Home (Is the Last Place I Want to Be)
Description
Chanyeol is straight. Baekhyun is gay. They're bestfriends and Chanyeol wants to keep it that way.
Foreword
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“Yeol.”
“Hm?”
“Do you think we’ll still stay friends after this?”
“Of course.”
“I kinda want us to drift apart.”
“Wait, what? But why?”
“So that I can forget my feelings for you.”
A pause followed, trailed by the humdrum of waves crashing into the shore.
“You still like me huh.”
“Honestly. You never developed feelings for me?”
“I’m straight, Baek. You know that.”
“No. Look past through that. If I were a girl, or if you were a girl, or if this world didn’t have the concept of gender, would you have developed feelings for me?”
“Baek.”
“I’m not asking you to love me. Maybe this is just my ego talking, maybe because I think I’m not good enough for someone I love. I just want to know. If we lived different lives, will you have loved me?”
“Let me throw that question back at you: If I were a girl, or if you were a girl, or if I were somebody else, would you have developed feelings for me?”
“If you care for me like what you did in all these years, if you smile like your usual smile, if you stay with me like how you did every time I had a hard time, then yes. I would have.”
Chanyeol was speechless.
“You haven’t answered my question.”
“Let’s just say I believe in an infinite number of universes. And somehow, somewhere out there, I believe we’re in love with each other.”
“I see.”
“I love you, Baek. Believe me. But not in the way that you want me.”
A/N: This was originally planned to be posted on ChanBaek Day but I got busy lmao This will be my last ChanBaek fic in a while. I'll be branching out to other ships in my next stories.
Also, I would like to dedicate this story to those who died in the Orlando Pulse Club shooting recently. They didn't deserve the hate that the world gave them. #LoveIsLove
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