I can't keep up with it. And I cry but I know that he is at peace.
He is singing on a cloud. He's not lonely anymore. I don't know!!
It really hurts. I keep listening to every Shinee song, even if it's not a very happy feeling anymore.
If the guys keep on performing, I'll keep listening and watching.
I think of him EVERY SINGLE DAY.
If whoever reads this and feels the same...gosh...you are not alone.
Thank you for making this. I don't dare to read it...but just knowing it exists comforts my heart.
Again, thank you.
Chapter 1: We are saying goodbye to a hreat man, to a hreat singer, the lost of some great talent. But what about LadyCode, 100 % and Spectrum, we lost great talemt there also. We are also losing one idol after another to this great scandal. We are losing all yg idols except Black Pink, they are being moved to a private company, because yg ceo says they are as big as BTS.
jong oppa ... happy birthday to the brightest star ... we won't forget you ... you are the wishing angel for the SHINee and shawol... happy 29th birthday ... (30th birthday in Korean age) I love you oppa... stay strong and be the brightest star.... love you always...
Chapter 184: It happens again. I cannot count how many times I feel worthless. It has been a while. GPA messed me up. What about my future?
I listen to "Lonely" these days. The fact that noone really cares about another makes me cringe. And so do I. I hurt people badly.
The thought of suiciding has crossed my mind several times. I have become stronger, but it doesn't really go away. I have a dream, a big one. I was told by people I don't even know personally to dream big and aim high. And I aim for the stars.
I'm not fine now. My best friend told me it's okay. She listens to my s even we haven't met each other in person for 3 months. It's agonizing that noone truly thinks for others anyway. But she does, cause she also has depression.
What a sad story
one year passed quickly..... but still I can't forget you.. not only me but also all of your fans, family,frnds and SHINee .. do you know why.. cause you live in memories you left and you will always live in our heart and our memories.. you aren't a person who can be easily get forgetten by us ... I still can't believe you aren't here but your memories and smile can make my day... even though I feel upset and sad about your decision, I still respect that cause you wanted some peace .. please oppa support all of ur loved ones and SHINee in every way like you always do .. i miss you oppa .. but I love you so much .. be happy oppa always
have that beautiful smile on your face in heaven and be the brightest ? star in the sky .. I love you oppa but you did well ... you did all well
Chapter 398: A year can go by quickly or it could be a slow long year. I can't believe a year has gone by since you've passed. I still look up to the sky in the morning and wish you a good morning, I miss you and have a good day. In the evening I see the stars and the moon then I'll miss you even more for you shine like no other. Yesterday as I was walking home, I saw a rainbow and thought how more beautiful the rainbow would look if you were standing under its colors. There are days I cry watching your videos or hearing you sing but I'll be okay. I know that heaven has gained a beautiful and bright angel Jonghyun. You did well Jonghyun. Be happy and fly free. Forever my Diamond in the Sky.
Chapter 780: 365 days, how fast it flows. We are struggling on, moving for the sake of moving . Only you are not here, its unbearable this excruciating pain I miss you, I miss you everyday, no matter what I listen too You are there in the corner of my mind priking my hearth. Your deep and beautiful voice, your funny jokes, your healing lyrics, the pain still exists. You who hid under your happy mask actually bleeding from within. It hurts, this guilt this pain. My dearest wish is for you to find happiness at least over there~
You did well Jonghyun you are and will always be our love and pride, now rest well
He will never leave my mind. I'll never erase him from my memories. I promise. Because of him, I found Taeyeon. Because of him, I started to appreciate Taeyeon. Because of him, I started to love Taeyeon. Because of Taeyeon, I have a reason to live, fight my depression and I promise that I will be with Taeyeon, support and listen to her music for a very long time. I will also listen to his music for a long time. Thank you and I'm sorry for not being with you when you're having a hard time. I'll cherish you forever. I love you
I started to suffer from depression in 2007 and even though I finished treatment, I still suffer from it. But Jonghyun became a rolemodel to me when he passed and I try to stay positive because of him.
Guys, i think in 2011 i started to suffer of depression (i was 11 back then), it was so suddenly, nothing bad happened to me, i don't have any trauma or something, i was happy child back then, that was the same year i discovered kpop, snsd, super junior, and shinee were my favs (they still are) . Like i said i was just a normal child but there were times when i felt depressed without any reason, i didn't think about it, then as i grow up i didn't feel any connection with people of my age so i was always with my older sister and her friends at school, also with my teacher, she was my own jennifer honey, we had a really good relationship and she even treated me like a daughter, the thing is that for stupid things that happened our relationship went ruined and that made my depression stronger, i love her like a mother, in december 21 of 2016 i sent her a message explaining all the misunderstaiment we had, i thought she wouldn't answer back but she did and she forgive me, we didn't chat after that mostly because i knew that i didn't have to do anything with her, i mean she forgive me she didn't say that she wanted me back in her life, i always loved writing so i made o book for her, like a biography of every moment we spent together until that day, i did it in only two days and i just let it be because i thought "this will be to much she wouldn't wanted to readed" a
so a never say anything, i found out about jjong's dead a morning and my world just went down, it was like a alternative world in a nightmare i just couldn't believe it, i think in may i dreamed something and got inspiration for a book, it is a book of a boy depressed, i just let the dream be and forgot about it, in july was the birthday of my teacher and i was listening jjong's music and said " you know what? Forget it I'm going to sent her the book, it's one of the last things that a want to do if i ever have the courage of kill myself" so i sent it and tell her it was a birthday gift, she was surprised because i remembered all of those things of the past, she loved it and i told her that maybe one day i will give her a real book and not a word document, i just keep thinking about the dream and write a sinopsis of the whole book, i said "you have to do it, for yourself, for your teacher, for the people who's feeling the same way that you and mostly for jonghyun, he gift us so many things and i wanna return the favor", so right now I'm trying to put all the words together, i know how start and how will end, i just have to write, i want to publish it once it is done the thing is that i don't know how and also i live in Venezuela, if you know about the situation here you'll know that things are hard so nobody will spent money in book written by an eighteen yrs old girl. So if you know how to do it online (with all the officials stuffs and the author rights) please tell me, i haven't ended the book but once that i do i really want to publish it for our angel up there. Thanks for everything guys, let's celebrate the life of our angel by doing what we like everyday
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