[CONTENTID3]It finally had taken its’ toll. All the stress and the burden has finally gotten to him. With a sigh, he laid himself on the bed looking up at the ceiling, one arm over his head. The deafening silence of the dorm has somewhat lightened his burdened heart but not truly. Suddenly, a quiet knock and the opening of the door has broken that silence. 

      “You know he didn’t mean it.”

The one who had broken the silence was one of his dongsae, Kim Wonshik, or known as Ravi. Afraid of what might happen to his hyung, Wonshik came into the shared room of Hakyeon, Taekwoon, and Hyuk.

      “You know that right, hyung?”

Wonshik repeated his question but still did not get a reply from him. Even more afraid but mostly worried about his Hakyeon hyung, he sat down next to his bed, leaning against the wall.

      “Hyung?”

There was a pregnant silence before Hakyeon finally spoke to Wonshik.

     “Wonshik-ah, go to sleep.”

     “But hyung-”

With a shaky voice Hakyeon cut him off, “Wonshik-ah, please, go to sleep.”

Wonshik was about to once again say something until Taekwoon came inside the room and nodded at him telling Wonshik just to follow what Hakyeon said. Wonshik obeyed but with a grief look. Before truly leaving the room, Wonshik turned and looked at Hakyeon.

      “Goodnight, hyung.”

Hakyeon only answered with a nod and Wonshik left satisfied that his bid of goodnight was answered.

Taekwoon was still standing by the door, looking at Hakyeon with a defeated sigh and a look of worry.

       “I’ll talk to him and you just rest.”

With those words, Taekwoon walked away and closed the door to talk to the dongsae who had made Hakyeon somehow depress. However, what the two didn’t know was that it wasn’t truly the dongsae’s fault but he has been like this ever since the beginning. The burden of being the leader and the burden of the expectation that people have of him. He may show that smiling face but inside his hurting. It’s just today. Today he finally let out some frustrations but not truly showing it to s, his family, or his friends.

         “Hyung, we started this as a team, but lately you’ve been pushing us away to benefit yourself. We want Hakyeon, not N!”

Those words that came out from his dongsae, his lovely dear dongsae, Sanghyuk. It was true, he hasn’t been himself and his been pushing them away, but it was for their own good. To keep them away from all the negative comments that was towards him and s. To keep them safe, that was the true reason and purpose of why he had distanced himself from them. He did not want to see them depressed or cry, so he took that responsibility upon himself, but did not know that it would turn out this way.

         ‘Why are you like this Hakyeon-ah, why? Why?’ Finally breaking down, he let himself silently cry as to not let the others hear him but most of all worry about him.

         “Hyung.” Jaehwan silently said in front of Hakyeon’s door, hearing his hyung hiding his cries.

Jaehwan walked away and sat down at the sofa next to Taekwon and silently sat there listening to the conversation of the three dongsae’s.

         “I-I didn’t mean to say it. I was just frustrated.” Sanghyuk said, “But Hakyeon hyung has been pushing us away.”

        “Hyuk is right though, Hakyeon hyung has been pushing us away, but why?” Hongbin asked, looking towards both Taekwoon and Jaehwan for answers but only gotten a shake in the head from Jaehwan.

All 5 heads turned towards the door of where Hakyeon laid in bed with shedded tears and has no clue of what was wrong with their leader, their friend, their umma, and most of all their older brother.

As the night came in further, the remaining members slept together in the shared room of Ken, Ravi, and Hongbin; afraid to disturb their already sleeping leader. But what they didn’t know was that Hakyeon was still awake, thinking about what his going to do. With so much thought of that one idea, he finally agreed to it thinking it was the best.

As morning came, the members who slept together slowly woken up one by one. They didn’t have any schedule so there was no need to rush. They slowly walked out of the room and headed towards the living, dining area or to the bathroom. 15 minutes passed by when the members first woke up that Wonshik noticed that one of them is missing.

        “Is Hakyeon hyung still sleeping?” Wonshik asked from the kitchen, carefully watching the two dongsae.

Jaehwan just shook his head not knowing if Hakyeon is still sleeping, “But I’ll go check.”

        “Ani! I’ll do it, hyung.” Hyuk volunteered.

       “Are you sure Hyukkie? Hyung might not still be in the mood to talk to you or in fact with any of us.”

       “I want to, plus I want to apologize to Hakyeon hyung.”

       “Go ahead Hyukkie.” Taekwoon said to the maknae, agreeing of what his reason is for volunteering.

       “Gomawo hyung.”

Taekwoon just nodded his head and walked across from the living room to the kitchen to finish what Hyuk and Hongbin was cooking, afraid that the end result would be a burned food.

Hyuk walked towards his shared room with his two hyungs. Before entering, he softly knocked on the door and waited for a response but did not get any. He tried it twice but it was the same.