05 May

Jinki is safe! Mom just called although she shouldn’t have. But now I’m worried about Bummie. She said that she heard he’s on enemy territory. I don’t really believe it though. What would he be doing there?

He was the first I lost contact with. The last time I’ve seen him was six month ago. He was already in the army then. I couldn’t believe it when he enrolled before he was actually due.

We had discussed the possibilities before. How we all would proceed until all of us finished our mandatory service. The general idea was that Taem and I would just keep soloing while we weren’t complete and Minho already had a contract for a movie and another drama.

Jinki was the first to go anyway and the company had plans for a solo afterwards and maybe some collaborations.

I was convinced that Kibum would bridge the time with lots of musicals and maybe a Toheart comeback or even a subunit with Minho.

When he told us, he’d enroll we were all dumbfounded. I still cannot understand his reasons. He said he just wanted it over. Now I wonder how desperate he was.

I wish I could contact him ... and Taemin and ... just everybody.