"Sungmin-ah, where do you want to go?" Kyuhyun unknowingly asked as he the engine.

Ryeowook's smile disappeared in an instant as he looked at Kyuhyun, seemingly unaware that he called him by
different name. The young man looked at Ryeowook and noticed his sudden loneliness.

"Ryeowook sshi... what's wrong?" he said with deep concern. "Are you ok? Are you tired? Maybe...are you sick?" he
reached out to touch his nurse's forehead to check on his temperature like what his nurse always do to him.

Ryeowook smiled bitterly as he has confirmed that his lover is unaware of what has happened. "Kyuhyun sshi... you
just called me... Sungmin-ah."
Kyuhyun, himself, was shock when he heard what Ryeowook said. How could he call Sungmin when Ryeowook is with him...
aside from that... 'Sungmin-ah?' are they that close for him to call Sungmin sshi that way? And why did he call
Sungmin anyway?
Argh... He's been seeing Sungmin instead of Ryeowook everywhere and now he is calling Ryeowook as Sungmin? Tsch.
What a way to make your lover insecure!

"S-sorry..." he said. "Siwon and I have been talking about Sungmin sshi... and-"

"Perhaps...have you gotten back your memory?" Ryeowook asked, his face looks like he's about to cry but it's more
of he looks concern and scared.

"No... I just... I'm really sorry... Ryeowook sshi." Kyuhyun said sincerely. He is indeed guilty for calling his
lover other names, other than that... he is guilty that he sees another person instead of this person he is with
right now. He doesn't even know why the heck it happens and only everytime he is with Ryeowook.

Ryeowook could just nod and accept the apology but his worry is still secretly hanging at the corner of his heart.

When they were having dinner, there was an awkward silence which Ryeowook felt like he needs to break. He looked at
Kyuhyun's hand which is resting on the table and suddenly held on to it, smiling like nothing happened.

"Kyuhyun sshi... I can always hold your hand like this, right?" he said pressing the hand a bit. Hoping Kyuhyun
would hold his hand and say yes.

Suddenly an event flash in Kyuhyun's mind appeared. 'If you wish to hold my hand, just hold it as you please.It's
ok.' Sungmin again?!

Because of it, he grabbed his hand from Ryeowook's hold making him think he's not ok. Kyuhyun looked confused and
kept on blinking, touching his head all of a sudden. Why am I seeing these things? I already said I don't want my
memories anymore... why?

Ryeowook checked on Kyuhyun, he looked pale, maybe he is the one who's not feeling well... or tired, it was
afterall a long day. He suddenly stood up. "Kyuhyun sshi... let's go back. I think you're very tired right now." he said gently.

"eh?" Kyuhyun said shaking his head trying to show that he is ok.

Ryeowook did not answer him instead he started walking. Inside the car, they were both quiet and it was just
unbearable.

It's not likely him. Ryeowook silently looked at Kyuhyun who is now driving and looking rather fine. He looked
down and thought, is it really? Kyuhyun sshi... are you starting to collect your past? he thought.
He felt sad with the idea that he would be set aside by this man. He thought hard... Jongwoon hyung is
right, I'd be damn if I continue doing this... I'll be hurting myself, and that past lover... and probably
Kyuhyun sshi. He breathe in and has decided...

"Kyuhyun sshi... just drop me here." he said, Kyuhyun didn't notice that it was a highway and unmindingly pull his
car over. Ryeowook closed his eyes as the person beside him is really becoming insensitive towards him. He smiled
and looked at Kyuhyun. A bitter smile which his lover didn't even notice. What am I to you, Kyuhyun sshi? Where is
my place in your heart?

"Kyuhyun sshi... let's not meet for the time being."

Those words made Kyuhyun come back to his senses. "Huh? Ryeowook sshi..." he did, at some point, wanted this to
happen but seeing the poor, innocent look from Ryeowook in addition to his rather disappointed and lifeless voice
now, Cho Kyuhyun wants to beat the crap out of himself too. He just wished everything would be fine; he just
wished Sungmin's face, SUngmin's smile and Sungmin's cuteness won't bother him too much but...

"You better find your memories, if you happen to collect all of them and feel like you really want to be with me...
you know where you can find me." he took off his leather band, looked at it for the last time and put it down on
the passenger's seat. "I won't be sure I can wait for you... but as much as I really like you... I, too, am scared of
hurting myself. I'll be willing to let you go now before I lose myself to you completely."

Before Kyuhyun could even speak, Ryeowook closed his door and hailed a cab. The tall man could just sigh and felt
helpless. Is he that transparent that Ryeowook saw that he's been seeing things from his past? That he sees Sungmin
in his mind? Lee Sungmin, I thought we've agreed to be friends... so why are you bothering me like this?

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That night, Ryeowook waited for Jongwoon inside a plastic tent, he was looking down making circle at the mouth of
his own shot glass.

"I told you you'll be crying by the end of this fan fiction." Jongwoon said, he thought Ryeowook would be surprised
to see him coming out of nowhere (for the nth time that is) but the petite nurse just looked at him and then back
to his shot glass.

Ryeowook's elbow is resting on the table while his hand is supporting his head as he leans.
"Am I crying? By-the-way, I knew you would be coming from behind, I quite expected that. Maybe you can
try coming out from the sky...then I'll be more surprised." he sighed deeply as Jongwoon settled on the chair in
front.
"I'm just depressed that I have to step back for them, hyung.It to be a good third wheel. I could have just
force Kyuhyun sshi to let those memories sink forever..." he drank his cup of soju in one shot.

"But you didn't... because you know it's not the right thing to do." Jongwoon said as he pour a shot of soju for
himself. "You did well, Wookie-ah" he raised up the glass and drink the alcohol in one gulp.

"I guess I won't be able to find another lover like him." he pouted. "Jongwoon hyung~ I shouldn't have break up
with him!" he cried like throwing tantrums...resting his head on his arms like a child. Actually, Ryeowook is just
too drunk for drinking 2 bottles of soju before deciding to call his hyung. Jongwoon just sighed at hearing those.
Maybe he should try giving little hints about his feelings.

"Wookie-ah... don't say that...there will be some other people who will definitely cherish you." he said hoping
Ryeowook will see him and will accept him. Ryeowook straighten up and looked at his hyung with a duck pout.

"It's not easy finding that one... where do you think can I find another one?" Ryeowook cried. He could only pout
as he drinks another shot and speaks blurry Korean. He's having hiccups but soju is a best friend he cannot say no
to.

"You're cute and adorable, you're a person who doesn't fake your concern... a lot of people likes that."

"Really?" Ryeowook asked with sarcasm. "I maybe cute and adorable but I am clumsy and foolish, I can be stupid and
dumb at the same time, who exactly would like that?"

Jongwoon thought for a while and slipped his tongue with stupid words like... "Some people thinks being clumsy and
foolish is part of being perfect." oh crap Where the hell did that come from? Well done, Jongwoon-ah... this is
not yet a confession, stop blabbering nonsense!

"Wookie-ah, you just have to open your eyes. Look behind and maybe you'll find someone there." Ah, Jongwoon-ah...
stop spilling everything! He closed his eyes hard hoping Ryeowook is too drunk to hear him clearly.

Ryeowook just shook his head and look away. "No one is going to love me anymore... I'm going to live my life alone-"
He showed an exaggerated sobs and shouted like a cry baby... "nobody is going to love me~!"

"Yah... Kim Ryeowook!" Jongwoon said raising his voice upset at the pessimistic side of his secret love. He doesn't
like the fact that Ryeowook doesn't even listen to what he just slightly confessed (and he actually think he was too
obvious). He was a little bit impatient with the drunk dongsaeng's blabbering about nobody will love him. "You know
what your problem is? You never tried looking behind that's why you miss some people who could have cherished you
even better."
Jongwoon drank the soju in his shot glass in one shot. He took out some cash almost throwing it on the table as he said
"Go home and take a rest. Stop drinking, alcohol can make you un-cute and un-adorable." He sighed as he shook his head
and left Ryeowook alone.

"Jongwoon hyung!" the drunk nurse called. He wonders why seeing his hyung's disappointed presence slowly
disappearing makes him feel even more sad.
With that thought, Ryeowook suddenly recalled the time Jongwoon would suddenly appear behind him and the times his
hyung would just pat him and the weird stuffs that his hyung would do to make him smile when he is upset. He
followed Jongwoon with a confused sight... "Jongwoon hyung... could it be..." before he could even think about it,
Ryeowook passed out on the table.

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"nobody loves you, nobody loves you..."Jongwoon chanted lowly to himself as his continuously walked away and
remembers Ryeowook's childish tantrums about his break up and that nobody loves him. "fine!" he shouted
and then suddenly he stopped and look down. "I'm nobody... and I love you." he sighed heavily and closed his eyes
as he shook his head slowly. "Hopeless... Kim Jongwoon... you're hopeless."

"Excuse me!"

Jongwoon looked back as the ahjumma in the plastic tent shouted at him. "Your friend has passed out!" He rolled his
eyes and started walking back. Yeah, and when the hell can he even not care about Ryeowook? He looked at the sleeping
guy on the table. "Yah! Kim Ryeowook!" he said as he violently pushed the unconscious guy.
He looked closely at his dongsaeng whose soul seemed to have completely separated from his human body. Ryeowook has
completely drown in alcohol that he doesn't even know that Jongwoon came back for him and pushed him quite hard.

"Seriously, why is my role in this fan fiction like this?" he said as he rested his hand on his waist. He has no
choice. He carried Ryeowook behind his back and started walking towards the younger man's house. "Yah!" he said
while walking.

He tried turning his neck so as to see Ryeowook's face, unexpectedly the younger nurse's face is
actually near his face making their lips meet in a split seconds. Jongwoon blushed as it was his first lip kiss. He
swallowed a bulk of saliva and refused to look at his dongsaeng again. He cleared his throat and explained...

"I didn't mean to kiss you... I was just checking on you... uh-" he then crossed his eyebrows when he heard a soft
snore behind his ear and realised that Ryeowook is totally knocked out. He sighed with relief and thanked soju for
being on his side and completely betraying his friend.

When they finally reach Ryeowook's house, Jongwoon lay the younger man on the bed and took off his shoes and socks.
He pull the blanket over until it covered most of Ryeowook's body. The young drunk moved a bit but only to find a
more comfortable position. Jongwoon could just hold his laughter as the ever gentle Ryeowook can be a big time
noisy sleeper with his snores filling up almost the whole of his bedroom.

He sat beside Ryeowook and brush some of his dongsaeng's hair up. "Wookie-ah..." he then chuckled to himself as he
recalled what happened a while ago. "even if you wouldn't know what happened, I will keep this as our first
kiss." Jongwoon pressed his lips together and closed his eyes trying to stop himself from smiling. He brushed Ryeowook's
fringe for the second time and kiss the younger man on the forehead. "Goodnight, Ryeowook-ah..."

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Author's note: ah... holiday will be over in few hours...please stop the time! I don't want to work just yet.
Anyways, I hope those who misses jongwoon is quite happy with this^^ kekekekekeke~!