys, this is Mark, he is in Breakfree.” Youngjae said to introduce him causing Mark to blush and wave it off muttering in English that he didn’t have to add the last part.

 

“Yes I did.” Youngjae told him back in English and then went back to Korean. “And Mark, these are my friends Bambam, Jackson and Jinyoung, they are all in Emotion with me and Jinyoung is in After Eight and Choir with me as well.” He made sure to say Jinyoung’s name last and as he expected there was another stare shared between the two.

 

“It’s nice to meet you guys.” He said shyly while just staring at Jinyoung. “So you sing and dance then huh?” he asked not really directed to anyone but Jinyoung knew it was him and just nodded in response and Mark muttered “that’s cool” and they both flushed again. Jackson, Bambam and I shared confused glances but we didn’t know how to change it till Jackson being the social person he was broke the awkward silence.

 

“So Mark. That’s a foreign name. Where are you from?” Jackson asked so straightforwardly.

 

“I moved here from LA four years ago to come to university here.” Mark responded finally shifting his attention away from Jinyoung to the other two.

 

“Wow dude that’s cool. So you’re a senior?” Bambam asked.

 

Mark nodded.

 

“Bambam and I are both international too. I’m a sophomore from Hong Kong and” “I’m from Thailand and a freshman” Bambam cut in to respond for himself.

 

Mark flashed them one of his killer smiles and they all fell in awe of how pretty he was. “Nice to know I’m not alone.”

 

Luckily just then another voice called out. “Mark hyung? What are you doing here?”

 

They all turned their attention to Yugyeum who just walked up to the table with his food.

 

“Yugyeum ah?” Mark questioned.

 

“Yugyeum you came!” Bambam shouted and got up from his seat to greet Yugyeum with a hug who hugged him back with one hand since his other hand food. Yugyeum then sat next to Youngjae and across from Bambam who was beaming with happiness and a pink dusting his cheeks.

 

How Youngjae envied him.

 

“Guys, this is Yugyeum. These are my friends Jackson, Youngjae, Jinyoung, and you already know Mark I see.”

 

“Yea, we’re in Breakfree together.” Mark responded.

 

“I’m glad we chose one of the longer tables. Nice to meet you kiddo.” Jinyoung said with a small smile. The first words he spoke since Mark joined the table and Youngjae found it weird since he was one of the talkative hyungs.

 

“Nice to meet you all too.” Yugyeum said bowing.

 

(Seating Chart is like this)

Mark

Jackson

Bambam

Jinyoung

Youngjae

Yugyeum

 

After the introductions were done, the awkwardness atmosphere passed and they all began to converse normally as if they had all been friends all along. Just joking around and talking while eating.

 

It was all going well until Jaebum finally reached the dining hall and after seeing the distant bright blonde hair, ran up to Mark hugging him.

 

“Mianhae Chingu-ah” he said breathlessly with his eyes closed, hence he didn’t see the others at the table who stared at him wide eyes.

 

“I’m so sorry I’m late. Sorry for making you eat alone. DUDE. I’m so tired, I ran all the way here. My class ended late and it was all the way on the other side of campus. I’m like 25 minutes late I know but forgive me, uh?” Jaebum panted out with his eyes still squeezed shut.

 

Mark smiled apologetically at the others then patted Jaebum’s hands and said chuckling “Its ok, I’m not eating alone….”

 

It was at that line JB pulled away from the hug and stepped back finally opening his eyes and seeing the crowded table. He cleared his throat and tried to seem cool again but he was already pink from the exertion and now from embarrassment. “I didn’t see that…Sorry.”

 

“President? Why are you here?” Yugyeum asked and that is when JB decided to take a good look at who was at the table and it turned out that Youngjae just had to be there too but he was hidden between a good looking guy he didn’t know and Yugyeum.

 

“Ah I was supposed to have dinner with Mark, but I came late. I should have known you were popular enough to have friends to eat with besides me.” Jaebum said to Mark a bit chastising and Youngjae couldn’t help but smile because Jaebum was a lot dorkier than he let on.

 

Mark just smiled and shrugged. “I actually just met half of them today.”

 

At this Jaebum’s small eyes widened causing the good looking boy to snicker.

 

“What’s so funny?” he challenged looking at Jinyoung.

 

“Your expression is priceless.” Jinyoung said giggling to himself and covering his mouth as he usually does with his eyes crinkling. “Look look look, it’s getting even funnier looking.” He teased as blunt as ever.

 

Mark looked amused at Jinyoung and Jaebum just looked plain out offended and almost got upset.

 

“Yah, Jinyoung hyung….” Youngjae said to Jinyoung to stop him.

 

Jinyoung put up his hands in surrender playfully to Youngjae then turned back to Jaebum. “You can pull up a chair and join us instead of standing there like a deer in headlights. We’re not dangerous, just strangers.”

 

“Jinyoung hyung!” Youngjae said again giving him the look of stopping it because that was his crush and his mouth formed a small “O” and Mark cooed over how cute that expression was.

 

“You…” JB glared at Jinyoung. “You’re lucky Mark hyung lik-” JB’s words were cut off by Mark quickly standing and putting his hand over his mouth.

 

“He-Hey, no need to say unnecessary things. Lemme grab a chair for you.” Mark said sending a stern glare at him before going off to fetch an unused chair from another table to pull up to the booth that they were all sitting at. Leaving the rest of the table confused.

 

Once they were all seated. Jaebum regretfully next to both Jinyoung and Mark since Youngjae was on the inside.

 

“Ah…well this just got back awkward after it just got unawkward.” Jackson stated. “Reintroductions?” he questioned but didn’t even give any time before going “I’m Jackson Wang, from Hong Kong, Sophomore. In Emotion and an English major. Captain of the fencing club”

 

That started the chain line and as he gestured to Bambam to go next. “Ah…I guess we’re doing this again. I’m Bambam from Thailand and a freshman. I’m also in Emotion and a Fashion Design major.”

 

“Hyung you already know me so can I skip my introductions?” Yugyeum looked pleadingly at JB but just got expectant stares from everyone at the table so he sighed. “Kim Yugyeum. Sophomore. Dance major in Breakfree with those two.” He said gesturing to the other side of the table where his sunbaes sat.

 

It was Youngjae’s turn and he had been staying silent for a long time. Just wondering how lucky he was that he got to eat dinner with his crush.

 

Just what kind of perfect world was it that he could be this close to JB. That it was such a small world where he could meet him in such a casual setting that turned from a dinner with his friends to everyone being with their crush in Breakfree. Today was such a good day…

 

Jinyoung nudged him and took him out of his staring at JB stupor and he blushed severely.

 

“Ah sorry. Yea. I’m Choi Youngjae. Theatre and Film major, sophomore as well. And I’m in Emotion with these three and in Choir and After Eight with Jinyoung hyung.” He said smiling with the blush still evident on his cheeks. Once he worked up the courage to look up at JB he saw him smirking at him and he looked away wondering why the ground couldn’t just swallow him up.

 

Jinyoung opened his mouth to start a sassy introduction to JB but he was met with a gaze from Mark which stopped him before he even started.

 

He looked away. “Park Jinyoung. Junior. Education major. Youngjae already stated what clubs I’m in except that I am the president of Emotion, After Eight and the International Students Union.”

 

Youngjae himself forgot that this semester Jinyoung became president of the International Student Union. But that of course explains how he knew most of the international kids at their school.

 

Jaebum on the other hand looked surprised at the news, and Jinyoung saw the obvious shock and rolled his eyes. “What? Am I exceeding your expectations?”

 

Youngjae was almost about to hit his hyung to stop him, but it was the first time he saw these many expressions coming from JB and it made him pleased that Jinyoung could bring this out of someone who usually had such a cool composure.

 

JB was going to say something back but Mark kicked him gently under the table knowing how savage JB could be as well. “No you just don’t seem like that type of person to be in charge.” JB still said savagely and Youngjae was so entertained that there was someone as savage as Jinyoung in this world.

 

Jackson, Bambam and Yugyeum all oohed and commented “savage” and “diss” at the comment and there was a small stare battle between the two till Youngjae interrupted. “Jaebum it’s your turn.” He said.

 

Jaebum finally looked away from Jinyoung who looked ready to flying kick him, to Youngjae who gave him a shy smile which made whatever annoyance he had disappear. “Im Jaebum. Junior…as well.” He said glancing at Jinyoung. “Philosophy major and president of Breakfree.”

 

“And to finish this up, I’m Mark Tuan, from LA. Senior doing an independent major. Ex-president of Breakfree and current president of the Martial Arts club.”

 

At this Jinyoung’s anger went away into staring admiringly at Mark who gave him back a shy look.

 

Jackson then cleared his throat. “Well now that we all know each other. Back to what we were talking about before Jaebum here showed up.

 

"Jaebum hyung to you." Jaebum said interrupting him.

 

"As i was saying before Jaebum interrupted me," sending back a challenging glare in his direction,

 

"He's a foreigner let it go." Jinyoung calmly commented to which Jackson sent him a grateful stare. 

 

"So, this haunted house that the Pi house is holding. You guys have to come with me!!”

 

“Wait you guys know about the haunted house were doing at our frat? How? Info hasn’t even been released yet...” JB trailed off.

 

“Yo dude you’re a brother there? That makes so much sense as to why after the party we went to there that you carried drunk Youngjae home.”

 

“Yah, why are you bringing that up?” Youngjae yelled out embarrassed.

 

“Ehh? Hyung you did that. I don’t believe you…” Yugyeum said to Jaebum.

 

Now both JB and Youngjae looked embarrassed.

 

“I knew I should have been suspicious when Jackson told me not to worry about where you guys were going that night…” Jinyoung muttered facepalming himself.

 

“JB, isn’t that the same night you came to my room asking what to do when you’re in a tempting situation?” Mark teased with his eyebrows raised.

 

JB looked up at Mark angrily then after a second sent him a challenging stare that seemed to say “Are you sure you want to start releasing secrets?”

 

“Yea the same night you were showing me secret pictures you took of Jinyoung at the dance studio.”

 

“Yah!” Mark yelled.

 

“Woah woah woah...what is going on here?” Bambam questioned the flushing four at the other end of the table.

 

“You took pictures of me Mark hyung?” Jinyoung asked and Mark avoided his gaze.

 

“What do you mean tempting situation?” Youngjae asked innocently to Jaebum who also avoided his gaze.

 

“Welp that just got awkward.” Jackson stated with his eyes open. “but anyways back to what I was saying was we should go! Like together as a group! Well now that we all know each other and we have someone who is a brother there.”

 

JB and Mark mentally thanked Jackson for being able to change the topic back. But they were still met with their respective questioning gaze from Jinyoung and Youngjae.

 

“Ye-Yea. You guys are all welcome to come if you want.” Jaebum stuttered out and Youngjae was surprised at how much his cool demeanor fell apart at one dinner. But he still smiled because it was super cute and dorky and Youngjae guessed it was only his friends that got to see him like this.

 

Jaebum just happened to glance at Youngjae who was flashing his sunshine smile to him and he felt like he couldn’t breathe and his heart was racing for the second time that day and it wasn’t from the running. What was happening to him?

 

“Alright its settled. We’re going!!” Jackson yelled happily causing the awkward atmosphere to go away.

 

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simba7 #1
Chapter 1: I LOVE IT SO MUCH ALREADY ON JUST THE 1ST CHAPTER <3
ItsyjArs #2
Chapter 1: Okee i like it
Erah23
#3
Chapter 4: 2Young’s relationship here are goals.... MAkes my heart flutter. CAn i also call YoungJae my baby amd Jinyoung my Man? Hahahah ok thats way off the gutter XD
Little-hope
#4
Chapter 4: Aww, I loved it ! It was such a sweet and nice story. They are adorable!
kpop_cloud
#5
Chapter 2: OMFG you made JB part of Pi Delta Psi <3
I can literally imagine him as a bro, he fits the Pi image so well ahhhhh~ the Got7 handsign even looks like the PDPsi handsign! *applauds enthusiastically*
Angelfreya #6
Chapter 5: Gutted this story finished wish it had been a bit longer cause I enjoyed it so much x wonderfully written xxxxx???
Angelfreya #7
Chapter 3: Chapter 3 Loving this story so far x excited to read the next chapter x
Joyce7 #8
Chapter 5: Omg I want a sequel for Markjin and what happen to jinyoung and Jaebum in the past? Nice story authornim I LOVE IT SO SO MUCH!!!
JinyoungsMark #9
Chapter 5: Definitely waiting for markjin backstory ")
markinpeach
#10
Chapter 5: Markjin is like the parents I’ve always wanted lol
I can feel that Jaebum really loves Youngjae here and it feels so real ;;
Thanks for writing <3