‘This is pathetic,’ Luhan whispered to himself, looking at his reflection in the mirror.

His hair was completely how he did not want it to be, he had bags under his eyes due to fatigue and his shirt was still wet at the spot where he had accidentally dropped jelly from the donut he had been ravishing just few minutes ago. Why did he have to gobble up that donut anyway? Didn’t he have a full blown lunch just half an hour ago? He could have controlled his impulses after seeing a plate full of donuts and other delicious bakery. Even though he had washed that section of his shirt, it had that pink stain on it and it was wet.

Ugh, can anything go right today? He thought to himself, grumbling.

He had been preparing for this day for so long but everything was messed up. He covered his face with his hands, sighing and wondering what to do. Few months ago, he would have never thought that this day would be such a disaster…

Flashback, 9 months ago…

Luhan is a main stream singer now with 2 major albums, 3 mini albums and many movie and drama OST’s. He had been scouted successfully by an entertainment agency in the 2nd year of his studies at the Music Institute and since then, he had risen to fame rapidly. He had everything in his life… Fame, money and the best boyfriend in the world…

Oh Sehun was one of the most celebrated photographers of his generation. Quite young and his work was well known to people who admired art and were interested in collecting valuable creations. Those who weren’t into art still knew him as the hot and handsome photographer with a killing smile and body. But people did not know about his five year old relationship with the world famous singer, Luhan. People had seen both of them hanging out a multiple times and the media who had a compilation of all their pictures, had branded them sort of as best friends but no one knew the real story behind the two.

Luhan had opposed the idea of hiding his relation with Sehun from the world. He had promised himself he was not going to be ashamed of what he was. He had no reason to be when he was with someone as incredible as Sehun. Sehun was still the same person that Luhan had met 5 years ago. Even after building up his reputation, he liked to spoil, coddle and play pranks on Luhan. Luhan knew he wouldn’t have it any other way. His Sehunnie was too perfect in his eyes.

Nine months ago, Luhan was in China for his concert and Sehun had flown down to Taiwan where Luhan was currently staying in a hotel. They barely got any time to spend with each other because of their busy schedules. Sehun had a day before he had to fly down to South Africa for his next project and he decided to spend it with his boyfriend. They had somehow managed to get inside Luhan’s hotel room while still making out like wild animals. Luhan almost blew their cover in the process but he didn’t care. He was meeting his boyfriend after almost a month and had spent so many nights video chatting with him but missing his presence around him.

Luhan did not care if someone eavesdropped the yearns and moans coming from their room. He just wanted the time to stop, to hold onto Sehun for eternity and never let him leave again.

‘Sehun-ah, I missed you so much!’ Luhan whimpered, ripping Sehun’s shirt off to kiss his beautiful sweaty chest.

They made love for hours and hours but both of them did not feel satisfied. By the end of the night, Luhan was sore and Sehun’s felt raw. They had somehow managed to pack a week’s worth of in just one evening. They finally stopped when they were completely drained but could not stop kissing.

‘How do I even breathe without you?’ Sehun asked, painfully.

They cuddled and talked rest of the night. Luhan told Sehun about what his manager said to him about keeping their relation a secret.

‘I think we should hide it to preserve your image, Hannie,’ Sehun said, twirling Luhan’s hair between his fingers.

‘But…’

‘You have a massive fan following,’ Sehun said, now facing Luhan,’ if we go public with our relation, it’ll cost you many fans and may even create a social upheaval. I’m not sure how open minded people are about gay celebrities.’

‘There are so many gay celebrities,’ Luhan protested,’ and they have great careers!’

‘They do,’ Sehun said, smiling and caressing Luhan’s cheek,’ but you are still in the prime of your career. It wouldn’t hurt to hold off on the information for a little while longer.’

Luhan sighed and gave up. ‘What about your career?’ he asked, with concern.

‘No one cares about me,’ Sehun said, chuckling.

‘Yeah right,’ Luhan rolled his eyes,’ all the fan mail you get is a joke, right?’

‘Could be,’ Sehun said, grinning,’ maybe people are making fun of my work and send me encouraging letters so that I continue to make a fool of myself.’

‘You live in your own world of fantasies, Oh Sehun,’ Luhan said, giggling.

‘I don’t care as long as I have you in that fantasy with me,’ Sehun murmured, embracing Luhan,’ and ...’

Sehun had to depart the next morning and Luhan knew he would go to depression again once Sehun leaves. It always happened with him. Whenever Sehun left him for work or he left Sehun, he would lock himself up in a room and stare at Sehun’s pictures on his phone or laptop. He would read his old conversations with Sehun and blush and smile just by himself. Sehun had also lent him a shirt that smelled like him and Luhan would sleep clutching that shirt close to his heart. He knew he acted like a lovesick puppy (which was an understatement) but he couldn’t help it. He loved Sehun so deeply that he spent every a second of his life thinking about his boyfriend and wondering if he was doing fine without Luhan taking care of him.

Before Sehun left, he promised he would accompany Luhan to his trip to Los Angeles which was next month. Luhan had a major string of concerts coming up and two of them were scheduled at the great LA Forum. Sehun had some free time to spare and was excited to watch Luhan perform live on the stage. Sehun had been to innumerable concerts with Luhan to encourage him, despite his crazy agenda. He could not visit all of them but he tried to be there for Luhan whenever he could. Luhan’s confidence on stage always took him by surprise and filled him with a sense of pride. He always remembered Luhan in the phase when he was skeptical about following his musical aspirations and now he had come so far. He had taught and groomed himself really well. One of the best things about Luhan was that he was still so considerate and down-to-earth and hence, people thought of him as the one of all-inclusive role models.

After the concert in LA, Luhan sprinted towards backstage after saying goodbye to his fans and telling them to drive home safely.

‘How was it?’ Luhan asked Sehun, cheerfully.

Sehun simply hugged him, dearly. He tried to think of the right words but he knew words weren’t enough to express how rewarding it was to watch Luhan on stage. Stupid inadequate words that always felt so useless when it came to expressing his deep emotions. Thankfully, Luhan understood what Sehun deemed and hugged him back, lovingly.

Back in the hotel room, Sehun gathered Luhan in his arms and kissed him for a long time. It wasn’t a seducing kind of kiss, it was more like I-love-you-so-freaking-much-it-is-not-healthy kind of kiss. There was no tongue, no biting… Just soft simple caresses of Sehun’s lips against his…

‘Do you want to go to the beach tomorrow?’ Sehun whispered against Luhan’s lips.

‘What if people see us…?’

‘I will take care of it,’ Sehun smiled,’ don’t worry.’

Early morning next day, Sehun dragged Luhan out of the hotel. Still yawning, Luhan was giving Sehun directions to the closest beach.

‘Sehunnie!’ Luhan scolded,’ you missed that exit. We were supposed to take it.’

‘Calm down, sweetheart,’ Sehun said, grinning,’ I know I’m going the right way.’

Luhan looked suspiciously at Sehun and wondered what he was scheming at.

In about 15 minutes, Sehun parked the car at the LAX airport and dragged Luhan along with him.

‘Beach, huh?’ Luhan asked, grumpily. Sehun simply grinned back at him, mysteriously.

He had a private charter flight arranged for them so that Luhan could avoid any crazy fans he came across.

‘Where are we going?’ Luhan asked, confused.

‘A place with beaches,’ Sehun said, sniggering. Luhan rolled his eyes at Sehun’s kiddy behavior. He always got too excited about the surprises he had planned for Luhan. Nonetheless, Luhan loved the surprises because they always used to be beyond amazing.

In about 6 hours of time, they landed on a beautiful island with tropical greenery and beautiful sapphire blue beaches.

‘Hunnie-‘ Luhan’s voice was stuck in his throat.

‘Welcome to Hawaii!’ the pilot announced and Luhan screamed loudly with joy.

Sehun was laughing as Luhan hugged him almost suffocating him with excitement. As soon as they landed, they were welcomed with flower garlands, decorated straw hats and fruity drinks with tiny umbrellas by smiling women wearing grass skirts. The sun was lazily shining and there was a slight soft breeze that made the weather all the more appealing.

Sehun first brought Luhan to a traditional Tiki bar to hog on some quality seafood paired with refreshing cocktails. There was a guy singing melodious acoustic songs at the bar which Luhan enjoyed quite a lot. They visited the Pearl Harbor memorial next and a beautiful beach park as the evening started to set in. They rested on the soft sands of the Wakiki beach watching the orange and red sun setting by the horizon. The breeze had become a bit chilly by then and they huddled together to get as warm as possible.

Luhan smiled contentedly as he watched the beautiful sunset and remembered their first date. It was the first time Luhan had found himself getting attracted to Sehun. He wondered what would have happened if Sehun had not invited Luhan that day to go to the village fair with him. How different would his future be? Would he still be with Chang?

‘Hmm...,’ Luhan said, slowly.

‘What?’

‘I just remembered that bastard Chang for some reason,’ Luhan said, chuckling,’ haven’t thought about him in a long time.’

‘You think about him often?’ Sehun asked, his voice becoming angry.

Luhan simply giggled and said,’ I was wondering what would my life be like if Chang and I were still together?’