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I can't stay sleep, I try to sleep but my brain betrayed me. It's like Bom angry face running over in my mind.
I do fighting a lot with her, but this is the first time that she turned her head away from me.

'Is she get sick of me?'
'Is that true that she want to let another person in?'

No... I'm not ready for that, and I will not ever ready for that. She's the one, I will never be this kind of man without her.
Stupid of me. I got used to be the man that always received from other, Let the time solved the problem and waited someone else pointed my mistake first so i can asked them for their forgiveness. I was lived like that.
I throw these mess at Bom,I always made my self think that She's the one who left. She's the one turned her head againts me. She don't want me to be around her, that's why she left.

I still can't sleep, beside this idiot hyung snores a lot, an Idiot hyung thst made Bom mad at me. So, I wake up and put on my Jumper, Beenie and gloves. Put on my shoes and Start walking around. It's a nice place here, this is a peace Area. Even the stars looks brighter tonight.

"Bom" I called a girl in white jumper that looks like Bom's jumper. She's turned her head and coming closer.   "What are you doing here?" She's shocked based on her reaction. It's really Bom.
"I can't sleep. Kush hyung snores a lot. What are you doing here? Wandering around" I made an excusion.
"I'm from toilet, but you called me" She made an excuse avoid my eyes by looking at somewhere else
"Toilet? eeyyyy... With beenie and jumper on?" I raised my eyebrows and smile teasing her, what a lie Bom... Ha!   "I sleep like this, Why?" She said in sarcastic
"Are you sure? You are not sneakily meeting other man right?" I said just in case, Taeyang was right
"Ah... Bye... I will back to sleep. You! What happened to you since early in the morning? Acting like 5 years old" Bom said in one breath and lift her hand, I bet she's about hit me.
"Ahh... sorry!! No... Don't go. Stay, " I hold her hand to stop her for running away
"Please?" I begged her. She's stop pulling her hand and let her hand in the grip of mine.   "Put this on" I give her my gloves, she take it and wear it, I hold her hand and she's not reject it
"Excuse me, Why we should be holding hand?" She asked pointed at our hand, I give her my cute smile but she glared at me
"Just in case... you will running away" I let out my awkward laugh. We walking in rhythm with me keep looking down at the ground.   "I'm sorry, Bom... I was being childish, right?" I walking side by side with her, followed her little step
"Am I changed too much?" She asked without lifted her head
"It's like I was expecting too much from you" She confessed and let our hand go.
"When you left, I thought that you are the bad person for left me like that. after you really left me I just realize that the bad person is me because I can't hold your hand when you left" I stop walking
"I'm sorry Bom... You must be hate me so much right now" I throw my eyes at the other side
"You made me cry and angry but I never hate you... really! " Bom stop lift her head and looking at me.
"I keep asking my self, why...? but it's the truth. I got angry for all the stupid things you do... but I don't hate you" Bom speak out her head
"Then why are you avoids me? You said you don't want to be rush our relationship again. Is it because you hesitate my heart?" I asked her looking at her eyes.
"Maybe... it's not easy for believing again. I have kind of feeling , we are going to fight and separate again"
"Why are you worried about something in the future, counting the love you give and acting like you're afraid that you won't get the same amount?" I said and raised my voice
"You lecturing me now??" She said with another 'Who are you?' Glared. something hold my neck. I'm upset and desperate, Everything is more complicated now. She used to let out everything she felt unlike now, she's holding it tight.
"What should I do to make you love me again...to throw every worried you felt?" I asked but she's not let any words comes out from . I take out a coin from my pocket and showing her it's two sides
"If the number comes out, You have to back together with me right now but if the pictures come out... then we are not" I said and looking at her eyes
"You always do these kind of things. How old are you? 8years old?" She's angry and throw the coins on the ground. I pick the coins again from the ground.
"I'll treat you better" I begged and look in her eyes. I  throw the coins at the air and catch it with my hand to draw the result.

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