Jessica POV

 

i just received a text message from Tiffany, she said that she went to meet Taeyeon. hmm, what is she trying to do? and she also asked me to go outside, well i just followed what she said so here i am

"ugh, so cold", i shivered and rubbed my arms

i looked to my left and it surprised me to see Sooyoung leaning against the wall, with her eyes closed. what is she doing here alone? wait, is this why Tiffany wanted me to go outside?

i went towards her slowly without making any noises, i then stood in front of her. oh god, how i miss her so much. i stared at her calm face silently and smiled hearing her steady breathing. 

i took one more step and now im very much closer to her. its ok to touch her right? i mean, i really miss her. aish whatever. i put my palm softly on her cheek, just when i did that she immediately opened her eyes. eh? i thought she was asleep

for few minutes, she just let me touched her. while we're staring at each other. i cant get my eyes off from her, and she also seems to not want to look away either. i can feel my heartbeat starts changing, from slow to fast, from calm to wild. this feeling, this feeling that i've been longing for

"Jessica sshi"

i startled when Soo called me

"d-dae?"

she sighed softly then give me her smile

"why are you doing this to me?"

"i-im sorry?"

her smile is getting wider now, she then caressed my hair sweetly before she stared back at me

"you should really stop this", she said

"what do you mean?", i asked in confusion

"stop.. making me fall for you harder than ever", she said

"..."

"there isnt a time where i dont fall for you all over again whenever we meet. including now"

"..."

"Jessica Hwang, i am madly in love with you again and again"

"..."

"..."

"S-Soo.."

"shh", she put her finger on my lips then cupped my face

"he's lucky, to have you as his fiancee. and i hope that he will treat you right"

"..."

"because thats the last thing im asking for. for you to have someone that will take care of you with his whole heart"

my tears unconsciously fall down, im sad hearing it from her. i.. i feel like i dont want that to happen

"hey, did i say something wrong? im sorry, im sorry. please dont cry or i'll cry too", she said with worried. she then wiped my tears

"Sica ah, Sica...", her voice changed now

i looked up at her, her eyes are watery and red.

"i.. i love you, i always will"

and thats it. i lost myself as i burst out crying. i held her both hands tightly as i looked down and just cry. 

"shh. its alright. i'll be fine. just promise me that you'll take care and be happy", she whispered those words as she pulled me into a hug. i cried harder when she held me in her arms

what am i supposed to do Sooyoung ah? i cant continue this, i cant. because i think.. i still love you too. how am i going to tell this to Tyler? 

 

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Yuri POV

 

i stepped back after i witnessed whats happening on Sooyoung and Jessica. i wiped my tears as i turned around

"they were still in love with each other, right?"

i looked at Sulli with my sad face. i nodded my head. when i heard Sulli let out a heavy sigh. i asked her why.

"nothing. just.. if i have the power to take my heart out, i would seriously do that", she said and smiled bitterly

"my stubborn heart seems to not gonna hear me. it keeps on calling for Krystal. it keeps on longing for her. it keeps on.. loving her. i really dont know how to move on", she continued and chuckled weakly

"and it hurts", she added once more

i went to Sulli and hugged her

"we feel the same pain. but, if you need a hug to give you strength, i'll definitely give you one", i told her. and after that, Sulli hugged me back and sobbed

"how i wish that it was easy to move on", she mumbled

i continue patting her back but stopped when i saw Krystal. she also looks taken aback when our eyes met. she then bowed a little and got back inside.

"come on, lets go in", i said to Sulli

"dae, arasso", she replied back 

when we both walking in, i was stopped by Yoona who's holding my wrist

"can i talk to you for 5 minutes?", she asked me

"umm, im just gonna uhh.. go inside first", Sulli awkwardly left

"...", i didnt say anything because i only waited for her to speak 

"i.."

"i already forgive you for anything if you're going to apologise", i cutted her off when i sense of what she's going to say

"uhh, oh.. thanks"

"...", i only nodded then

"Yul.. we can still be friends, right?", she asked me with hesitate

i smiled and shrugged my shoulders

"maybe. but, i dont think we can hang out often", i said

"why?"

"because im still hurting by the fact that you are not mine anymore", i said honestly and she just keep quiet

"im sorry, lets just.. stay away from each other. its not that i hate you. but, i really need to move on from you. i hope you understand", i told her then left her there

my dear Yoona, just so you know.. this heart will always have your name in it. sigh.

 

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None POV

 

Sulli is approaching Victoria who's laughing and chatting with Sunny and Amber, when she almost reached them, she bumped into Krystal.

Due to her quick reflex, she grabbed Krystal arm and hold her securely

"t-thankyou", Krystal stuttered

Sulli nodded and smiled, then she just went away from Krystal

"hi guys, whats funny?", Sulli asked them when they were still laughing

"nothing. Am just did a stupid joke", Sunny told her

"yeah, a hilarious one", Victoria said then they laughed again

Sulli just shook her head then she found her eyes searching for Krystal again. there she saw Krystal talking to Yoona who just walked in. 

"cant take your eyes off from someone named Krystal huh?"

Sulli just chuckled and turned to see Yuri

"she's too attractive. so cant", Sulli answered

Yuri smiled and patted Sulli's head

"everything's gonna be alright Sul"

"dae unnie"

unknown to both of them, the 3 already stopped laughing and heard their conversation.

"you know, how about we go to the club after this?", Sunny asked them, trying to cheer up

"i dont know, im not in a good mood to go there", Yuri replied

"me too", Sulli agreed

"awww", Sunny pouted 

"we can go there next time", Amber said

"yeah", Victoria nodded

 

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Taeyeon POV

 

"ahh finally"

i smiled seeing the work i made. it turned out to be beautiful. Kim Taeyeon, you're so talented. kekeke

*ding dong*

"oh? are they back already? that was fast", i said

i looked towards the maid who already ran lightly to open the door, so i continue painting

"Miss Taeyeon"

"hmm", i just hummed when the maid called my name

"someone is here to see you", she said

i then put down the brush then turned my head a bit, only to be greeted by the sight of Tiffany standing next to the maid

"hi.. Taeyeon", she greeted me awkwardly

"imo, can you clean this up for me? and bring this painting inside the guest room, i'll continue tomorrow"

"yes Ma'am"

after the maid left, i gestured Tiffany to sit down so she did

"do you want some drinks?", i asked

"no need. lets, talk.."

"oh, alright. anything i can help you with?", i asked her politely

"i.. i came.. to.."

i sighed and rubbed my temple

"im tired Tiffany. can you jump to the point of why you're here? so i can sleep early", i said

"s-sorry", she whispered then looked down

i stared at her face. not much is changing. she's still stunning as ever. her hair falls perfectly on her shoulder and she still have the same mesmerizing eyes that managed to catch my attention since the first time we met.

"how did you get here? arent you supposed to be at the event?", i asked her

"Sooyoung..."

i raised my eyebrows when she said Soo's name

"what about her?", i asked

"she told me to come here a-and.. well, i just want to umm apologise directly at you"

"if this is about the past, no worries. im all good. there's nothing to be sorry about"

"i.. ok. thanks"

"hm"

"..."

i sighed again when she stopped talking

"hey"

"huh?", she looked up at me when i called her

"hows life?", i decided to just have a nice conversation with her

"oh, great", she answered and smiled

"i see"

"hows you?"

"me? nothing interesting. just.. living", i answered

"oh"

"does it hurt?", she asked me and pointed at my legs

i chuckled and shook my head

"nah. i dont feel anything", i said and she just nodded

"this is awkward", i scratched my neck and looked away

"Tae.."

"yes?", i looked at her again now

"ah, nothing", she bite her lips

"just say it Tiffany"

"why dont you call me like always?"

"like what?"

"always. you only call me Tiffany when you're mad"

"does it matter?"

"..."

"its not the same anymore"

silence filled the atmosphere for few seconds till i fake a cough to get her attention

"i heard he's a good man, pretty goodlooking and girls adore him too. i guessed, he will be the right one for you", i said bitterly

"ah, yeah.."

"but im curious of one thing though"

"what?"

"does he.. love you more than i do?"

Tiffany only blinked her eyes while looking at me when i asked her that

"because, i will not regret anything if he really does", i said

"w-why?"

"you asked me why Fany? he should, and he must. i want the best for you Fany ah, so i want him to love you more than anything"

"do you have someone in your mind?", she asked, hmm trying to change the topic huh?

"i do"

"oh", she looked disappointed. Tiffany Tiffany, are you jealous?

"that someone, who occupied my mind through days and nights since 5 years ago", i said

"you.. do you still remember what i said when i confessed for the first time? that once i fall in love, i would never stop. and that promise i made, i still keep it Fany ah. this heart, it still beats for you. this feeling, it still live for you. this person, me, myself and i.. still.. i still love you"

"Tae i-"

"can you.. can you listen to everything that i will say? i really want to express everything"

"y-yeah, sure"

i took a deep breathe before i let out

"i am awared of all the changes that happened to us. this is the present we're living, while all we had just stayed in the past. i really want to fight for you and to get you back, but im not that cruel to take you away from a good man like your fiance. on top of that, with my condition like this. i cant protect you like how i wanted to when i cant walk"

"its-"

"Fany... just listen"

"im.. sorry. continue.."

"so, i will.. just let you go. i will think that you are one of the beautiful gifts that i can only have for temporary. i accepted this fate. i accepted everything. and you have to do a favor for me too, be good to him and have a good life with him. put your trust on him. it is important to have trust in a relationship so something like what had happened to us wouldnt happen again"

"Taeyeon ah, but.. why?"

"as i said, i want only the best for you. one last thing i want from you is.. live your life to the fullest"

"arasso.."

 

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Tiffany POV

 

stupid Tiffany, Stupid stupid. this is not what you came here for!

"before you go, can i at least hold you for the last time?"

i slowly looked at Taeyeon, she have this pleaded eyes which make her cute as usual

"sure"

"no, you just sit there", she quickly said when i was about to stand up

she then came forward with her wheelchair and stopped near me

"i miss this", she whispered and my hair gently

"you always smell good huh", she chuckled. i just smiled in return

"b-but, what do you mean by the last time? are you going to leave?", i asked her

"nope. i just want you to stop seeing me after this"

"why??", i frowned

"yah, do you want me to suffer more? i cant. its painful, knowing that you are someone else fiancee and about to get married with someone who's definitely not me", she answered

"Tae..", i hold my tears

"ah, dont worrry. im used to this pain already but well, just to make it less painful, we should stop seeing each other", she smiled. Taetae, how come you still can smile?

"i dont deserve this Tae. i dont deserve your love. i've hurt you, i am bad", i said honestly and sobbed

"its no one's fault here. i choose to love you, i choose to only love you. and its my choice too that i have promised to continue loving you no matter what happen"

"..."

"Fany ah. i dont care of what had happened in the past. all that i care is, your happiness"

"Taeyeon-"

"Fany"

"dont say more, its enough", i said and let my tears flowing down. dont make me feel more guilty Tae

"i just want to let out of what i feel", she sighed

Taeyeon took one of my hands and held it lovingly

"i really want to say that i will move on and also be happy for you, but i cant. i mean, moving on from you? been trying to do that before, but i failed awfully. so Fany ah, just.. let me love you till i stop breathing", she said

i can only cried right now, i have no idea of what to say back.

"Tae.. Taetae, what should i do? why is this happening? what will you do? i dont know what to do anymore", i cried

she just give me her warm smile and patted my hand

"you should live happily with him. dont regret of what happened. i assure you that i will be alright. i have my sisters you know, they'll be with me. you dont have to do anything Fany ah. just.. take care. and i? i will continue loving you from afar"

*beep*

i read a text from Nickhun, he's asking for me

"this is not right...", i mumbled

"come on, you should go home now"

"Tae"

"just go Fany ah, thats him right? he must be waiting for you"

"but-"

im stucked when she pulled me by my arm and planted a kiss on my cheek

"baby please say nothing"

i froze when she called me that, she called me what she used to call me

"dont worry about me. you can go to him. i will let go of you without regrets. we're just not meant to be, so its alright"

"Taeyeon ah"

"go, he's waiting for you"

i shook my head and still crying

"Tae.. Tae i.. im sorry, but i.. i still love you. i really do. please dont push me away. please. help me Taeyeon ah. i cant leave you again. i want you", i cried and cried. i keep holding her hand tightly and not even want to let it go

"Fany.. you-"

"he's not the same. he's not you. please Tae, you're all i want. im sorry that i let him owned the title of being my fiance. but its still you who owned my heart"

"you're not thinking right. go home, you need a rest", she told me calmly

"Tae, dont do this to me"

"Fany, he is your fiance. i am nothing but only the one who used to be yours"

i kept shaking my head and cried

"i was wrong. it was a mistake. a huge mistake. i shouldnt have accepted him"

"but you already did"

"and i regretted it now! Tae... you love me right?", i desperately holding onto her

"i've told you enough Fany. you have all my heart and all my love"

"then please, give me times. i will fix everything, and i will come back to you. one chance, just one"

"..."

"Taetae, for me.. please"

"you dont understand Fany. this is.. huh.

. just go"

"nooo Tae-"

"ok we'll talk again but now, i want you to go back. rest and sleep. you have to think twice. and if you are sure of your decision, tell me. i dont want you to just decide it unconsciously"

"if.. if i come back, you wont push me away right?"

"just go for now Fany ah. i have to think too"

i nodded slowly and sobbed, then i feel her fingertips wiping my tears away

"dont let this beautiful tears going out of your eyes again", she said softly. i smiled and nodded again

"drive carefully", she said

"ok, and Tae.."

"hm?"

"i love you?"

"is that a question?", she asked while giggling

"no. i love you", i said seriously this time

"you know my heart well Fany, i've said more than i love you earlier", she replied

"wait for me Tae?"

"forever i will"

thats what i need to hear and i will not let her wasting time for waiting for me. i will talk to Nichkhun tomorrow. i cant deny my feelings anymore, i cant lie. i have to let out the truth. 

"seriously, i can just watch you like a movie if you continue spacing out Fany ah", Taeyeon said

i smiled shyly and blushed

"uh, i'll go now Tae"

"goodnight", she smiled

"night", i said back and give her the best smile i can give

 

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not a good chap right? sorry. i wrote this while fighting with my sleepy eyes. now im gonna sleep and let my eyes rest. .v.