-[Yoongi]-

2 more weeks and it's the wedding.

It's been hectic for the past few weeks considering the wedding is nearing which means my time is running out,

Like literal running out, even Hoseok and Seokjin are starting to worry and nags me all the time about finally confessing that I'm a guy and not a girl, I would have agreed with them if it weren't for the fact I'm scared to less.

I know the King and Queen are both very nice if the past month doesn't say anything but I also know what it looks like when something makes them angry, and making them angry is already a feat itself since they're usually one of the more calmer and less aggressive types of rulers, but I don't think they'll agree with me for lying also.

I was currently sitting on the bed that I share with Jimin, stressing about this while Jimin was out with the others, I had refused to go with them while they pick out cakes for their weddings.

I instead decided to stressed about the situation I'm currently in because as much as I want to forget about it, I also can't forget I'm lying to almost every person in Seoul and maybe the whole country even,

I really want to tell Jimin's parents but I'm scared at the same time, telling his parents will also risk me in losing Jimin and I do not want to lose Jimin, I'll trade every life I have if it means I get to stay with Jimin,

It's so ing annoying how I have grown soft and attached to Seoul's precious prince,

I don't even think it's possible to fall this fast,

If someone was to tell me that I would end up disguising as a girl in the Grand Ball and agreeing to marry the oldest prince of Seoul, I probably would have just laughed at them and to call the hospital in case they were having some kind of brain damage but nope,

I want to laugh and cry at the same time at how the I got into this situation,

I love Jimin, I really do but it seems like life doesn't agree with that.

I did end up crying though, within seconds of me stressing out I could feel my eyes start to water and my vision got blurry, I tried to wipe it away but decided to just ignore it.

I blinked and the first drops of tears fell and tears started streaming down and the funny thing is, I don't mind.

I let it continue to flow as I try to think positive but it seems like my luck is starting to run out,

2 more weeks and I'll have to leave Jimin, maybe even sooner than that.

Just any of this day, I will end up getting kicked out or maybe end up in jail if the king and queen feel like it,

I should really stop, I finally got over depression just about a year ago, I can't have it coming back to me like a ing landslide.

But the thought of not having Jimin around sounds... impossible, I've grown attached to him like the moss you see sometimes in the forest or in the ocean.

I want to throw a tantrum as to why life is so cruel to me but that isn't something I'll usually do,

Then I heard the door click, I froze for a second before quickly wiping my tears.

I tried to make myself look like I was just sitting and not actually crying while sitting in just a few seconds before the door opened,

"Hyung! Hyung! I found the perfect cake for the wedding-" Jimin cut himself off just as he was bouncing towards me with a gleeful smile before it dropped in a matter of seconds and in return changed to a more worried look,

"Hyung, what's wrong?"

"N-Nothing Jiminie, hyung is fine," I said between sniffles as I looked up to see a very concerned Jimin,

This only made Jimin look more concerned,

"Hyung, you sure? You don't look nice," Jimin said as he carefully sat beside me,

"Of c-course I am," I said, silently cursing my stutter.

"But hyung-" Jimin was about to protest before I shook my head,

"No Jimin, I'll tell you another time... just not right now," I said sternly but with a hint of fear,

Jimin seemed to think about it before nodding his head,

"Alright then hyung... do you want a hug?" Jimin said cheekily trying to lighten up my mood,

My face split into a small grin before nodding, Jimin seemed happy with the answer before he wrapped his arms around me, squishing me into his body.

His warmth was comforting but rather haunting,

Just the thought of not having this warmth anymore sounds impossible but unavoidable.

I tried ignoring the unwanted thoughts in my head and instead focus on the present.

> - <

I still haven't moved from the bed, I think a day has passed and I actually don't think I would not have eaten anything if it weren't for a fact a certain older male that worries way too much,

"Hyung I said I'm okay!" I said annoyed as Seokjin once again entered my room to see if I ate anything,

"But you still haven't eaten anything! And look how skinny you are, you better that Yoongi or I swear to God I will feed you myself," Seokjin said with his hands on his hips while glaring at me angrily,

"In my defense, I ate the lamb skewer," I said with a roll of my eyes, ignoring the fact that the lamb skewer looked perfectly fine,

"Uh-huh," Seokjin said with a roll of his eyes before huffing, also annoyed at my stubbornness.

"I'm calling Jimin," Seokjin suddenly said,

My eyes widened in horror, Jimin doesn't know I haven't been eating lately as depressing as that sounds.

I mean he knows something's up considering I don't join him anything that's related to the wedding, if he'll ask me if I could come with him to check out the different themes for the wedding, I'll refuse saying I'm gonna work on my music.

I may say that to him but actually, I'm just sulking as childish as that sounds.

"Please don't," I said quickly, Seokjin narrows his eyes at me.

"What? Does Jimin not know of your stupid sulking?" Seokjin asked now shock and concerned,

I avoid his eyes and nodded slowly, Seokjin seemed to gasped way to dramatically at this.

"What?! Your own fiance does not know of your stupid sulking?!" Seokjin said like that actually matters,

Wait, do they?

"I mean why would I want him knowing I'm sulking?" I asked confused,

"Well.. good point but like shouldn't Jimin at least know what you're sulking about?" Seokjin asked now concerned,

Okay, he changes mood fast.

"Yoongi... what actually are you sulking about?" Seokjin suddenly asked, his voice now laced with concern and softness, if that's even possible.

I panicked at the question not knowing what to answer, maybe Seokjin doesn't realize that my expiration date is coming faster than expected.

"Nothing hyung," I said more vulnerable than I wanted it to sound,

"Yoongi, I've known you for a ing long time and I took you in when you were Senior in High School and never have I ever not known that you're not sulking, so you better tell me right now," Seokjin said, completely surprised me when he cursed.

Seokjin had always refused to curse since he said it was immature and unnecessary to humankind.

I looked at him pleadingly before Seokjin softened slightly and went to sit beside me,

What's up with people trying to comfort me these days.

"You know I'm not forcing you to tell me" - I scoffed at that, Seokjin glared at me to keep quiet - "but I think it's better if you at least tell someone, to you know... share your burden?" Seokjin said not entirely sure with what he was saying but was pretty sure what he was saying was right,

I snorted at that, "Share your burden," I murmured mockingly before sighing,

I mean, I guess he's right.

Keeping this all to myself isn't healthy and plus, he already knows of my situation so why not?

"It's just that... hyung," I said pathetically not sure how to start, Seokjin nodded encouragingly making me internally roll my eyes,

"Yeah?" Seokjin said carefully, then without warning tears starting to spill from my eyes, starting Seokjin.

"Omo Yoongi, what's wrong?" Seokjin said now more concerned as he tried to wipe the tears from my eyes, but I only cried harder and before I know it I started spitting out jumbled words that were supposed to be sentences,

"Sh, sh, calm down first Yoongi-ah then speak," Seokjin said soothingly as he rubbed my back just as soothing as his voice,

As much as I hate to admit it, I'm lucky to have a friend as caring and soothing as Seokjin even if I at showing it, I really appreciate him.

> - <

After I finally stopped crying, (well, it was still hard to speak but at least tears stopped flowing down like waterfalls.) I finally explained to Seokjin about my situation,

I thought Seokjin was suddenly going to start sympathizing me or start comforting me with sayings like "Don't worry," or "Everything's gonna be alright." but no, instead he's just staring me with this half-amused and half-disbelief look,

It was quiet after my explanation and it's starting to annoy me, because hello?

"Hyung?" I said breaking the silence as I looked at him, now it was me worried.

Then he suddenly burst out laughing,

I frowned at him, usually, his window wiper laugh would crack me up too but this time I'm just offended,

I'm having a major crisis here and he dares laugh?

How he dare.

"Hyung, stop laughing. This is a serious matter, I knew I should have never told you." I said grumpily at him as Seokjin suddenly shook his head,

"Wait, no." He gasped for air before continuing, "It isn't that it's just-" He wheezes another laugh before continuing,"-It's just that, are you stupid?"

Huh?

"Huh?" I said befuddled, because of what?

"I asked, are you dumb-"

"No, I mean what the heck? What do you mean?" I said confused and out-right just offended,

"Yoongi seriously," Seokjin said his voice turning gentle as if now understanding something,

"What?" I huffed out annoyed at his reaction,

"Yoongi do you really think when you finally come out, they ain't gonna just kick you out or something, I mean Jimin clearly loves you, I ain't blind so surely they're not just suddenly kick you out," Seokjin said with a roll of his like it's that simple,

"I mean like-" I try to protest but Seokjin was not having any of it,

"Plus have you seen Jimin's parents? They're like one of the most caring and loving looking people I've ever met... besides me of course," Seokjin added making my eyes hurt from trying not to roll my eyes at this,

"But hyung... what if even if they don't kick me out, what if they won't let me marry my Jiminie? They can't do that can they?" I said rather pathetically since I don't really show this much raw emotion all in one go,

Seokjin seems to think about this for a second before softly answering with his arms wrapped around me,

"Yoongi-ah, don't worry about this. Even if they plan on kicking you out don't you think they'll think about Jimin too? I mean Jimin won't kick you out, and if you do get kicked out that doesn't mean I'll leave you, you know?" Seokjin said,

I seemed to think about it for a second before nodding slightly, at this Seokjin smiled broadly before adding,

"I mean I would be a horrible mother if I do that,"

That made me smack at him half-heartedly.

That guy, I swear to God.

-[Jimin]-

"Hyung?" I said as I silently walk in to see if Yoongi was still awake or asleep already,

I've been worried about him lately but he doesn't seem to budge whenever I ask him about it, but today Seokjin told me that I should go have a talk with him and I think it's about what Yoongi's stressing about lately,

"Hm?" A sleepy voice Yoongi said gruffly as he rolled on the bed to look at me,

If I could I would coo at how cute he looks like right now, but his eyes are red and puffy.

I sighed deeply as I entered the room fully and went straight to Yoongi,

Yoongi shuffled to make room for me as I sat down beside him, he was still laying flat on his stomach before he started crawling onto me, trying to initiate a cuddle session.

Of course being the jelly that I am, agreed to his cuddling as he sat comfortably on top of me.

It was quiet for a while, only our breathing could be heard before I decided to break the silence,

"Hyung," I said to get Yoongi's attention as Yoongi grunted to signal I got his attention,

"Yoongi hyung are you okay?" I asked softly, Yoongi seemed to freeze at that before trying to shuffle out of my grip but I only tightened so he can't escape, this caused Yoongi to grunt in distaste.

"Why would you ask that? Of course, I'm okay," Yoongi said more bitter than he intended to,

"You don't sound okay,"

"Seriously, I'm okay-"

"Hyung, seriously. Are you okay? You know you can always tell me? You haven't left the room for like 3 days now and the things that you're supposed to participate for our wedding? Yeah, you weren't there either even though we were supposed to be both there," I said with a frown,

This seemed to silent Yoongi for a minute before he started shuffling out of my grip, this time I didn't tighten my grip but instead let him out,

When he was finally sitting comfortably beside me, I turned to his side so I can look at him.

"Hyung? Can you please just tell me, I've tried to be patient but it seems like you won't be telling me anytime soon," I said trying to not sound demanding but I've grown impatient, I'm his fiance but I don't even know what's wrong with him lately.

It to feel useless.

Yoongi wasn't looking at me and was instead looking at the bedsheets, I frowned at that and moved my hand to cup his face on both side and titled it slowly upwards so he was looking at this,

My eyes widened slightly at the sight, Yoongi looked like he given up hope and his eyes didn't have that sparkle that he usually has whenever he's happy but instead his eyes looked teary-eyed,

, , did I do something wrong?

I must look panicked since Yoongi only shook his head and put both his hands over my own as he looked at me before blinking, this only made me panic even more since the tears were now rolling down his cheeks and over my hands, I quickly wiped the tears away.

"H-hyung! What's wrong? Please stop crying," I said my voice going an octave higher, I was panicking.

This was the first time I've seen Yoongi crying and I wasn't really anticipating for him to cry either,

"I-I'm okay," Yoongi said, his voice sounding slightly hoarse.

I furrowed my eyebrows at him,

"But-"

"Can we talk about this at the secret garden of yours?" Yoongi suddenly said making my eyebrows shoot up in surprise,

"Huh?" I said confused, can't we just talk about this here?

"Just please," Yoongi said, his voice sounding pleading making me softened up before nodding,

"Sure if that's what you want," I said before standing up and realizing it was already night time, "Wait, are you sure? Like right now?"

"Yes," Yoongi said without hesitance making me go along with whatever Yoongi is planning,

"Well, should we get going?" I said as I watch Yoongi nod without his wig on, Yoongi always wears the wig on whenever he goes out of the room so this was rather weird,

"You're not gonna wear that?" I asked slowly as if the question was going to offend him,

Yoongi did seem offended as he only scowled before nodding,

"Uhm okay," I said not questioning anymore before grabbing two coats for both of us since it's night time and the outside must be freezing,

Then we both set off to the secret garden that we haven't visited since.... You know.

> - <

We were both sitting on the ground facing each other before Yoongi finally spoke.

"Remember the last time we were here?" Yoongi asked softly as he fold his knees to his chest,

"Of course," I said rather confused as to where this is going,

"Well, you do know the wedding is nearing?" Yoongi continued, I nodded my head in affirmation still not sure where this is going,

"Hm, well you do know I still haven't told your parents about me, right?" Yoongi said I nodded slowly realization slowly sinking in,

My expression gradually changing from confusion to a shock one,

'Wait, you're finally going to tell them?" I said shock and surprised, I mean I'm glad but what?

If you think about it, it's scary.

I can't believe I completely forgot about this, I've been so busy with the wedding I completely forgot about this.

When I looked back at Yoongi, what I saw wasn't what I expected.

Yoongi only frowned more and his eyes saddened,

"That's the problem," He whispered out faintly as he scooted closer, so both our knees were know touching,

"Huh?"

"Jimin do you even know the consequence if I tell them? And don't even suggest not telling them, because I have to tell them sooner or later, I mean as love as I would love to marry you, I don't want to marry you as a girl," Yoongi said his voice cracking and sounding vulnerable,

I was rendered speechless at that, I don't really know what to say anymore.

I love Yoongi, I seriously do but I don't even know what my parent's reaction would be.

I mean they don't really care about Yoongi's gender if he was to turn out being a guy, I mean Taehyung's marrying Hoseok, but my parents aren't really the type to take lying easily especially when it's this huge,

It was silent for a second before Yoongi continued to scoot closer and soon enough our legs were intertwined and Yoongi was leaning on my chest with my arms wrapped around him,

His heat was comforting but a heavy tsunami was happening inside of me as I tried to let whatever the hell is happening right now sink in,

I mean I'm sure my parents won't kick out Yoongi but you never know, my parents can be the real devils if they want to be.

I'm scared.

I don't want to let go of him... ever.

"Jimin... will you still love me if your parents won't let us get married?- I mean the marriage, I just want to know if you'll still love me even if your parents won't allow?" Yoongi said rather harshly than he intended but he just wanted an answer,

I seem completely shocked of the question but the answer was very much obvious,

"Of course, I would still love you," I said without hesitation as Yoongi looked up from my chest to look at me with a huge smile,

"You sure?"

"Of course," I said without hesitation again,

"Good, because after your parents kick me out you'll have to rebel and take care of your homeless fiance," Yoongi said jokingly,

I laughed at that, happy that he was at least not that sad anymore.

"Oh poor me, I take back what I said," I said as joking as Yoongi was as Yoongi only grinned even bigger, showing his cute gummy smile.

"Nope, you're stuck with me," Yoongi said as he leaned forward to capture my lips for a kiss,

I kissed back even though I was smiling too wide for it to be perfect, but it doesn't have to be perfect anyways.

When I finally pulled back I started pecking Yoongi's face everywhere, making Yoongi flush and giggle (cute but Yoongi refuses to say it's a giggle,) before they started an easy flowing conversation,

From how dogs are better than cats to how lame Seokjin's dad jokes are (Yoongi's words, not mine.) when I suddenly heard heavy footsteps nearby, like more than one footsteps.

"You think they went that way?!" a familiar voice said, it was faint but it could be heard to be just outside the secret garden.

Another voice be heard answering the question and the footsteps continued,

We were both frozen as we looked at the entrance of the secret garden that no one knows off,

"...J-Jimin, who was that?" Yoongi suddenly said his voice laced with fear,

"I d-don't-" I was about to reply but then I suddenly remembered where I heard that voice, actually I've heard that voice a lot whenever I get in trouble.

"Hyung... that was one of the Royal Guard's I've been close with since I was a teen, but. I don't know what's happening." I said already fearing the worst,

"D-do... you think they're looking for us?" Yoongi suddenly said,

I gulped as Yoongi voiced out what I was fearing the worst at the moment,

I didn't know what to say but it seems like Yoongi already got what I was about to confirm,

"We need to go," Yoongi said as he suddenly stood up making me almost roll over the ground, I frowned at me as Yoongi sheepishly looked at me before lending me a hand.

"You think we're not going to get caught?" I asked as I dusted myself off from the dirt that might have gotten stuck,

Yoongi looked uneasy at the question before shrugging like he didn't care, but he does care.

"Well... I hope not," Yoongi said before,

"You sure we should leave now?" I said as I grabbed Yoongi's wrist, Yoongi only nodded.

"The longer we stay here, the guards might cross here again and it's also getting late, we can't sleep here Jimin," Yoongi said sternly, making me agree with him,

Just as we were to step out of the secret garden and to maybe start running for our lives and also be quiet as , Yoongi suddenly said something.

"I'm scared,"

"Me too,"

"If we don't make it-"

"Hyung, stop being so dramatic!"

"I'm not, I'm just stating the truth!"

"What truth?!"

"The truth that if we get caught would you still love me?!" Yoongi suddenly said exasperatedly,

"Yoongi I already said-"

"Well, I want you to say it again," Yoongi said but I know he was scared,

But I was too,

I turned to face Yoongi and I cupped his face with both my hands,

"Yoongi, I'll still love you even if it killed me and I promise you that," I said as I looked directly at him, before quickly giving a chaste peck before letting go of his face.

He looked dazed for a moment before his cheeks turned slightly pink at the sudden confession but meekly nodded anyways,

'Now come on, let's get going." I said as I clasped my hands on his and slowly opened the secret door back to the castle's garden,

> - <

As we were slowly walking our way to the back door, the same door that I used when Ddosun started running to the maze,

Damn, that sounded like it happened years ago, and if you're wondering whatever happened to Ddosun, she's actually been pretty chill since the ball.

Weird but okay,

Me and Yoongi were pretty close to the door now, with Yoongi still clutching my hand like a lifeline as he anxiously looked around like something will suddenly pop out of nowhere, I mean I would too.

We had almost gotten caught a bunch times just by walking to this goddamn door, we had to hide between bushes or trees or anything actually just to not get caught, but walking to the door there's nowhere to hide, it was just a straight walk towards the door.

I cringed as every time we take a step, the rocky path will make a crunching sound which isn't the kind of sound you would like to make when trying to sneak back in when you just sneaked out.

Yoongi was shaking as we finally got to the door, I quickly took out my key to open the back door since I locked it when we sneaked out to not grow any suspicion but much to my surprise and fear, it was already unlocked.

"Holy mother ," I said under my breath as I turned the handle and the door clicked, signaling it's opened.

The curses must have alerted Yoongi,

"Jimin, what's wrong?" Yoongi said scared,

I shook my head, "Nothing... it's just, the door's already unlocked which is weird,"

This made Yoongi freeze for a second,

"Jimin... I've got a bad feeling about this," Yoongi said,

"...Me too," I said with a gulp, as much as I hate to admit it. "But hey, maybe it's just unlocked because of the Royal guards," I said as I finally entered the back door, the door creaking slightly making me want to scream in frustration but that would only worsen the problem right now,

When we both were fully inside now we suddenly breathed out a sigh of relief, that we both didn't know we were holding.

"I... can't believe we survived that," I said with a sigh as I slumped on a wall,

"Yeah... I seriously thought we were going to get caught." Yoongi said with a light chuckle as he ruffled his hair,

"mhm, " Jimin said and was about to suggest they should get going when another voice entered and the lights were suddenly , blinding both of them with the bright light.

"Jimin?" A feminine voice said,

We both froze, not daring to turn around since we already knew who owns that voice.

I gulped,

"Jimin? Is that you?" My mother said again, walking closer.

Oh ,

I didn't dare breathe and neither did Yoongi, Yoongi looked like he was about to cry, I would too actually.

I can't believe we just got caught, I can't believe this.

Why does life have to be so cruel?

My mother must not have noticed Yoongi yet, (Weird, but like okay. Set your priorities straight woman.) since she laid a hand on my shoulder and all in all I finally stopped breathing, like I just stopped and did not dare move my eye.

I was scared to less, the conversation we had flooding back to my mind,

Is this how it ends?

A/N -

Guess who's alive and well?

Not me.

Most definitely not me.

Guess who updated after making less promises?

That's me.

Most definitely me.

Yeah, I've given up hope on trying to keep up with my promises.

But like -

(Also *ahem* hIs aRmS *ahem* SwEet BeJiSoOs)

So anyways, I've finally woken up from my one month and a half nap.

Like btch, I thought I was dead.

BUT BOOM. SRPRISE BTCHASS.

Also one thing,

BTS ON FKING AMA's

LIKE U BETTER KNOW THIS HOE ABOUT TO CRY.

Wait, no. I already cried dafuq.

AND ALSO I HAVE ALSO AWAKENED TO ALSO FKING TELL U TO VOTE FOR BTS ON FKING MAMA AS MUCH AS THE VOTING IS FKING RIGGED. istg. (click me)

LIKE IM HAPPY ABOUT AMA'S BECAUSE FKING FINALLY.

BUT LIKE I SEE MAMA AND IM LIKE, BTCH WHO NOW.

MAMA better be ready to catch some hands cause Im about to throw mine, istg.

When they deducted a lot of our votes I was just -

Should I stop?

Yes I should, but anyways putting that matter aside (btch no, LIKE AMA'S BTCHASSS, A TO THE FKING 'MA')

FK THE MAMA's THEY GOING TO AMA's

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Okay, I should really stop.

Uhm yeah, Im not sure if I'll be able to update again next week but I'll try.

(Keyword: Try)

But yeah, about this chapter...

Yeah, Im cringing but like yes the fic is almost over.

;-;

But yeh, Like im high rn since Hobi gave me too much blunt but yes.

Fk yes.

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GemFact: I prefer cats over dogs. >.>

(sorry for any mistakes!)