He regrets being himself ,for being the one to tease and joke around with the other members ,but when he did it he did it to bring up the mood to try and be closer with the others that was his best way to be closer with other people ,but he didn't know that he was a burden when he was joking around until that day he sat in his room and started thinking of everyone's actions . It was 2 pm it was the day after their radio show ,they just finished eating lunch they didn't have any schedules so they just rest at their dorm . Chanyeol like always he was joking around with beakhyun and teasing other members . He was that friend that will do anything so he won't see you stressed or sad ,after an hour or two of laughing they just sat around doing whatever they want. Tao and sehun were playing  video games ,suho ,chen  and lay were in their rooms sleeping ,kyungsoo and kai were on the laptop watching videos ,baekhyun and xiumin were just watching TV ,while chanyeol was on his phone trying to keep up with the fans ,until he saw that one post and his face fell it said : you can't just insult our idol and say that you are joking #ExolWantChanyeolDie . he stares at the post and felt his eyes sting but he held it back and then searched the hashtag he saw that their's many people retweeted the hashtag he felt like he needed to cry , he went to the bathroom and cried and cried until their was no tears ,he didn't know what to do ,he felt like trash for insulting his friend with his joking . That day he went to bed early at 9 pm ,and everyone noticed that but ignored it they thought that he was just so tired because of the schedules ,the next day went by with chanyeol not talking nor smiling ,the other members ignored it they thought maybe it was a lot calmer like that it feels good to have a day without someone who talks and jokes a lot ,but they didn't know that their friend was dyeing inside ,chanyeol was thinking about everything he did about his friends reactions to his teasing and jokes he remembers kyungsoo always wishes for him to be quiet but he knows that all of the members wish that he will be quiet he didn't realize it before that he was hurting and annoying his friends with all the joking with his tries to lift their mood up or reveal some of their stress . The days go by and chanyeol is still in his state just blaming himself for hurting and annoying his friends he was sorry he regrets everything now ,he was always looking at the posts from people that want him to die ,to be honest he really wanted to die for being a burden without even knowing but couldn't bring himself to even think about it . After a week of the changing that happened to Chanyeol ,the members started to really worry about him , he doesn't eat like he used to ,he doesn't smile or joke or do anything with the members ,he is always staring into nothing or in his phone frowning at the screen ,and when they tried to ask about it he will say that he was stressed or he is just not in the mood, that day at night when it was time to sleep Chanyeol was the first one to go to sleep he put his earphones and buried himself in the duvets and cried because it was too much he can't take it anymore ,he wanted someone to hear him but he couldn't face anyone he was a disappointment for everyone specially himself , he didn't notice when someone enter the room ,it was kyungsoo wanted to sleep early too, he was surprised when hears someone crying ,he stares at the shaking figure in front of him , he was shocked that the one that brought laughs to them was crying without anyone knowing ,he always thought that chanyeol was the most happy person on earth that he didn't have any worries at all, so he walked to chanyeol's bed and tapped his shoulder the latter was really shocked because he didn't know that there was  someone else in the room he looked at chanyeol with red and puffy eyes from crying , kyungsoo was just really stunned by his friend so he just hugged him before the other could burry himself under his duvets again. "hey, what's wrong?" kyungsoo asked the latter didn't say a word but hugged him tighter and cried harder he needed it after all ,so kyungsoo didn't push it any further and just hugged his friend until he fell asleep from all the crying .                                 The next day they had a performance for just exo-k ,so they got into their van they were seated in the back seat was chanyeol ,kyungsoo and kai the front seat was beaekhyun, suho and sehun , kyungsoo was looking at chanyeol worriedly because he was pale and seemed really sick , and the fact that chanyeol doen't eat these days didn't help his worries , suho looked at them and when he saw  chanyeol's pale face he looked at kyungsoo as what is wrong with him ,but kyungsoo only lift his shoulders as I don't know ,when they arrived there chanyeol almost lost his balance when he was  going down from their van if it wasn't for kai who was in front of him and caught him, he looked at kai and said 'I'm sorry' in a small voice but kai just held his hand and looked at his face a look of worry in his eyes ,the posts flashed in chanyeol's head and couldn't take it he snatched his hand  and walked away from kai, kai was stunned by what happened he thought that he did something wrong but he pushed the matter for now and catch with the members ,they ended their schedules and went to the dorm they were died worry about chanyeol they couldn't believe that it was just stress they knew there was something  else they don't know. That night chanyeol went to his bedroom once they entered the dorm , the other members sat in the living room and stared at each other, baekhyun was the first one to break the silence "does anyone have an idea why he is like that?" he said it in a low and almost hurt tone,he was hurt because he is seeing his best friend like this and he couldn't do anything, there was more silence and kyungsoo was debating himself for saying that he saw chanyeol cr