Dearest Junhyung,

I guess you’re right. All these time, I was being selfish. I never considered your feelings. I only made you did what I wanted you to do. I made you try remembering our relationship, I made you behave like my boyfriend despite the fact you cannot remember me at all, and I made you do things I thought you would be fine with. I never seek your opinion. I never bothered to stop and think whether you’re okay with it or not. It has never occurred to me that you would be so unhappy about everything. I am so sorry.

Junhyung, sincerely, I loved you with all my heart and I still do. I don’t blame you for whatever that is happening to us. It was never your fault to start with. You never planned for stuff to be this way, it just happened, and it’s not like we had any control over it. I know you don't remember this, but I do. I promised to stick with you through thick and thin and even if you’re blue. I wasn’t being thick skinned. I was merely trying to keep my promise to you. But I guess it is true that things are easier said than done. It's like someone has thrown me into the pit of darkness and left me to find my own way out. I was never good with directions, you know? I just pretended to know my way.

Juunie, I'm so sorry but I think I have lost my way in this game of love. I'm sorry for pulling out and leaving you to fend for yourself. I should grab you and hold you tight, but this time, I can’t. I'm sorry for being so weak, for being so useless. But Love, I tried, I really did, but I don’t think I can hold on anymore. It’s so painful I’m going crazy. The feeling is like... I am happy, but I am sad. I want to die, but I want to live. I want to hate you, but I love you. Do you get it? What should I do? I am as confused as you are. 

But at least we tried, didn’t we? We tried to make things work out, but just like piece of puzzle, it is no doubt a piece of puzzle, but if it's not meant for that piece, no matter how you try to cut the edges and squeeze it to fit in, you’ll only end up spoiling the whole thing and also destroy the masterpiece that the puzzle is meant for. So might as well leave the hole there. There is beauty in imperfection as well. There are more meaningful stories to telland lessons learnt in something that’s imperfect than perfect.

I wouldn’t call our relationship a failed one. In fact, our relationship was more than perfect. With you, I grew, I learn, I mature. If not for you, I would have still be a very angry person with no friends, hating every single Korean. For all the love and patience you showered on me, all the moments we spent together and all your gestures that make me feel so ever special, thank you. Despite all that has happened, I never once regretted my decision to be with you, because at that point of time, you were the one I wanted so much, you were the one I could die for, and honestly, up until now, it’s the same for me.

Junhyung, don’t feel guilty, don’t feel sad. It wasn’t your fault, neither was it mine. We were just not meant to be, but at least we once had fun. I guess some people are meant to fall in love, but not meant to be together. But if you’re having a hard time, then maybe you would want to listen to this song. You should be familiar with it because you had a part in it. I thought the lyrics were really meaningful.

Even if your heart is in pain, don’t cry
Even if you want to die, don’t die
If he wants to leave, just let him go
Even if you want to hold on, don’t

Breakups are always like this – at first, it really really hurts
The sky falls down, everything falls down – you don’t know what’s going on
Sometimes you’re so mad that you can’t sleep
Sometimes, you miss him so much that you can’t sleep
As you live like that, you forget him

Don’t do anything stupid, you pitiful person
The race is already over but why are you still running
If you do so, will that person’s heart ache?
Wouldn’t it be better to conspicuously be better off?
Separation after dating is natural – we all know it
But it’s really not easy to accept it
The fire is already out but it’s so hard to cool down this love

Did you still love me? Did you truly love me?
Don’t even try to find now – don’t even act curious – why are you being so tacky
The moment you turn back, you become strangers – a stranger with no relations
That is the cold relationship between a man and a woman

Love is when you feel like you will die but you quickly forget
If you want to compare, it’s like candy that’s stuck in your throat
When you taste it, it’s sweeter than anything
But if you swallow it by mistake, it hurts as if your heart has been blocked
It’s a start that’s not the end – let’s take a little break and make room for a new person
Because two minus one is not zero but one – two minus one is not zero but one

You need to withstand in any way
You need to live in any way
Don’t even be resentful – don’t be tacky

Junhyung, don’t try to remember us anymore. It’s alright. Let it go, it may be better this way. Whatever hurt or discomfort you may feel, it'll just be for awhile. Very soon, things will go back to normal. The lyrics wrote; The sky falls down, everything falls down – you don’t know what’s going on', Junnie, even though the sky has fallen, it doesn’t mean you should fall too. You’re strong. You’ll be able to withstand it. I just know you could. 

Please be happy, wherever you are, whatever you do, whoever you’re with. And if one day, we ever meet each other again, hopefully we can greet without feeling awkward. Like Robert Frost said: “In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life. It goes on.” He’s right, and you’re right too. Life goes on, with or without you and me. I may not be strong enough, but I know you are. So live on, Junhyung, please live on. Be happy, that’s my last request to you.

Once again, Yong Junhyung, thank you for your love, thank you for being part of my life. It is a pity it all has to end now, but good things will come your way. Take really good care of yourself alright. You're a 23 year old, but you're still a baby when it comes to caring for yourself.Work is important, but what is fame without health? Take care of yourself, not only you, but the boys too, as well as MBLAQ.

Pass this message to them, okay?

I pray that Beast would continue on for 10, 20, 30, 50 years till forever, because you guys are really good. I'm not saying it because I am a fan, but really, from you guys, I learnt a lot. It wasn't simply music I see in you six. I see friendship and love too. May your friendship with the boys last forever. This special bond you share with them is so precious, so promise me you'll try to patch things up despite whatever that may happen in future. Don't let this friendship fade away!

Doojoon Oppa! You need to put the title as a leader down for awhile and relax! Stop stressing yourself out! You're just 23, not 63! You need to enjoy life, alright!? But I have a request. Please take care of Junnie >< Yoseobie, don't lose the aegyo in you despite whatever other people say! You're really cute and that's final! I've fallen in love with your aegyo too XD And your voice, if anyone tells you that your voice ain't good enough, please buy them a carton of cotton buds, because they clearly can't hear well! Kikwangie! Dancing Shoes wasn't a fail! It was just... weird? But you know what, you don't need dancing shoes to dance, you can dance well barefooted as well. Good luck, alright! But you need to build up on your sense >< Stop spacing out!!

Hyunseung Oppa, you've come a long way, haven't you? But it's all worth while from what I see. Things happen for a reason, and I guess the reason for you having to walk such a long path is to seach for these boys, this friendship, these people who know how to treasure you for who you are. You have a really beautiful voice, so don't lose it! And a really beautiful face too =X Dongwoonie! You're the only one I can call dongsaeng although yes honestly you do look older. But who cares!? Dongwoon ah, step aside and let Yoseobie be the maknae! You just go work on that body of yours yea! Don't let it go out of shape alright! But not too buff as well >< 

Beast, you guys have come a long way. The future may be blur and rough, but don't lose hope! As long as you guys stick together, I'm sure you can conquer the world. Let the haters hate, it's fine! Who cares!? The amount of people who loves you and hate you is about what? 9.9:0.1? Such a shall fraction! Never let other people's opinion become your reality. Haters only want to see you fall, but if you do better, there's nothing else they can do but to laugh at themselves. Even if you do everything well, someone out there will pick on you still saying that the button on your shirt is the same as another celebrity, therefore you're a copycat and you don't have your own style and they'll say all sorts of hurtful, yet at the same time brainless words.

But don't take them to heart! Laugh it off! These people seriously need to have their brains open up and examined by researchers so as to find out what exactly is wrong with them. They cannot bear to see other succeed, for some really weird reason~ If you guys lose the light, B2uties would shine your way with the lightstick they have in their hand. They aren't blindly fighting for a group of people, they know what they are doing and it's simply because YOU GUYS ARE WORTH IT! Beast fighting! Boys of the east to search for top? You guys are definitely on top already! You just need to hold on together and stay there alright!^^

Also, Junhyung, treasure your Seungho Hyung. I believe he is the best Hyung and friend you can ever ask for apart from the Beast members. Don't just let him take care of you, you have to take care of him too. He's getting older (not his face but his body =P), he needs the attention and care or else he'll become a grumpy, angry and lonely old man XD Don't throw him into the old age home just because he is irritating! It's pitiful, and also, I fear for the safety of the others in the home XD And oh! Remember to feed him too. He's like some angry puppy. No food, no smile. Aish that fellow~ But treasure him, he's worth it. 

And lastly, I pray that you would be recongized not only in Asia but throughout the world, because Yong Junhyung, you're really a talented person. You don't know how much impact the lyrics you wrote have on people. All you need is the confidence to go on. Bring out that devil-may-care attitude in you and show the rest of the world, including those who looked down on you that you can, because you're Yong Junhyung, the almighty Rapper. And when you finally find a girl whom you can lead the rest of your life with, please, please, please hold onto her. Never let her shed a tear, never let her go despite anything that happens. Work it out! I'm sure things would work out. The Earth is round, there's a solution to every problem. Because, Junnie, it ain't easy to find true love. It really isn't. 

Best of luck in everything you do, okay! Take my luck as well, if I have any! But open your eyes wide and pick out only the good luck yea! XP

P.S. I had the time of my life with you. My time with you is up, but I’ll never forget your love.

Heartfelt blessings,
Haneul ^^