Amber's POV

   My mind is killing me right now, the last remaining piece of a dream being chased away by the realisation that I've woken up 

    
    I slowly opened my heavy eyes and I was startled as I saw my brother's face in front of mine
     His eyes widened while his hand grabbed my shoulders and he started to shook all my body, "H-Hyung! A-Are you o-okay?!"
     He kept on shaking me when suddenly I pinched his arm, "AH!" He whined loudly
     I rubbed my eyes and yawned, "I'm not something to shake Jongin-ah! Aishhh...I feel even worse"
      He sighed deeply and ran his hand through his short hair, "I-I'm sorry hyung,it's just t-that...I was r-really worried-"
      I cutted him off by saying "Don't worry for me but how's mom doing?"
      
      There was an awkward silent between us that made me worry...a lot
      "W-What?! What happened Jongin?!" I asked worriedly while my hand was an inch closer to smack his head
      As fast as he could,he covered the top of his head and yelled "S-She's fine hyung! D-Don't hit me!"

      I felt my chest getting lighter from before...sigh
 
      We talked for a while as Jongin couldn't stop talking about what happened during my coma period
       I felt so relieved after seeing his smile drawn on his face
       
        
      *knock knock!*

      "Come in!" Jongin and I both shouted
        
      Seulgi came in but her arm was still outside the room...I wonder why is she so strange
       
      My smile curved downwards as I saw...him

      His expression was priceless,his eyes widened then he mumbled softly "A-Amber..."
     
     Seulgi was grabbing his wrist tightly,she pushed him near my bed and coughed soundly "He has to tell you something Amber"
       
     What should I feel about him...he's the reason of everything

    He gulped a lump on his throat,his eyes trembling and he wasn't able to face me and look into my eyes, "A-Amber..."
      
     ". . ."

     "What do you want?" I coldly asked without daring to eye him
      
     He took another deep breath and said nervously "I-I n-n-need to confess y-you something"
     I raised my eyebrows and hardly bit my lips...what does he want?!

     "What is it?" I asked annoyed

     I noticed that Jongin's eyes were stuck on Myungsoo...something is suspicious. And also Seulgi looked kinda weird

      My eyes met Myungsoo's as he continued "...I'm t-the reason."

       
        "What?"

     He squeezed his eyes and firmly said "I'm the one that hit you with the car..."
     He then slowly fell on his knees while tears begun to roll down and fall on the floor, "I-I'm sorry A-Amber...It's all my f-fault. It's just that I-I was so o-obsessed with Krystal and I really w-wanted her to be m-mine" he finally confessed

      I felt that time stopped for a second,everything was silent around us 

       My heart was poking my chest at the sudden confession

       In a second,Jongin suddenly stood up, causing the chair to fall off.

      "Jongin what are you doing?!" I shouted as I saw his hand grabbing Myungsoo's shirt almost ripping it apart
      He turned his red eyes to me and groaned "Hyung! How can you n-not be angry at this bastard?!"
     As soon as I saw that Jongin's fist was going to punch Myungsoo on his face,I quickly grabbed my brother's wrist and shouted "Stop Jongin! I said STOP! I will take care of him. Now please...can you and Seulgi leave us alone for a moment?"
     He slowly nodded and walked out of my room while still staring at Myungsoo

     
     I looked through the window and it was still raining
     He leisurely ambled towards me and all of a sudden,the tough,mean,full of him self Myungsoo disappeard...
     "C-Can you forgive me Amber? I-I'm so sorry,I w-will do everything to make up to y-you and Krystal,please" He stuttered as he faced the ground 

   What should I do? What can I do?

   I still can't forgive him that easily...I just can't believe what he did just to get Krystal

   But...I can understand him. Sometimes you need to do everything for love

    "Myungsoo,I..."

 [4 years later...]
     "Hey Amber! Want to grab something to drink after your performance?!" Key asked me excitedly while we were back stage

      Yes...After all these years,I finally accepted to be a trainee at SM Entertainment 
    They trained me during my university years and I have to admit that it was really tough,especially when you have to worry about your studies and also your future career

   I debuted just one year ago as a solo artist,still using my name "Amber"
      
   Key stayed by my side after all these years,always supporting me whenever I need him.
   He became the 4th member of the boy group "SHINee" also under SM and his behaviour remained the same,always a diva

   "Nah...but thanks Key,I will just go straight to the hotel after this" I sighed while scratching the back of my head 
   He looked at me mischievously, "Are you sure llama?"
   I nodded and and patted his shoulder

  Suddenly I heard the host screaming my name,I looked at Key for a moment and walked away as I heard him shout "Go now! And kill it bro! Fighting!"

  I tightened my fist and took a deep breath before coming up on stage with my guitar 
   
  My ear were filled by the fans' screaming 
 
 "Ambeeeeerrrr!!!"
       "You handsome llamaa!!!"
    "I love you Ambeeerrr!!!"
             "Marry meee!"

   I couldn't stop smiling at the crowd that was yelling my name

      
   As soon as I got up,a staff member gave me a chair and made me sit on the centre 
   
   Everything was silent around me,I could feel everyone's eyes on me
   I gulped and smiled as I started to play with my eyes closed,surrounding my self in the dark

   (Amber singing 'Beautiful')
    "gogael sug-in chae haneul-eul pihae sumji
     eoduun ma-eum sog bam-eun han-eobsji
     Yeah nalgaeleul pyeol su eobs-eoss-eo
     job-eun saejang gat-assdeon sesang ap-e
     himgyeoun momjis-eulo eonjenga chaj-a ol neol nolaehae...

     ...I’m just happy 
     I’m happy to be myself
     I’m happy to be myself~"

    After a second,every single person begun to scream and clap their hands, "Baeeee~ I love youu"
      "Oh god Ambeeerrr!!!"
         "My oppaaaa~"
    "Beautiful!!!"
       "I love your voiceeee~~"

       
     I went down the stage where I got surprised by my manager Jay, "Amber! That was amazing!"
     "Thanks oppa" I smiled and grabbed a bottle of water
      He stayed behind me as he asked, "Will you not go with Key and the others?"
      I turned my back and shook my head, "Nah...I'll just go back to the hotel,I'm going to rest for a bit"
      "See you then...remember your performance on music bank Amber!" He shouted from my back while waving at me
       
      I went inside my van and my driver rushed the engine to the hotel where I was staying, "Thanks bro!" I said to him and slightly patted his big shoulder
     "No problem sis!" He said and left me outside 

     "Ugh..." I groaned loudly and fell on my king-sized bed
      
     My eyes were fixed on the white ceiling of the room,I couldn't stop thinking about her...after 4 years,I still can't forget her

    "Leave it behind Amber,move on" that's what my brain always said to me
    But my heart was saying another thing

     
    Suddenly my phone rang "Nochigo shipji anha,Dashineun anolgeot gata,So Tell Me What’s Up-" 

     "Hello?" I heard my little brother's voice
     "Hi Hyung! How are you?" He asked
     I giggled "I'm fine Jongin-ah"
     
     There was a moment of silent between us,but he decided to break it, "So...Are you still thinking a-about her?"
     I didn't replied and he knew that I didn't want to talk about her

     I could hear him clearing his throat, "I saw another billboard with you in it hyung! You looked so cool!" He said excitedly
     "I have to look cool Jongin,that's my job" I sassily replied

      "I need to sleep now hyung" he yawned soundly
      I nodded like a fool and murmured "Uhm,bye~"
      
     Everything changed when Jongin's mom didn't make it...she died 3 years ago and now he became even more mature after what happened to our family
     He's still studying at university and I have to say that he's also doing great!
     Seulgi...well...she finished school one year ago and she graduated with a degree in Art and Music and now she's a director for dramas

     We all went in our separated ways and everything changed 

    Jessica unnie and Minho had a complicated relationship before (maybe because she discovered that Myungsoo was Minho's brother) but now it's all fine and they always understand each other through these years
      
     I took my phone and checked the timing zone in America

     "I wonder how is she doing now..."