I was walking alone at the backyard of the old cabin, It was huge and really perfect for out of town trips with family and of course friends, I admit I choose to stay here than inside with the people living in the same circle, I was suffocated how outcast am I from them, 3/4 of EXO are inside with their  celebrity girlfriends, BaekHyun with TaeYeon-ssi, Yes! they are still together, and it was just press release in the media the they are over so bashing them will stop, poor them but still luckier than me because even people don’t want them to be together they still have each other and that’s more important, JongIn is here too with his long time crush and now girlfriend Krystal. Aish, Young love. Then SuHo with his childhood sweetheart HaNa, who he has contact with recently, I hoping for their positive progress. Then there is ChanYeol who is busy with his phone, SeHun,  KyungSoo have schedules while Lay was all away in China then MinSeok who was cuddling with SoEun-ssi at the living room when I left, I don't know what they are up to and I don't have any plans to know and torture myself more, The afternoon breeze help me cope my sudden anxiety of my situation here, It is really not right for me to be here, First if I want to know if it’s true I can ask MinSeok right away without forcing myself to be stupid and watch them from a far like an envious, stupid dog watching his master happy from a far, The warm breeze turn to a cold one as the sun sets and the moon rises in the sky shining brightly from above, I didn’t noticed the time, I was just too absorbed of my time alone as I try to think how will I survive until Sunday, I want to go home but I don’t want to spoil their time

We had dinner, TaeYeon-ssi and SoEun-ssi cooked for us, It was delicious but  I don’t have the appetite, who would eat if you are sitting across to the lovebirds you hated to see so much,JongDae noticed that I’m not eating, I don’t know what is his plan but I just get along with his act, He was so touchy to me to the point that sometimes I felt I was harassed but It was working to MinSeok, He sends deathly glares to me and JongDae, at that point I was happy seeing him equally suffer like me but he never step down, he counter our moments with a bolder one, and I’m no match with that. They are a couple, they can do what they want without limit but me  and JongDae are just friends and we have boundaries that made me lose the battle again

ChanYeol and I was the ones who are assigned to washed the dishes, I was quiet the whole task while he was keep singing some random OSTs, I laughed when his voice crack as he tried to reached the high notes. He is just a giant baby, He really has a 5 year old mental capacity but I know who ever he likes will be one of the luckiest woman on earth for having him as a boyfriend, ChanYeol is a person you can rely on despite of his foolishness; I’ll take back my good comment about him now he was blowing bubbles on my face

I finished my night shower as well as the others too, some of them decided to rest tonight so that they have more energy tomorrow when the real party starts, I was at the balcony of the cabin watching the pine trees sway with the wind, I wrapped myself with my EXO chibi blanket given to me by MinSeok. I didn't noticed that I grabbed this one instead of with the heart design I bought from H&M. again I was in peace, I really like it when I'm away from the busy street of Seoul, away from the noise, away from the stressful work and just here one with nature, giving me the healing time that I need. 

Then I felt someone sat beside me, I know who was it, His perfume says it all, I just stay silent and closed my eyes waiting for him to talk. I heard him let out a sigh

“So are you and JongDae have something without telling me?” MinSeok sounds too interrogating

I snapped my head to him, i was in disbelief hearing this kind of question from him like I was the one who victimized him

“Wow, So you are the one who had the guts questioning my relationship to JongDae?” I exclaimed

We are both glaring to each other like we are mocking one another to admit his/her mistake

He diverted his gaze to the ground contemplating on how to start and I'm very impatient when it comes to things like this and MinSeok knew that, I can’t handle my temper anymore 

“As far as I know I’m your best friend MinSeok-ah, But why didn't you tell me?” I shouted to him making myself stand up before him while looking down at him with my angry eyes

He looked up to me meeting my eyes, My eyes that are teary already

“I just don’t want you to worry, That’s why.” His voice seems deep this time

“WAH! AND WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU ARE DOING TO ME RIGHT NOW?” I shouted without realizing that I may wake up the others

Tears starting to fall from my eyes down to my cheeks, I was now bawling my emotions, my deep pain is like a thousand daggers stabbing me all at the same time

He stood up and walked near to me while I step back, I’m afraid that once he touch me, I’m not able to control my emotions and tell him what I really feel, I’m afraid that if I’ll tell him that I love him, He’ll just acknowledge it without saying that he loves me back

“Jin-ah, I’m sorry, It happened to us all of a sudden.” He said as walked towards to me while I step away every inch he got closer

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