"It's just a one night stand meili. It didn't mean anything to me at all. You mean the world to me."

She knew that it was love with their relationship, she once thought that she would end up with him in the future and start their own family.
But then she realizes that he was never in love with her but he was always in love with her co member and not her.
She knew that their relationship was always something precious to her that she always wanted to keep fighting for and never give up.
Blind to see that he will never leave her and one day that he would love her the way he loves her co member.
That never happened, he cheated on her with her co member, yes she knew but she always thought he would come back to her in the end.
His heart has a mind of it's own and she knew that his heart would never give up her co member at all.
When he left SM Entertainment, she felt hopeless and depressed.
She kept hope that he would call her name with love like he did with her co member.
Months later her co member gets kicked out of the group, she sighs in relief but she knows they would be reunited.
The love she had with him was an unrequited love, she always chased after him.
Her best friend comes into the picture and he falls in love with her, he is everything she always wanted in a boyfriend.
Yet she pushes him away when he always tried to embrace her.
She shows him her scars and she refused to be healed.
Because of the past relationship she no longer looks for something special in a relationship.
She has to look for her original self which she left behind when she chased after her ex boyfriend.

"From my past relationship I need to find my original self again. I have to be the old me because I kept chasing after my ex."