" please accept us " i said with a trembling tone and yonghwa tightened his hand over mine

sooyoung unnie stood up and went out " that's reckless " she said before she slams the apartment's door    that's when i knew , unnies are not really willing to accept us that easily    " so , you broke up with changmin for his sake ? " yuri unnie said pointing at yonghwa , she continued " you really like bastards kind of men , right ? "    i hardly gulped as i got afraid to glance yonghwa's reaction , he was humiliated right beside me and i couldn't say anything , i couldn't protect him , i wanted to vanish that moment and never return back    " unnie , please .. " i said with what i got of voice which was a whispering tone    " it's easier for me to just congratulate you , it's your life after all , but i can't .. i can't because you're important to me " yuri unnie said honestly as she stood and went closer to us    she continued with a low tone holding my gaze " do whatever you want , but i'll not break my heart for you later when you end up broken again "   i got suffocated as i heard her words , she took steps to leave too    yonghwa shouted arrogantly " but i'm not going to break her again , it was just a mistake that time "    yuri chuckled and stopped walking , she turned back and said mocking " you're right - it was a mistake , and guess what , once a mistake always a mistake , once you did break her you'll never stop , why ? because you really don't deserve her "    yonghwa froze looking at yuri unnie , he clinched his fists quietly and my hand felt the pressure building up inside his muscles , yuri shook her head and went out , and yoona quietly followed her out    by now we were aware that no one is going to accept us anyway !! what's wrong with us being in love ?    tiffany who was busy with her phone started talking " love is supposed to bring out the best of us , but why your love for yonghwa brings the worst of you , you do all the things that would disappoint the ones who loved you truly , i wonder if this kind of love is really worth it "    my heart ached and i didn't know what to do anymore , i wanted to cry hard right then and there but it would be the worst thing to do for yonghwa's situation , for yonghwa's efforts to assure me    " let's go ..yonghwa " i said with a low tone and pulled his hand to get out    yonghwa talked anyway " even if she disappointed the ones who loved her , she got her own self who shouldn't disappoint too , she has to do what she really feels and comfortable with so she wouldn't end up disappointed in herself "    hyoyeon said her word as she stared at nothing " yonghwa , seohyun~ah ... stop before it's too late to save what remained of your hearts , what started wrong will never end up right , so stop it "    i pulled his hand more roughly so we would go out ..  staying here - both of us will get hurt , unnies will get hurt too   he finally followed my lead leaving the place , we stood outside the apartment waiting for the elevator and he didn't say a word , he quietly looked ahead as if i'm not there ..    " are you okay ? " i asked him who was pale by now , i glanced him but his eyes never met mine    he faked a laugh " that's my line , hyun~ah "    i chuckled too , how funny and painful , i used all what i got of voice to talk normally " they're my unnies after all , since i'm sure they are just saying those out of concern so i have be thankful for them right ? " i said cheerfully smiling and he nodded    i gulped non stop for that sorrow in my throat to lessen , i wished i didn't invite him , i wished he wasn't holding my hand now because i really wanted to cry , wanted to cry for hours .. but him being here with me , i couldn't even blink so my tears wouldn't fall foolishly , i picked my sunglasses from my bag and wore them    the elevator arrived and we went in , he quietly pressed the lobby button and i glanced him again wondering what's going on his mind    " anyway we're still going on that date you promised right ? " i asked smiling as i left his hand and linked our arms instead    " of course , have i ever skipped a promise ! "    " who knows ! " i said nagging as i stuck my shoulder to his playfully , and either he didn't get the joke or it's not funny enough to get his attention    the elevator's doors slid open and we went out to the garage    he opened the car's door for me and i sat inside the car looking at him but he intentionally avoided my glance again , what did i expect from him after getting hurt by my unnies' words , he must be disappointed that i didn't protect him .. it's all because of that weak personality of mine - the scardy cat is just inside me    " hyun~ah , i need to make a call ok ? " he said seriously and i nodded   i watched his back leaving me , and the distance between us growing bigger and farther , my body got cold and my heart got lonely , i had that ridiculous feeling that i will live that scene again , yonghwa leaving me ... my body shivered at the thought and tears started to roll endlessly over my cheeks    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   yonghwa sighed heavily as he called jungshin's phone   " jungshin~ah , where are you ? "    " hyung~ !! what's wrong with your voice !! " jungshin asked worried as yonghwa's tone was painfully heart aching    " nothing , listen - i need you to do me a favor "    " talk " jungshin seriously said    " i want you , jonghyun and minhyuk to prepare an event for seohyun tonight , a congratulatory event .. something would make her happy , blessed and secure " yonghwa said as he gulped to clear his throat    " but hyung , it's sudden and i think jonghyun already went on his date , minhyuk too is ..... " jungshin was saying but yonghwa interrupted him    " please ... " yonghwa said it with a fading tone as his hand trembled holding the phone , jungshin went dead quiet as he listened to yonghwa's irregular breathing    yonghwa continued " i want .. to make her ... happy "    " aishhh hyung .. don't call me again ... unless 3 hours have passed , you're not asking for a half hearted prepared event , right!! plus save the desserts for later tonight " jungshin said with an irritated tone and yonghwa chuckled   " thank you .. jungshin " yonghwa said relieved    " hyung , don't wait for our event to make her happy , make her happy there and now -wherever you are - " jungshin said seriously    " arahsso " yonghwa nodded unconsciously , but then he got his senses back and shouted " yaaaaaaaaah !!! don't order me around "     jungshin giggled " ok , i have to go now , i got a wedding to prepare " jungshin said and ended the call , yonghwa couldn't help but to smile  ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   i took a steps toward my car and opened the door " i'm back " , i finally got myself to glance her and still she didn't take off her shade .. i smiled at her and she smiled back    i truly understand her unnies' words , i was already ashamed asking them to allow me to snatch their maknae away again , after what i did to her and after how hard i broke her .. they were the one who gave her the courage to go on , to move on , and to bring the best of herself when i brought the worst in her life , she tried hard to keep her promise but i messed it all up , her unnies were the one she wanted to satisfy the most so it must have been hard on her ..    i the engine but then i looked around confused " something missing " i said thinking deeply as i patted my pockets searching    " eh what is it , oppa ? " seohyun asked concerned as she looked around clueless what should she look for ..    " hyun~ah ! how could i forget about it , what kind of pabo i am " i said in agony as i searched the entire dashboard    " i'm sure it's around here somewhere " seohyun said assuring as she looked around too confused and clueless    she continued " can you tell me what is it exactly so i could help you looking for it "    " aish " i frowned in anger as i sighed , i murmured " really it's unforgivable "    i unbuckled my seat belt " how could we miss this out today " i said as i leaned toward her , she was still confused widening her eyes looking at me    i took her lips for a passionate kiss , it was sudden but she got it immediately and her lips stretched with a smile , i angled her face with my hand for her to get serious as she kept on chuckling .. she got over the cheesy joke and kissed me back , our lips molding together in a melting rhythm , i took off her shade in the process and she didn't care a bit about them ..    i pressed our lips harder when i tasted her salty tears , her tears rolled quietly as she surrounded her arms around me and i hugged her back , rather than a heart fluttering kiss , it was a gloomy hopeless kiss that tasted bitter sweet ..    she hesitated but broke the kiss anyway " i ... " she murmured and i waited with a rough breathing our noses still in contact , our lips barely inch away and my heart throbbing loudly in my ear , i was lost between ridiculously desiring her and warmly consoling her so i locked my glance on her lips waiting for whatever reckless thing she wants to say - counting the seconds passing by -   her lips curved in depression as she continued " earlier i should've .. " , however it was already past her allowed time so i took her lips again for a demanding kiss , our lips molded roughly and depriving ..  her heavy sighs every now and then tickling my cheek mixed up with low moans - made me kiss her harder -, aiming to numb her all emotions , her all thoughts , forgetting about this world and just let herself free from those heavy obligations , she doesn't have to be anyone nor to satisfy anyone but herself !!   i felt her cold trembling hand ghosting my neck climbing and resting over my cheek , i covered her hand with my mine warming it and possessively tightened a grip over it ,, i didn't break our lips contact until we got mentally and physically exhausted later ..    i retreated back from her seat and threw my back on my seat quietly , relaxing for a moment and breathing deeply , i could tell she did the same too as we got quiet for a minute or two staring at no thing ..   " thanks .. " i heard her saying with a weak tone , i gulped as my heart ached , what did i ever do to her so she would be thankful for it !!    " you knew my unnies would act that way but you came anyway , it must have been hard on you facing them "    i let out of a shaky sigh as i closed my eyes " i understand them "     i continued " and i'm already aware that i don't deserve you nor your second chance ... i'm painfully aware about this to the extent of me wanting to just side with them and protect you even from myself "    she frowned looking at me as she sat probably and i looked at her , she wanted to object " how can you ..."    i reached to hold her hand and my thumb caressed her knuckles as i continued " but i'm going to be selfish enough to ask you to love me forever - for whatever kind of man i am , greedy enough to ask for your heart that i broke once "    she glanced our hands and shifted her teary glance at me , then she said " i already promised you this 4 years ago and i never broke it and will never do , you already got my heart and i don't think i could ever get it back how hard i tried to "    " i know " i said softly as i printed a kiss over her hand and her tears rolled over her cheek    " you have to be happy and smile widely , to prove them wrong " i said firmly and she smiled    i smiled as my thumb wiped her tears away " but if you are still crying even while being with me , what would that make of me ?? " i asked nagging    " useless ? " she said acting clueless and smiling    " jinjaaa !!? " i acted shocked and she laughed - finally -    " i do get your jokes but you never get mine , do you ! " she said as she brushed my arm with her hand to let it pass    " anyway , what do you want to eat ? "   " everything !! " she said cutely    " eh ! and who will pay for 'everything ' "    " you !! " she pointed at me cutely    " you've really changed " i said seriously acting shocked , " how " she asked    " you know the day we went horse riding , and you preferred starving rathe than me paying for you !! "    " we weren't couple that time , once we are a couple you have to pay for everything " she said giggling    " wow you are really the demanding type i guess "    " why ! you got something for the demanding type girlfriends ?? "     " yeah .. i really like them , they are pretty cute too " i said giving her a glance and my brightest smile   " now that you got to say your killer cheesy line , let's go " she said with a smile     ------------------------------------------------------------- ~ 3 hours later ~ 5:00 p.m ~   " so where are we going next , yoooong ~ ?" she asked cheerfully and i'm not even sure myself about our next destination    " you'll know later hyuuuun~ " i said as i drove   jungshin called earlier and told me the event site , i have never gone there before so i'm not sure what kind of event they prepared ! i pleaded to jungshin for a successful event so i'm sure my dongsaengs will never let me down - most probably-   it would be alright with just a congratulatory cake , balloons , flowers , candles if possible , those cute things which makes girls' hearts feels lighter .. i glanced seohyun again hoping that she'll be the happiest tonight    " are you tired ? " i asked concerned    " are you looking down on me ! " she said and her hand reached to volume up the radio and started singing with an imaginary mic , she danced passionately in the limited space she got ..    i glanced her cute dance and giggled , her hand directed my face ahead " eyes on the road " she warned firmly    " but you're so cute i want to watch you rather than driving , otokee " i whined joking    " want me to drive then ? " she asked excited    " my eyes will never ever leave the road seohyun-ssi " i said firmly in a military tone and she laughed hard     i reached for her hand and held it , she sighed " hands on the wheel yonghwa-ssi "    " that's just an extra hand , i don't need it while driving "    " extra hand !! are you an octopus or what " she said giggling , " hands on the wheel !! " she said with a loud tone firmly    " it's too lonely here hyun~ah , driving is so lonely " i whined seriously and she laughed holding my hand probably    i raised her hand to my lips and printed a kiss over the back of her hand , it took longer than usual as i used my bare lips to bite her skin teasing    " JUNG YONGHWA !!!! " she exclaimed angry , " drive safely "    " wae !! i never use my lips for driving !! " i said acting clueless and she chuckled    ~ we arrived our destination and got off the car ~    " now what ? " seohyun asked as she noticed my clueless glance across the place    it was some kind of abandoned park as no one stepped a foot beside us , no car passing by either , i took seohyun's hand " i'm not sure either "    we walked between the trees for a few steps , until we saw the ending of those trees minutes away distance , the dongsaens didn't prepare something scary right ! i got a little uneasy and wrapped an arm around seohyun as we took our catious steps on the muddy ground ..    when got there we found out it was just a basketball playground on a cliff that showed a breathtaking view of the ocean , the place was amazing ... but for a sunday friends outing not a congratulatory event ..    " congratulation !! " we got a shock as my dongsaengs came out of no where exclaiming and clapping and doing their show -that's it ?!! - i wondered unsatisfied     seohyun smiled excited but i glared at jungshin instead       " waaaah thank you " seohyun said smiling and clapping , she gave me an appreciation glance and i smiled at her briefly before i shift my glare at jungshin   " yaaah jungshin~ah , come here " i called for him as i locked his head under my arm    " what hyung ! " he said getting suffocated   i whispered to him " where's the wedding preparations you were spazzing earlier !! what did you need 3 hours for while you just had to drag us here totally unprepared  "    " eh !! you just said you wanted her happy , you didn't ask for any other specific thing !" jungshin said acting clueless teasing me    i tightened my arm over his neck threatening him " what kind of congratulation event is this !!! like where's the balloons , flowers .. anything would give us the impression that you thought about it for more than 2 minutes "    jungshin slid from my arm free and went to seohyun talking to her " so what do you think about the place ? "   " amazing !! " she replied excited    jonghyun sighed heavily directing his words to minhyuk " see !!? I told you , we should have passed by the flower shop at least "      minhyuk sighed too directing his words to me " hyung , you should have asked someone else other than jungshin if you wanted a romantic congratulatory eve... "    he was saying casually but i hurried to shut up his mouth with my hand , seohyun was at loss of whats happening    jungshin acted depressed " what's wrong with my preparations guys ! , i even bought he