Jaebums pov

I want to keep him with me but...there's alot of challenges

And obstacles that we will have to face. Youngjae is already hurt

And I don't want to see him cry, his tears are too precious to 

Be wasted on trash like people.

I woke up extra early just to stare at the beauty next to me

His complexion was just unbelievable and his skin

Was super milky. His thighs were skinny and 

Soft and his eyelashes were long and dark.

I ran my finger across his jawline all the way up to

his silky hair. The beauty slept soundly even with my rough finger

Touching him, but I really wanted to just keep looking at him all

Day without ajy distractions and oh how I wanted to hold him

And kiss him for eternity,  but it was impossible, the world wasn't content

With our relationship. 

"Hyung you're awake, how did you get up so early?"

The beauty awoke with cat like eyes that glowed in

The sunlight. "Did my boyfriend sleep tight" I asked

"Oh, ya..so so, I had some scary dreams" 

"Nightmares,  why, what were they about" I asked with cconcern

"Nothing much, it's not important"

I left it as it is since youngjae said it was okay.

He got up and headed for the bathroom to wash up

His figure was amazing the way he yawned was just heavenly

Like a cat.

I prepared breakfast for the two of us for the first time in a while

It was hard to cook the eggs and make brew the coffee just right but

I felt I needed to make it since youngjae usually cooked

All three meals regularly. 

Youngjae changed and headed out from the bedroom

I was still in my pajamas and a undershirt. 

Youngjae approached me from the back and hugged me tightly

His arms were soft and skinny.

I stopped what I was doing and looked back,

"Take a seat, I'll bring it to you"

The younger didn't budge 

Instead he held on ecen tighter

I put my hands over his and removed them from my waist

Then I turned around and saw youngjae crying, I carried him and

Sat him down on the kitchen counter. 

I wiped his tears from his milky cheeks and held his face in place

"Why are you crying, I'm right here, is there something wrong" i asked

But got no reply

I raised his chin and pressed his lips against mine

His lips were soft and easy, I grabbed a hold of his upper lips

With mine and softly tasted them. Youngjae was particularly easy today

He gave in to my kisses and my actions with much ease.

I sat myself on the counter as well, bringing youngjae in between my legs

I put my arms around his tiny waist and my head on his neck cheek to cheek

I could feel his smile forming.

"You know I really really hate it when you cry"

"You know why... because i think that it's my fault and I want to

Punch , myself for being a horrible boyfriend."

"No, it's not your or my fault, it's the world"

"Why can't people accept our relationship,  why?"

I nuzzled my cheek against his soft ones

And then put my lips against them

I started to whisper into his cheeks and he giggled a little

I was never able to see him truly happy, and it was all because

Of me, because I was his boyfriend,  my connections were hurting him

But he was so beautiful thay I couldn't let go how could I?

He needed me and I had to make sure that no trash like people landed even

A finger on him, he was too much of an angel fo humans to touch him,

sometimes even I felt nervous when I held his hand or slept with him

He was always sparkling.

But it had come to a point where me staying by his side was hurting him rather

Than protecting him.

So I made a decision to leave,  because in order to protect him I had to leave

That was the deal, if I was no longer by his side than he would be happy

And safe.