It wasn’t that Himchan considered his life was miserable and sad just because he felt his house was somehow lonely once in a while, no, quite the contrary. He knew he had friends he cared for deeply and that loved being with him whenever they had time, that it only took a small “Let’s meet at the park in an hour” in their group chat for them to see each other. It was just that sometimes waking up or entering his house after a day at work felt cold and lonely, having no one that came to see him once he opened the door was something really hard some days and not that important in others. There were days he wondered how would it feel to have a ball of hyper activeness jumping on you when you opened the door like Daehyun had Youngjae, the only thing keeping him from actually asking what happened was that he had a pride to take care of. His other friend Jongup had said that maybe he should buy a dog or cat that meowed or barked when he opened the door, but Himchan had got rid of the idea almost instantly. He loved animals, but he wasn’t really looking for that kind of attention, he wanted a less furry companion. Sighing, Himchan got out of bed and made his way to the bathroom, thanking today he didn’t need to work and had the day to think about himself and this feelings that were wasting more energy than they should. Maybe it was because he did not show how he was feeling to others, maybe people had the wrong idea that he felt more than others because of it, after all, Daehyun once said a girl called him an arrogant diva that wasn’t even that good looking. Of course it had hurt, Himchan still remembered he spent the whole week thinking in what other things people could find irritating in order to change them. Whatever the reason it was, it had been more than five years since he had a more or less decent relationship, this one being a shy boy that ended up breaking up with him because he felt he wasn’t gay after all. Shutting the shower off, Himchan walked out of the bathroom and hurried to get dressed in comfortable clot