For some reason after I consoled MinSeok from his traumatic experience regarding his ruined vacation with his family, I gradually didn’t contact or let’s say avoiding him, I feel betrayed by him, I am hurt and needs time alone, to think, to heal and to move on, MinSeok is calling and messaging me from time to time but I rather to choose to build the walls between us, I can’t pretend that I’m okay when I’m not. I can’t pretend for not hoping for him to choose me instead. Well, how can I expect to be love by him I didn’t have time to pamper myself, I don’t have a stylist to pick my clothes for me, I don’t have a make-up artist to make me beautiful everyday, I don’t have the confidence to be what I really am, There was nothing special about me, So why would MinSeok need to do a mistake to like me. There’s no possible reason for him to like me tho.

Avoiding him was not an easy task especially when you are friends with his friends,  They did call me too once in  awhile to know how am I, sometimes I answered sometimes not. Not until JongDae and BaekHyun decided to meet me secretly after their fan meeting in Japan at the first week of May, I was hesitant at first but decided to meet them, I need to pay back their efforts to for having time to meet me besides who am I to refuse

I met then in the usual restaurant they meet me, I was afraid that MinSeok was there but relieved when they keep their promised that he is not around, We talked, We ate, They tell me stories on their fan-meeting, It was so blissful to see their faces while telling me their experiences and how happy they are that their fans are always with them, I was all hears thru-out the conversation, This is what they need,someone who can listen to them

Then they asked me how I am since I got thinner, that’s what they say, I lied and reason out work as an excuse,I told them my usual routine, nothing special anyway

Then they asked if I meet MinSeok once they got back from Japan and answered that I haven’t, i lied again that I don’t have time but they pointed out that I have time to meet them, I was cornered with that one, No words or white lies can escape from my tongue, they are silent but their eyes are interrogating until I can’t handle it anymore

“Araso, I’m avoiding MinSeok, Now tell me, Do you guys knew that he was dating without telling me?” I turned the tables revealing what I knew

They were dumbstruck how did I found out, Now their tongues are tied up and its my turn to made a sarcastic chuckle

“Really, You knew and no one told me. Wow.” I blurted in frustration

Still they were silent trying to process if they will deny it or not, I got impatient and decide to grab my bag readying myself to walk out

I stood up and turned my back from them 

I started to walk when BaekHyun spoke “Noona, If you want to know the truth, Go with us. Go to my and SuHo Hyung’s out of town weekend party next week, and you may find the answer you are looking for.” 

“I’ll message you the time and place, Noona. Be there.” JongDae spoke after him

One Week After

I don’t know why I’m here, I am making an suicidal attempt meeting MinSeok after a long time of playing hide and seek with him, I went to the place of what JongDae messaged me 30 minutes early, I was standing outside of the cafe, still undecided to go inside or not, And I don’t know what gotten into myself yesterday, I got the end of my hair naturally permed and colored it into a lighter shade this time, I wore something that I don’t usually wear, this time I decided to make myself look cute, I did try I just don’t know if it is cute to others. I wore a thin yellow knitted long sleeves partner it a denim jumper and white sneakers, carrying a medium size bag with my clothes enough for me to have until Sunday. Its just 2 days of stay anyway

I was looking inside the window as I moved closer and cupped my eyes with my hands against the mirror to have a clearer view of the cafe inside, I can see MinSeok a bit from the corner, his right arm are across the chair beside him while smiling happily to the person he was with

Someone tapped me from my shoulder and I got shocked causing to jump and turned around to look who was it

It was JongDae, the person I was waiting to, He was smiling at me while eyeing me from head to toe

“Noona, You are extra cute today.” He complimented me

I blushed at his compliment, He barely do that since he knows how uncomfortable am I when it comes to myself being praise by others

He took my bag as he lead the way inside the cafe, I followed suit, trying to hide in his back, I was shorter than him of course, I tugged his shirt from the back

“Noona, You should be courageous if you want the truth.” He said as he pulled me beside him

Then as soon as my eyes landed to where MinSeok is and who’s he is with, I feel my heart trembled crazily, I can’t breathe

Without knowing while still looking at where are they