A/N : I read Yoseob’s café post and I just couldn’t help writing this. This is non-AU, and it deals with the current jealous Yoseob through twitter. Thanks Floren for helping me out! You are my reference book and dictionary <3333 Please let me know if my credit for the translation is wrong, I will change it accordingly! 

Yoseob watched the drama intensely, not even blinking as he stared in full concentration – the deep frown was caused by the full concentration, wasn’t it? – at the television, hugging a pillow tight to his chest. He was sitting cross-legged on the couch in their dorm, dressed in one of Doojoon’s crumpled tee shirt, it was too big on him but it was mighty comfortable and it smelled like the older man. Doojoon had been travelling so much these days because of his drama’s hectic schedules and Yoseob missed him terribly, having Doojoon’s smell around was somewhat comforting but it was not close to enough.

They called each other all the time; more like Doojoon called Yoseob every time he had a break from filming – Yoseob refrained to call Doojoon because he had no idea when the leader would be free and he would hate to disturb, so he just waited patiently for his phone to ring. But Yoseob had his solo activities too, he released a solo album and there were performances and variety shows and radio starring and every other schedule he had to attend. His popularity was soaring right now, he was not just a faceless Beast member and actually doing things on his own in the music industry; Doojoon had been mighty proud of him and Yoseob was basking in the attention the older man had been lavishing on him.

Don’t get this the wrong way, Yoseob was really happy for Doojoon too. He was involved in one of the biggest dramas there was with veteran actors he could learn a lot from, and it did great for Beast’s popularity. And still, in the middle of their hectic schedule, Doojoon remained the best boyfriend anyone could ever wish for. Amongst the crazy flights and travelling for Doojoon and performances and other schedule for Yoseob, the older man had squeezed even the tiniest amount of time solely for Yoseob. Doojoon was present during Yoseob’s first music core recording for Caffeine, sitting alone in the dark and empty hall, decked in his ready-to-the-airport clothes, accompanying Yoseob until his last take before bolting off to Hungary – Doojoon was almost late and everyone was in a panic searching for him.  

Yoseob could never ask for more, Doojoon was just perfect – perfect for him – but it was human to need more. It was human to feel selfish for a little while, and that selfish self resurfaced a few times during Doojoon’s absence. Yoseob wanted to see Doojoon, in flesh and not on the screen; he wanted to talk to Doojoon, face to face and not through the phone; he wanted to hug Doojoon, to kiss Doojoon, to make love to Doojoon, to sleep with Doojoon and then cuddle afterwards. He wanted to be with his boyfriend now, physically.

He knew he was being selfish, utterly selfish, and the current scene on Doojoon’s Iris drama was not helping at all. Yoseob pouted and clutched the pillow tighter to his chest.

Dongwoon, who sat next to Yoseob, was squirming in his seat as he watched the drama. There was a pained wince in his face and an amused smile when Doojoon Hyung pulled Dahae Noona into the car – which by the way had his birth date on the car plate, that was mighty cool – and then he giggled to himself, like a school girl. He was busy squirming with an embarrassed smile on his face until he realized the uncomfortable expression on Yoseob’s face, almost an angry scowl, almost.

“Hyung, you okay?” Dongwoon tapped Yoseob on the shoulder, trying to find anything wrong with the pseudo maknae. When Yoseob did not respond, Dongwoon slid closer and shook his Hyung harder on the shoulders, his voice louder and firmer, “Hyung, are you okay?” There was a worried frown on the maknae’s handsome face.

Yoseob jerked back when Dongwoon shook him. His face immediately relaxed and he stuttered an answer, “Y – y – yeah… I’m fine… Just…” He cleared his throat, trying to make the lump in his throat go away, before answering more steadily, “I’m fine, Dongwoonah. Just tired. The light from the television is killing my eyes.” He blinked his eyes repeatedly to prove his point.

“You are scowling.” Dongwoon pushed, observant eyes on Yoseob.

Yoseob answered back with a dismissive hum, his eyes never leaving the television where Hyunwoo was laughing merrily with a really pretty and dainty Sooyeon. Yoseob thought the roller coaster scene was the worst part, but then there was this scene where Hyunwoo placed a wonderfully cute headband with adorable ears on Sooyeon’s head and Yoseob just lost it.

He remembered the time when they went to Paris and Doojoon bought him a Peruvian winter hat – a beanie with two strings on the sides with conspicuous bold letters at the top of the beanie. Yoseob was whining that his head was cold and he would have a headache soon, it was downright his fault for forgetting his beanie but he was being a brat and he whined non-stop about it. Until he felt soft fabric enveloping his small head, he turned around and found Doojoon grinning at him, lovingly tying two strings around his face so that his head was entirely tucked into the Peruvian winter hat. Doojoon’s grin widened after he finished his task, he held Yoseob’s head between his two hands and placed a loud smacking kiss on the top of his covered head, “There, now you won’t have a headache anymore.” Yoseob stared dumbly at his boyfriend – the nation’s boyfriend – for a while before blinking in confusion. He was just being a spoiled brat, no real intention behind his whines, just needed to be annoying at the moment, but Doojoon – his Doojoon – was giving in to his whims and spoiled him senseless. Which woman would not fall on her knees for Doojoon, Yoseob often wondered.

Yoseob could not bear to watch the “amusement park date” anymore, but he was a masochist – that was what Doojoon called him – and he continued watching until their “date” scene was over, including the vague love confession in the restaurant. When it was over, he quickly stood up, threw the pillow on the couch and headed back calmly to the room he shared with Dongwoon.  

“Hyung!” Dongwoon shouted as he turned his body on the couch to see Yoseob walking off to their bedroom, “Yoseob Hyung, where are you going? The drama is not over yet. Hyung! Yoseob Hyung!”

Yoseob was not responding as closed the bedroom door and dropped himself onto his bed, burrowing his face into another tee shirt of Doojoon’s he had taken to sniff on. Dongwoon said it was creepy, and he flinched every time Yoseob breathed the cloth in, yet he loved his Hyungs too much to do anything about it. He knew how lonely Yoseob must have been.

Quickly after that, the door of their bedroom opened and a pretty head of their maknae popped into the room, “Hyung, you okay?” Yoseob turned his body to face Dongwoon and the younger man flinched when he saw half of Yoseob’s face was buried into Doojoon’s tee shirt. “Ew, Hyung. Seriously, that is just borderline insane and terrifying for me when you start sniffing. Can you please pull that thing off your face and talk to me like a normal human being?”

Yoseob pouted but still pulled the shirt down from his face just enough to reveal his mouth, “Talk about what?”

Dongwoon knew Yoseob was feigning innocence and he rolled his eyes. That only worked for Doojoon but not on him. “You are obviously upset. Are you jealous?”

Yoseob scowled and buried half of his face back into the shirt, covering his pout. He turned away from Dongwoon and curled like a ball on his bed, “I don’t want to talk about it.”

Dongwoon laughed and shook his head in amusement, “Okay, let me finish watching and I’ll tell you every detail on how Hyunwoo wooed Sooyeon.”

When a banana pillow was thrown, Dongwoon was already gone and the door already closed.

~~~~~~~~ BEAST~~~~~~~~

Yoseob woke up at midnight, disoriented and fuzzy. He looked at the clock that indicated it was a few minutes after midnight and they were supposed to be up in another 4 hours for an early flight to Jakarta. He felt the side of his bed was empty; Doojoon had not come back, he always crashed into Yoseob’s bed when he came back from a long travel, hugging the younger man in his sleep. Poor Dongwoon, he had been so scandalized the first few times but had grown totally indifferent after that. Maybe that was why the three of them were beyond comfortable with each other.

He stared at the sleeping Dongwoon with his mouth gaped open and a book carelessly opened on the floor – new students in a new university and all. Yoseob sighed and the irritation came back to him as he remembered the earlier scenes. Doojoon had informed him of the loveline between him and Dahae Noona long before they started filming the real scenes, and he had always reminded Yoseob it was just a script, and that he loved Yoseob more than anything else in the world. But still, sometimes that jealous self appeared without Yoseob’s consent.

So he opened his laptop and browsed through some of the fansites he knew. And as he expected, they were all filled with things pertaining to Hyunwoo and Sooyeon – pictures, gifs, video cuts, everything. Yosseob understood that it was no one’s fault, but still he was jealous beyond reason and decided to leave a small message on Beast Café.

[CAFE] 130307 YOSEOB’S POST – “SEEING SEO HYUNWOO RIDE A ROLLER COASTER.”

 [ENG] I want to go out somewhere too
I want to buy a night ticket and ride a bunch of rides’-’

There weren’t many moments where I was jealous of Yoon Doojoon but..ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
That scene I was really jealous.

I’m going to Indonesia tomorrow!
I heard that typhoid fever has been the trend in Indonesia right now.
Us BEAST friends never fall behind with trends but..
Our thorough manager hyungs
Packed us instant rice and lots of side dishes, and prepared a lot of water from Korea.
So don’t worry too much.
KeKe

Sleep well then everyone. Bye~~~~~~~~~~~~

by alwaysbeast · in Beast, Fancafe Updates, News. ·

He deleted and revised and deleted again and typed some more things and when he was finally too tired to think anymore, he just pushed the update button. He might look like a jealous fool – he tried not to though, his message was lighthearted – but he was a jealous fool right now. So it did not matter, he shrugged and closed his laptop before going back to sleep.

~~~~~~~~ BEAST~~~~~~~~

“You are one silly goose. What should I do with you?”

Yoseob woke up to a warm whisper on his right ear, the warm breath tickling his lobe softly and sent down shivers to his toes. It was a delicious voice, and such deliciousness could only come from –

“Doojoonah, you are back.” Yoseob mumbled in his sleep.

He tried to sit up and take a good look at his boyfriend when he found that Doojoon was already wrapped around him from behind, coiling around Yoseob’s body. The leader’s head was comfortably lodged on Yoseob’s shoulder, in the crook of the younger man’s neck and shoulder.

“Yes, I am back and you are so exasperating sometimes.” Doojoon kissed Yoseob’s cheek and tightened his hold on the younger man.

Yoseob mumbled sleepily, his brain was still fuzzy and his body warm from Doojoon’s body heat behind him, “What are you talking about?”

“The café post.” Doojoon started kissing the line of Yoseob’s neck slowly, a comforting gesture for both of them. “I saw it. Your post about Seo Hyunwoo and how jealous you are.”

“But I wasn’t – “

“Shhh…. Shhh…” Doojoon cooed in his ear, “Don’t get agitated. Yes you were and you are. You are jealous of Sooyeon and Hyunwoo. You wanted it to be us.”

Yoseob was silent as he relaxed into the embrace, falling deeper into Doojoon’s arms. He nodded softly, unable to contain his annoyance. “You were on the amusement park with her, playing rides I want to play with you, wearing headbands I want to wear with you, having the fun I want to have with you.” Yoseob’s body shook a little as he sobbed softly, he could not contain his irritation. “And then the restaurant scene, the way you looked at her. Ugh…”

“Oh, baby…” Doojoon turned Yoseob around on the bed so that they were now face to face. Warm tears were running down Yoseob’s small face. “Shhh… shhh… Don’t be upset. I love you. I love you…”

Yoseob sobbed as he clutched tightly onto Doojoon’s soft tee shirt, “And you said she could sit beside you and be with you, and you would always reserve a seat beside you for her but nobody else…” Yoseob started choking on his own tears and Doojoon immediately kissed all the tears away from his younger lover’s face. “Yoseobah, you know it’s just a script and – “

“I am not a jealous or an obsessive freak and I don’t need you to be with me all the time…” Yoseob cut Doojoon midway and continued his quiet blabber, “But I just… I missed you so much and then you were having so much fun with her… I just… I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. This should not happen.”

Doojoon rubbed soothing circles on Yoseob’s back and shushed him softly, “No, no, no. I’m sorry, Yoseobah. I didn’t know you are hurting like this. I missed you too. Terribly. It was you that I imagined her to be, it was your face, your smile, your eyes, your bratty attitude. And that was how I could look at her that way. I was supposed to be in love with her, and I need to imagine her as someone I love dearly to have that head-over-heels look. It was you, it was always you. I love you.” He placed a chaste kiss on top of Yoseob’s head.

Yoseob shook his head roughly, nuzzling his face on Doojoon’s soft tee shirt, “I’m sorry, I was childish and insecure. I promise to be better. I promise…”

Doojoon sighed and said, “Just promise to be yourself. I don’t need to you to be better, I just need you to be Yang Yoseob that Yoon Doojoon loves. That’s all.” Doojoon loosened his hug and moved back a little to look down at Yoseob’s face, “You love me, right?”

Yoseob looked up and grinned, eyes sparkling with pure love and affection. “Silly. Of course I love you. Always.”  

Doojoon smiled back and rearranged their position until they were both comfortable on the single bed, closing his eyes to sleep. “Sleep, we are to wake up in another 2 and half hours to go to the airport. I’m tired.”

Yoseob cuddled closer and closed his eyes too, whispering a soft “Okay, I love you so much” before both of them slipped into slumber.

It had been a long journey for their relationship, since their trainee days to their rookie days to now, when they were popular and incredibly busy.  And they waited for the future to come, filling each day with their uninhibited love for one another, braving everything together.