Have you ever felt frustrated and depression fall over you for quite a period? Well, I've encountered this lots of times, and today is another one of those days I feel frustrated again. Even though I know that I should just let this slide, I can't. I seem to always keep things bottled inside of me, to only explode after quite a period of time. After that explosion, I start feeling depressed.

I am sick and tired of getting these feelings. Why can't I just let everything go and grow stronger. Everytime I think these unhappy thoughts, I can't help but feel tears welling up and cry like a baby. I need to toughen up, but somewhere inside of me still reeks the sad, pitiful and weak me. Why do I have to be this weak? Why can't I become heartless like some people. Hopefully, I can become heartless someday, just so I can go on with my life. I can't keep on going with this ty life of mine. Everything here screams mental abuse and I've been living with this for a year already. And nothing has changed, even though I've done my best to adapt to the new situation.