Aom’s P.O.V   I knew what I'd done as soon as I reached the door knob then closed it immediately. In this room finally I could back to my own thought, stop being The Great Aom Sushar who always flashes her best smile every time and everywhere. Just for a while I tried enjoying myself as an ordinary girl with thousands of thoughts, feelings, and anxiety.   And as always reality slapped me so hard once again.   Tomorrow was never going to be an ordinary day. And I know it had to be done. I almost lost in counting days became weeks became months and now it’s been a year and something not seeing the particular face I yearn the most. As I stared at the ceiling, my thought flew away through a time capsule that saved some unclouded memories. Remembering how much struggles I had to endure when I decided to be a star and immersed myself in showbiz industry. As a girl who grew under a loving, caring, and wealthy family, I got the chance to taste a fruitful life as in early age as possible. I grew close to my mother who is once a famous folk singer and I often got glimpse about how entertainment industry works. Now if I remembered about that, I wasn’t sure if it was my mom’s blood that ruins in my veins or my own desire that brought me to where I stood right now. On the quiet night and alone like this sometimes I missed the old days. Far before a talent scout found me and signed me to get into modeling. I could still sense the arousing feeling and urgency of giving up at the same time.   What could have I expected from a teenage Aom at those years?    The feeling was overwhelming. I wanted to be a stardom, famous singer, best actress, being under spotlight all the time and people would always remember me through all my work and books I wrote. It was all such a sweet dream. Then came the days when I felt so dried out and thought about giving up. Very demanding schedules had forced me to forget my personal and social life. I rarely met my friends. I didn’t have time to hang out with friends nor make new friends. Slowly a hurtful eye-opener came to me. The world is far bigger than I thought it was. Entertainment industry was full of . There were persons who befriended with me just for the sake of their fames and some of them would bark at my back like hungry dogs that wanted to eat me alive slice by slice. I knew how it felt being stabbed by a close one. All of those unpleasant memories had made me build a great wall from my surroundings. Others might never realize or even they might never have such idea about me kept telling myself to not trust anyone from this industry. But from the bottom my heart, I was wishing to at last finding someone true who shared the same value of life with me in this showbiz industry. Then God might saw how pitiful I was because He decided to send me a friend who I had asked for in years so that I would feel lonely no more.   It was when I met her.   At the first time I laid my eyes on her I could see a spark that I longed for years. She was so shy when we had to act together on Yes or No casting. And how P’Nay continued teasing and accusing her having crush on me just couldn’t help making her face redden that time. She looked so adorably stupid and innocently angelic if I could tell.   “Hi, Tina right?  How was the acting class yesterday? I had a very important schedule so I couldn’t make it. But fortunately P’Nay is cool with it.” I smiled at the androgynous sitting in front of me.  She seemed so surprised to see me there and literally forgot to answer my question. “Tina, did you hear me?” “Oh I’m sorry Aom. I was just surprised. I thought you would just skip all the acting class.” She said shyly just like a five year old boy caught by her mom while doing some embarrassing things. She was so cute and I wanted to pinch her cheeks. “Well, I’m not that expert in acting to be honest. I still need to improve my skill much more. Besides, we need to build our chemistry right? So even if it’s a bit late, let’s befriend and become great teammates, Tina.” I smiled and extended my hand to her. She still held my hand when I decided to a bit. “Oh did you know that in Thai entertainment industry we have a ritual for celebrating new friendship amongst entertainers by treating meals? You’ve got to treat me dinner today since we are now officially friends and workmates.” “Is that so, Aom? I haven’t heard about this before.” “Stupid. You’ve just entered this industry, remember? Even we haven’t filmed yet.” “Yeah, I don’t know how I could stay this dumb when my siblings are extremely smart.” She face palmed herself while I could not stop giggling. Then later on the night, I dragged her to a fancy restaurant to treat me dinner. I tell her that it was good for our bonding. She didn’t know that I just tricked her until P’Nay told her the following day.   I’ve got someone new to tease and annoy every day. Life would be far more colorful from now on.     Time was fleeting. I truly enjoyed her company soon after we started filming. We took scenes until dawn, rushed from here to there, move, move, and kept moving to catch every scene as perfect as possible. But every sweat was worthy paid off. In the end of 2010 we finally finished filming and our first movie Yes or No 1 was released in Thai and some other Asian countries as well. It was a big hit and out of sudden Tina and I became known not only in Asia but also all around the world. There was a year we had to travel and promote in China for about twenty times. I personally never thought that this would possibly happened because of YON which is a low budget movie produced by a small company back then.  Tina and I were getting closer and closer day by day. We were like best friends grew up together in this showbiz world. We fooled around anywhere without even bothered by others’ eyes. I never felt this kind of comfy like no one could provide that to me but her. Our friendship was sailing so freely those years and the chemistry we built was creating another big hit, Yes or No 2. Days passed and people started to ship me and Tina harder. I knew they were so happy to see our chemistry in movie and our inter