Sungyeol really love Myungsoo. So much that it hurts when Myungsoo forgets him. Myungsoo love Sungyeol too. It’s just he happen to forget. What goes around comes around...

Tears flow shamelessly on the handsome face. His gazes never leave the peaceful looking of the male in front of him. Hand locking the others limp hands.

 “Don’t do that,. Wake up,. I’m sorry,. I’ll do anything for you,.. I’ll leave you if it’s the best,..”

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“You leave this group because of him,. Why did you punish yourself,? It’s unfair,. Not like with doing this everything will be back to normal.” Sunggyu shouts. His voice wavered as he is fighting with his urge to knock some sense into the younger male in front of him. He feels useless because he is unable to do anything.

“I have too hyung. It’s my fault. If it isn’t for me, he will still be him. He will never forget me, himself and us. He will never forget everything,!!”  The younger shout back.

He was not trying to be rude. But he obviously can never control his emotion anymore. He feels guilty. Everything happens because of him. Dongwoo wraps him in his hug. Sungjong cries. His eyes swell. Woohyun just sits in a corner, still dazed in what he heard and Hoya being himself just sits coolly while massaging his temple.

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Sungyeol had his eyes on the male on the stage. Not all of them. Just a particular man that is smiling to his fans while he singing. He brings his necklace to his lips and kissed it gently then tucked it into his shirt. Placing his cap on his head, he gets up and moves away. He needs to find someone.

“Stop it Yeol-ah.. Don’t hurt yourselves anymore..”

Sungyeol eyed his hand that is in Woohyun grasp. He tried to wriggled and let his hand go. But no, Woohyun grasp was so tight that it kind of hurt.

“I’m stopping it.  And to do so, I had to stop meeting you. That I’ll might forget him someday.. I hope I can forget him..”

Sungyeol voice was so low at the end of his sentences. That Woohyun might easily slip. But no, Woohyun heard it and he tugs Sungyeol hand harder. Causing Sungyeol to ends up in his warm embrace. It’s that Sungyeol heart was cold so it doesn’t affect him even a little.

“Why are you like this??  You know I like you right,? Heck, I even love you.. You don’t have to think about him. He don’t even know you ever exist in his life..”

Woohyun start to yell. Thank god that Woohyun is wearing a disguise or else the news will be spread over a minute and hell, everyone will eventually find Sungyeol.

The fact was kept secret. After the accident, Sungyeol left Infinite. Nobody, ever mention about him in front of Myungsoo and he just disappear. He left with his family and Infinite not even knew where he was. Everyone excepts Woohyun. He needs someone to know things about Myungsoo. So he needs Woohyun.

And he just realise that he had to move on – he MUST left Myungsoo so that he’ll be happy. So he wants to end everything. He needs to leave the past. The painful history will keep repeating in his mind. So that’s the only option he had – LEAVING MYUNGSOO.

Sungyeol start to walk away. Only a few step away before he was grip into a suffocating hug.

“Don’t go.. Don’t go.. It’s ok that you don’t want me. I can accept it. I had come to accepted it a long time before. But please don’t go,. Everyone need you..”

Woohyun cried. He cried so hard that it pained Sungyeol. He knows Woohyun like him even before he end up with Myungsoo. But Sungyeol see him as a brother and he know Woohyun deserve someone better.

“I know hyung. But I can’t. I wouldn’t go if he says so. But I know he wouldn’t. And I’m sorry I can’t think of you the way you do. You deserve someone better. Let go of your feeling and you would see that someone love you more than you ever imagine..”

‘Like what Sunggyu hyung do,.’ Sungyeol added in his heart.

“You say it yourself Yeol,..”

Woohyun retorted. Sungyeol know he had to feel offended but absurdly he not. It’s true. It’s mirroring to himself.

He doesn’t saw it coming. It’s so fast that he suddenly saw Woohyun throw something in the air. Something shiny and then only he realised that it was his necklace. The one and only memory he shared with Myungsoo.

“I’m letting go of my feeling and you will also Sungyeol. You will..” and Woohyun walk away. With tears trailed on his cheek. His hiccup muffled by his muffler.

Sungyeol almost cried. He had been there since Woohyun left. He is letting his feelings go. But he will never let the memory past. So there he was. He searched through everywhere for his precious necklace. The sweaters he had make everything difficult. He was showered in sweat but he wouldn’t care less. No,. He’s not going anywhere without the necklace.

“Are you looking for this,??”

A rather familiar voice, and a pretty hand that he will never forget appear in front of his face. Slowly, he takes a look at the person. His breath caught at the moments.

In front of him – Myungsoo is smiling while holding the necklace. He wants to hug Myungsoo, showered him with kiss but he knows he can’t. So, he timidly takes the necklace. Their hand brush a little purposely. He wants to have that last touch.

What Sungyeol didn’t know is that little touch triggered something in Myungsoo’s heart. As if he needs to be beside Sungyeol. He needs to make Sungyeol forgets the sadness that he had. He need to make Sungyeol smile and happy. Those faces should not be sad.

“Is it important,??”

Myungsoo hastily shout as Sungyeol want to walk away. He stops and turns. Their eyes interlocked. And Sungyeol almost fainted on the overwhelming feelings.

“Excuse me,??”

“Sorry if you find me as a nuisance. But I was passing here when you were arguing with someone. It’s kind of creepy but I just happen to hear your conversation and then you were looking for this necklace and then now you’re still here and,…”

 Myungsoo keeps on babbling. Trying to stand for himself but Sungyeol couldn’t stop himself. Myungsoo is as cute as ever. Again it is a good thing Woohyun is wearing a disguise or Myungsoo will recognise him.

“It’s ok,..”

Sungyeol replied. He had his small smile with him and it pained Myungsoo. So, he started to persuade Sungyeol to tell him the story (and want to befriend).

At first he refused. But finally, Sungyeol told everything to Myungsoo. Myungsoo deserve the truth even if he doesn’t remember anything.

“So why did you leave him,??”

Myungsoo asked after he had finished his story.

“Because I love him so much. And he deserve to be happy..”

Sungyeol answered with full honesty. His gaze fixated on Myungsoo eyes as he declared his love. And Myungsoo couldn’t help but not agree with his point but he wouldn’t say anything. At least he gets to get close with the stranger. The stranger that now was leaving him without even telling his name.

“Myung-ah,. The lock is still here. But where are you,??”

Sungyeol whispered. His hand caressed the lock in front of him. The lock was placed by them. Right after Myungsoo confessed to Sungyeol. Namsan Tower is the place he will come just to relieve his feelings over Myungsoo and until today, he never failed to come there. But this time, he had to do something. With his shaking hand, he put the key on the lock and tried to open it.

He tried and keeps on trying. But seems like it had stuck and Sungyeol can’t help but feel suffocated. He needs to throw the lock away. As a symbol that he’ll let go of the feeling that he and Myungsoo ever share. But no,. It just had to stuck on the way and Sungyeol can’t help but cried.

“What are you doing,??”

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“Why is that every time I meet you, you’ll be in this condition,??”

Sungyeol can’t respond anything. Not when Myungsoo was kneeling to his level – eyes showing a pure worries. They exchange glances up till Myungsoo bring Sungyeol into his embrace and Sungyeol break down.

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Myungsoo eyed the scenery from the above. He had been dying to meet the stranger from before. That night, he had a free time from schedule and he just want to go to Namsan. As if something is waiting for him there. He just wandered around in peace with nobody recognizing him. That’s until he went to the lock area and find the man on the verge of breaking down. The man looks so vulnerable and Myungsoo can’t help but to approached him. The sign of his pained face make his heart clenched. Bringing the man into his embrace, he tried to coo the man.

“I’m here. It’s ok,. Cry all you want..”

He petted the latter soft hair. It might be inappropriate but he cannot control the urge to wipe the tears off the pretty face. It’s as if he had the connection with him but he can’t tell anything.

“I,.I need to,. I need to move on,.. But everything goes wrong,.. Why,. I want to forget him,. I need too,..”

Sungyeol break down. He is hiccupping uncontrollably. His sentence comes out stuttering. Myungsoo’s heat radiating to him and make him feel safe.

The night was spends with Myungsoo hugging Sungyeol. Listening to everything that he wanted to let out without knowing that everything Sungyeol says is about him. And finally, he knows the male name ‘Lee Sungyeol’. It rings something in his mind but he can’t utterly make up his mind to anything.

Two month. It is exactly two month after that Infinite finally realise their once gloomy Myungsoo had turns bright. He would regularly texted someone. Frowning when he don’t get the reply. And smile gleefully all the day when he get the replied that probably he wants. And they couldn’t help but happy at the change. The fans realise it too, the once lost in his amnesia - Myungsoo seems to have become the one that they know before the accident.

And of course, Myungsoo realise it too. He knows it’s Sungyeol who change him. He will consistently text and call Sungyeol, but yeah,. The male will repeatedly avoid him. It is not that Sungyeol don’t know he is Myungsoo – Infinite visual. But it doesn’t seem to affect anything. And there will be time Sungyeol respond to him and he couldn’t help but feel utterly happy about that. He like Sungyeol,. No, more likely to love him.

So that day, after three months Myungsoo get to know a fascinating creature namely Lee Sungyeol, he can’t help but had this giddy feeling around him at the feeling of Sungyeol asking him to go out. He had been happy all the day and the Infinite boys couldn’t help but feel curious.

“Where do you think you’re going Kim Myungsoo,??”

Sunggyu voice his question in his leader tone. Myungsoo was busy tying his shoelace and ready to leave the dorm.

“I’m going to meet someone. Might as well make him as mine,.”

“What,? Who,??” Sungjong yelled out from the kitchen as he heard it.

“It’s someone Sungjong,. Geez,. Stop yelling,.” Myungsoo retorted.

 “Who’s that someone,?” Dongwoo interestedly asked.

“Someone as in someone,..” Myungsoo teasingly replied.

“Someone that change you,. Right,??” Sungjong walk to the living room with his bowl of fruit.

“Maybe,.. Oh God,. I’m getting late,.” Myungsoo starts to hyperventilate. Running away, he starts to shout.

“I’m going,. Wish me good luck with Sungyeol,!!”

Leaving the Infinite boys in utter confusion.

“Sungyeol,???”

“I’m going,.”

“What,? Why,? I’m sorry that I late but,..”

“I’m going Myungsoo,. I’m going away from Seoul,.”

The word caught Myungsoo by surprise. Sungyeol was awfully quiet when he reached at the café. He thought it’s because he is late but no. Sungyeol is actually thinking about something and no,. It’s not happening. He will never let it end like this.

“Why,??”

“I had to,. I need to forget him. I can’t keep on living like this,.”

Tears start to flow from the lifeless eyes. Myungsoo cringe upon seeing it. But he can’t do anything as he is also in a verge of crying.

“You opted to forget him Sungyeol. You don’t have to leave here. You just need to stop living in his shadow..” 

“I can’t,. I,..”

Myungsoo take Sungyeol’s hand in his. Grabbing and squeeze it slightly.

“I’m here. I love you.. Don’t leave me Sungyeol,..”

“I can’t stay. No, you can’t love me,.. Forget me,.”

Sungyeol gets up and start walking. Two steps and he stop in his track as he heard the shout from behind.

“Why,??!!!”

All eyes were on them. Whisper start to spread. Hell broke loose, camera flashing everywhere. Sight of a member of a boy band lose control in public is not a familiar sight. It’s a good thing that Sungyeol make sure that he is in his disguise. His thick coat covered half of his face up to his nose. Nobody needs to see him.

“I’m sorry Myungsoo,. Sorry,..”

Sungyeol whispered. He turns away and started to walk. Getting away from the café, stop a taxi and told the last place he want to go before going away from all this crap.

“Namsan Tower,..”

“Why Sungyeol,. Why,?? Couldn’t you just be truthful to me,. I deserve to know everything,.” Myungsoo cried. Dongwoo beside him secure him in his embrace. His hands rub Myungsoo’s hand soothingly. Infinite are currently on the way to airport. Sunggyu drive quite dangerously but nobody complaint. They don’t want to lose any of their members anymore.

After Sungyeol left Myungsoo, he spends few hours to calm himself before he take the way to Namsan Tower. It is the only place that he can think off. He strolled leisurely there. He tried to forget everything. Sungyeol don’t want him and he can do nothing about it.

He takes his time. Casually take a look at the lock and promise written in it. Until he suddenly kick something. He bend his body, take the thing and take a look at it,.

‘I hope we’ll be together. As long as the lock is still in contact, there will always be love for us,. Myung+Yeol forever.’

Myungsoo chuckled at the cuteness of the promise. Only for a while until some memory flooded into his mind. He blanked. Everything comes back to him. Sungyeol – him, the accident and their love. The voices that he always hear before when he is in his comatose state. Everything starts to make sense.

“Don’t do that,. Wake up,. I’m sorry,. I’ll do anything for you,.. I’ll leave you if it’s the best,..”

It’s Sungyeol. He broke the lock as he wanted to end everything. No,. He will never let him go,. Not after everything. There will always be love for them.

Myungsoo stumble into the dorm. The member had to catch him and lay him to the couch. He is panting heavily. As if someone is over his life.

“Sungyeol is going,. We had to stop him hyung,. We had to,.. I remember everything..”

He starts to cry and it’s the cue for Sunggyu to grab the key and Hoya starts to drag the members into the car.

“Goodbye Infinite,. Goodbye Myungsoo,. Goodbye Love,..”

Sungyeol walks lifelessly into the departure gate. He is going to leave everything. His hand holds the necklace tightly. Just one more step to pass through the gate and he heard a shout.

“Sungyeol,!!!”

Sunggyu, Hoya, Dongwoo, Woohyun, Sungjong was running to him. His heart clench as the one that he need was not there. He almost turns back. But before he can even do anything, someone has been enveloping him in a bone crushing hug.

“You can’t go,. No,. Not again,. I’m sorry that I forget you,. I love you,. I promise not to forget you anymore.”

He was showered with kiss in his face, hairs and anything that Myungsoo can reach. He can’t help but blush. They are in an airport and Myungsoo just act as if it was normal to do things like that in public.

“Myungsoo,. What are you doing,??”

Sungyeol tried to pry off Myungsoo hug but fail miserably.

“I’ve remember everything,. Everything about us,. I’ve put the lock back with the other in Namsan Tower. There is love for us,.”

Myungsoo whisper and lock his lips with Sungyeol soft ones. Ignoring their surrounding and drown into their own world.

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“Did anybody know why MyungYeol crying on the couch while hugging,?? Do they just make up,?? Wait,. Do they even break up in the first place,??”

Hoya had this strange expression in his face upon seeing the so-called Myungyeol couple. He just came back from a variety show recording and unable to rest on his favourite couch due to the couple.

“Nothing,. They are just being stupid again,. Sungyeol want Myungsoo to stop reading all those fanfic as he will always react weirdly all the time and Myungsoo just grab Sungyeol. They made a bet that if Sungyeol didn’t show any emotion then Myungsoo will stop reading it. But apparently it’s not going to happen.”

Sungjong answered nonchalantly while peeling the apple with a rather sharp knife. His expression is kind of scary as he is interrupted so Hoya just shut his mouth.

“But seriously though. Why Myungsoo keep on glaring dagger towards me,??” this time it’s Woohyun who is whining. Hoya shuddered as he sees that Sungjong expression darkening. As if he wanted to throw the sharp knife to Woohyun.

“For God sake,. I have been telling this over 10 times Woohyun hyung,. It’s because you want to take Yeollie hyung in that goddam fanfic. You know how possessive Myungsoo hyung right,? It’s just his way of saying that you had to away from Yeollie hyung and me before I throw this knife on your,…”

Sungjong was unable to finished his sentence as Hoya drag Woohyun away.

“God,. That was scary,. Why can’t we be like other normal group,??” Hoya sight heavily,. Since he couldn’t get the couch, he settled himself on the floor. He just about to drift into a dreamland as he heard a rather familiar voice wailing,. He wake up hastily and move to his subject of obsession.

“What happen,??”

Dongwoo wraps him in a hug. His cry gets heavy.

“You shouldn’t die. How could you leave me alone,??”

“What,??”

“That fanfic,. You’re not hiding that you actually had a cancer don’t you,??”

“Cancer,?? No,. I’m not,. Stop crying,. I’m here for you right now,..”

Hoya keeps on persuading the baby dino,. Dongwoo is a soft hearted person. So, it’s always easy to make him cry but hard to make it stop..

“Must be the MyungYeol couple,..”

Sungjong commented as he walks from the kitchen.

“What,??”

Woohyun asked as he still couldn’t contain the amusement off of his face.

“It must be them that showing Dongwoo hyung the fanfic.”

“Oh,..”

That’s the only thing that Woohyun can reply. He admit that Infinite sure is one weird group.

“Take care hyung,..”

Sungjong said teasingly before put a headphone over his head and walk to his room with his fruit. Not even offered some to Woohyun.

“What does it mean,??” Woohyun asked himself. He turns to look at his idiotic member before his eyes bulge. No way,..

“Stop there Sunggyu hyung.. Don’t take any step closer to the Myungyeol,. Please,. They’ll ruin you,.!!”