Chapter 818: "The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do." <333333333333
two years is such a short time in some ways and such a long time in some ways as well. time is passing and making the pain manageable i listen to your songs again now, i kind of forgot how beautiful your voice is. my best friend sat with me to watch your last stage and SHINee's first stage with out you i cried because i missed you but i also cried because i was so proud of your mates, they are so strong to be able to perform with out you there.
the loss of you was so shocking and so hard but its making me live in the moment with my loved ones. it has also made me celebrate people's lives instead of focusing on the loss so in a way you made losing sulli and hara easier and it even is making it easier to come to terms with my grandpa getting closer to passing. you were an angel here and up there. i wont lie i felt really dark after you left us but i can feel the light coming back little by little it has taken alot of work but its getting there i think it helps knowing you aren't suffering anymore, that and i carry a photo of you smiling in my bag now so i can remember how to smile.
i miss you
and i love you.
i hope you are resting well angel <3
Chapter 818: When first read the news I began to shake furiously . I didn't want to believe that.
I was with my family and I grabbed my father's hand and began to cry. He soothed me and told me that Human being is just like that, they're alive now and within a second they're gone .
Jonghyun's death was the first ever death I witnessed I'd never seen someone die before and it was too shocking and hard for me to adjust that.
On May 25th this year, when I was supposed to be celebrating SHINee's anniversary I lost my father. The one who soothed me during the loss of Jonghyun is gone now himself . for the first few weeks I kept asking myself questions that had no answers . I kept wondering why would that happen to me why would someone even die but then I thought a lot about death .
Once we're alive we always worry about losing our beloved ones but after they die, you never worry about losing them anymore . If anything they are always watching over you and making you feel safe . They're beside you without leaving you again, just like how you are .
I thought I was scared of seeing those I love die since I'd never seen death with my own eyes before, well aside Jonghyun . But then I figured out death couldn't be that bad, it's not scary , it has its own goods and we just need to understand it as something natrual that must happen .
We bring death into our lives once we're given birth , it's always around the corner waiting for your machine to stop working and then taking over you .
I believe in something beyond human's physical body . I believe it's your soul living and your body is just a machine which would break down sooner or later . I never had seen death as the end of human being . I don't believe in Heaven or Hell but I do believe that Your soul still lingers in another dimention which is beyond our eyesight, Continues to live just like they used to .
I always miss both of them but I'm pretty sure they're living in their happily ever after .
Chapter 18: i remember the day my friend emailed me while i was at school. Telling me that Kim Jonghyun had passed away. I started crying as soon as I read the email. I was just thinking to myself there is no way he is gone there is just no way that it is possible. Jonghyun was actually my bias of SHINee. His smile to his voice to the way he treated people is what made him my bias. Bur after all this time I couldn't realize that he was actually in pain
R.I.P Jonghyun we miss you so much.
It really hurts a lot thinking that he’s really gone
In every single day I look at his pictures and listen to his music
like he’s still here
I can’t bring myself to believe he’s gone except in this day
I can’t forget about it at all
Where I was hoping for anyone to just say it was a rumor and he’s fine or maybe just hospitalized
But no.. he’s gone , and forever
He’ll always be in my heart and mind
Chapter 12: the angle went back to heaven, leaving behinds those who love and care for him..i wish to all the lefties to be happier and live your life to the fullest..we can do it!!
Chapter 1: Hello jonghyun oppa.. I dont know what to say now.. There are hundred words but i cant express myself now.. Two years had gone quickly in blink of eye.. I think you finally found your peace.. Atleast please be happy with God at heaven.. There are so many things happening now oppa.. One by one many of them are leaving.. Please protect your fellow colleagues, your family, fans, SHINee members, seniors, juniors and your lovable SM hung, noonas, dongsaengs.. You will always live in our memories and breathe through your beautiful songs.. Respect you oppa.. Please take care of all of them and be in peace ?
Jonghyun, thank you for your hard efforts and work you left behind. It pains to think how even through your pain and suffering you still tried to make us feel happy and entertained. You gave everything to the world and you deserve all the world’s love in return. I hope you’re resting well and enjoying your eternal rest from all the pain you’ve suffered. You’ll never be forgotten and again thank you for everything.
Two years may seem shot or two years may seem long. Me, it's two years I've been missing a dazzling smiling angel with a wonderful voice. Not a day goes by that I don't miss Jonghyun or think of him. Two years later I"m back on this page again. Hope you're in peace BlingBling Jonghyun. <3
Chapter 1: Another year goes by. Time really doesn't stop even for a second. I started listening to SHINee again. Still miss your voice and smile and feel nostalgic when listening or watching SHINee songs and videos. But watching all the fun times of SHINee helps brightens my mood and makes me smile everytime. Happy 2020 Jonghyun. Hope you are still watching out for your SHINee brothers. You'd be proud as you've always been <3
Kim Jonghyun, how i miss you. even though i was never a shawol, i was always a fan of shinee and you too. it was not just your miraculous voice that made you stand out, but also your amazing personality, someone who always smiled and laughed. i am sorry to hear you were struggling behind those faces though. you didn’t deserve that. but you did amazing. the best you could have done. i wish we could have helped you, i wish anyone could have helped you, but people just said “it was all in your head”. they were liars. horrible liars that told you horrible lies. even though those demons in that head of yours overcame you, jonghyun, you are in a better place now. you are an angel. always have been, forever will. you are a strong will to keep going, to know that even if you let the monsters take over you, there is still hope. for everyone. me included. do you know my favorite song from you is U&I? you may be wondering bby, why is that? well because it is song that shows the real you, the you that doesn’t include those demons. the happy, cheerful jonghyun we all love. i always get very happy whenever i hear it come on shuffle. i also like to imagine you dancing, singing along to the song. i am sure you still are up there in heaven. you love singing. but my angel, i want you to know, you couldn’t have done any better. you did well. is that what you want to hear? i will tell you that a million times to help you feel better. please, know we will never forget you. you will forever be in not only our minds, but hearts too. let your wings spread wide. rest in peace, our angel, kim jonghyun. maybe one day, we can listen and dance to U&I together, shall we? ~ ashna
I love him so much and I wish it was different and he could have gotten the help he needed so Shinee and the world could have their bright smile and main vocalist I hope he is happy in heaven and know that he is truly missed in our hearts and his music touched so many people
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