Nayeon

Nayeon couldn’t say she hadn’t suspected something.

Deep down, all this time, suspicion and doubt was brewing inside her. So she couldn’t say that she was very surprised at what was happening.

She wasn’t sure if Mina was aware of her carelessness. Every time they’d get together, for a walk or out for lunch or simply just to cuddle, the topic at hand would always be Son Chaeyoung.

Chaeyoung this, Chaeyoung that. Everything was about Chaeyoung. Everything.

Nayeon thought Mina just felt bad for Chaeyoung. Being stuck with two older members, who were dating, must’ve been hard on Chaeyoung. All the members knew Chaeyoung was especially close with Dahyun, Tzuyu, and Jeongyeon, all of which were gone. So Nayeon couldn’t bear imagining what Chaeyoung must’ve been feeling. It wasn’t like they were awkward with each other, but Chaeyoung was more like the third wheel. Nayeon knew how that felt. (Jeongyeon and Momo would always constantly flirt in front of her, acting like she wasn’t there.)

But at one point, Nayeon could tell something was going on. She just chose to ignore it.

Mina would always spend more time with Chaeyoung. She’d be openly affectionate to Chaeyoung by initiating skinship. Once Nayeon thought she caught Mina kissing Chaeyoung, but dismissed it, thinking she was hallucinating due to lack of sleep.

But then there was the day where Mina blew off their lunch date in favor of going to a movie with Chaeyoung instead. Alone. Just her and Chaeyoung. Nayeon was hurt, but she loved Mina, and she respected Mina. So she let it go. She smiled and waved them off, acting like Jihyo, with a motherly “Have fun, you two!”

And then Mina would proceed to lock herself in Chaeyoung’s room with the younger girl. Nayeon would be watching a k-drama with Mina, and five minutes into the show Mina would excuse herself to go check on Chaeyoung. She’d go inside Chaeyoung’s room, the door would stay open...then, exactly five seconds later, slam went the door and click went the lock. For hours, they wouldn’t emerge. On multiple occasions, Nayeon would have to call them out. She never wanted to imagine what they would be doing.

Now there was this. The kiss. The sleeping together. Nayeon could tell that this had definitely been going on for a long time. Mina had loved Chaeyoung for a long time. And she had continued with the act of loving Nayeon instead.

...The strange thing was, though, that Mina loving Chaeyoung didn’t break Nayeon’s heart.

Mina’s lies did.

Nayeon was unable to get angry at Mina for loving someone else. She, albeit sadly, accepted this fact and didn’t try to get revenge or change Mina’s mind – you can’t force someone to love you back. Mina had chosen the person she wanted to stay with forever, and there was nothing Nayeon could do about it. There was no point getting all upset just because of this.

But she was deeply hurt at Mina’s lies. At the lack of honesty. Mina didn’t trust Nayeon. If she did, she would’ve told Nayeon! Sure, Nayeon knew that at first, it must’ve been frightening for Mina to try and tackle it; she probably was scared thinking about how Nayeon would react. But, if the relationship had been going on for the amount of time Nayeon thought it had been, then it had been just about three months, which was more than enough time! By now, if Mina really trusted Nayeon, she would’ve said something about it. She would’ve confessed to Nayeon. But no, that was not what she did.

It would take several days, maybe two weeks at the most, for Nayeon to forgive Mina. After all, they had been together – if she counted trainee years – for just about four years. They had known each other for just about four years. Four years was enough, wasn’t it? It was enough for trust to build up, right? Nayeon knew Mina was naturally cold and inverted, not outgoing like Nayeon herself, but if four years was enough for Mina to fall head over heels for Chaeyoung, then why wasn’t it enough for her to trust Nayeon?

Nayeon could only shake her head in bewilderment and sadness. She thought Mina knew better. Apparently not.

And despite all this.

What was really pathetic?

Nayeon still – she still – loved Mina.

Myoui Mina’s heart belonged to Son Chaeyoung. But Im Nayeon’s heart still belonged to Myoui Mina.

Nayeon was painfully aware that now, it was her job to cope.

But god, would it hurt.

It would hurt Nayeon so much.

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yo i'm back!

i'm really sorry for procrastinating lmao but i had a lotta other stuff to do, on top of that i've been planning another series i'm writing with Remfu00 if any of you know her lol

but anywayssss hang in there with me and we'll finish this story soon!

p.s. i'm SORRY minayeon shippers bUT AS I SAID: THIS IS A MICHAENG STORY i'M SORRY THOUGH I'M REALLY SORRY

p.p.s. to all those people who understand my love for michaeng: i love y'all so much