Yuri's POV

"Hey Sica! Did you see all the fancams at Guangzhou? Your seobang did good right?"

"Hell yeah you did good! Especially when you let Tiff lean on your shoulder!"

"I only did that because she said she was tired, and then I asked her so she did. I was doing that one as a friend."

"Did you even think that maybe I don't know- that I would be jealous?"

"Sorry."

"You should've seen Taeyeon's face! She's like- 'Yuri I will strangle you when we get home just so you wait!' that type of face!"

"I know I am at fault."

"Well I'm glad you know! Did you also forget that I marked your shoulders? So that no one would lean on you from that moment?"

"No, I remember that day. Please don't be mad."

"I will not be mad anymore, unless you will grant my wish."

"What is it?"

"Let's escape again."

"Sica... Only if we could."

 

After the fanmeet, Jessica and I really missed each other that's why with the help of manager oppa and the members, I was able to leave the airport to go to Macau where I will meet Sica and we did escape. We spent our 2 days in Macau just in our hotel room. It was like a paradise... A paradise that had to be cut short because she and I had individual commitments.

 

"SEOBANG!"

"Huh?"

"I said- tell me your upcoming schedule!"

"Oh, we don't have but I'll have a radio show! I'll be DJ Yuri..." I said lowering my voice a little.

"DJ Seobang is good too."

"Yeah but I don't want my wifeu to be jealous you know? Kekeke~"

"Where are you?"

"I'm in our room Sica."

 

FLASHBACK

 

I got home from the airport and I was all alone at the dorm. Taeny had a dinner outside since they don't bond so much this time due to practices for the TTS. Sooyoung and Yoona went to eat out and Seohyun well she's preparing to take her masterals. Seriously I am the only one who's still taking my college course. While Hyo and Sunny went for a private party of a mutual friend.

I opened the main door and went to my room and I couldn't help but feel a little bit nostalgic. Funny how this room used to give me warmth, but now it's just the same other places I've been to... All because she's not here.

I layed down on my side of the bed and sighed. Sica's probably busy with her fashion line and I don't want to disturb her. So I grabbed one of her shirts, put it on her pillow and hugged it.

 

"Good night... Sica."

 

END OF FLASHBACK

 

"I'm really glad you did not remove your things babe."

"Well the company said to, but I didn't want to. I know you wouldn't like it either."

"You know me so well."

"You're my husband. Of course I know you." She said. "But, I know you're still sad."

"Yes. I am."

"Please don't be sad, I can't focus because here because my girlfriend is sad."

"I'm sorry, I- it just doesn't feel the same anymore."

"What is?"

"All of it." I said, with a hint of sadness in my voice. "The company, the group, the performing, the practice, the recording, even the stage feels different without you."

"I'm sorry I couldn't be there to freeze everything up."

"You don't freeze things, you give life to them. Just like what you did to my heart."

"Aweee, isn't my seobang the sweetest?" She paused. "But we promise to not talk about sad things."

"I'm sorry."

"This is not easy for me as well... I wanna be there for you, do you know that? Who's gonna hand you water when you're thirsty? Who will wipe your sweat when it smudges your make up? Massage your feet while we're having a 10-minute break? All of this is really hard for the both of us. But who said loving each other was easy right?"

"You're right."

"It's a long way to go, but as long as we remember our promise it'll be worth it."

"I know, I'm sorry for making you sad."

"I'm sorry too, I know I am making you sad as well."

"Miss Jessica Jung? It's time."

"I'll be out. Seo-"

"I love you, with all of me. I love you Jessica. Please don't ever forget that."

"How lucky am I to be loved by you Kwon Yuri?"

I smiled. "Very."

"I love you... 3 years?"

"3 years."

 

She hung up the call and I sighed to myself. You know how Hazel Grace and Augustus had their 'okay' as their 'always'? Well I decided to be cheesy and I decided to be the line '3 years' will be our own always. A promise not to be forgotten. 3 years would be our always.

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Eventually hours turned into days, to weeks and eventually to months. Many things happened, like me getting a break from then and now, Sunny's FM Date, Seohyun will be staring in the musical 'Gone With The Wind', Yoona will be filming in China, Sooyoung breaking boundaries in modeling, Tiffany and Taeyeon getting stronger and stronger as the days passed by, fanmeetings and now we are currently in our dorm in Japan, preparing for our Tokyo Dome concert.

And as the time passed by, the other learned on how to accpet that it was just the 8 of us now. All of them were starting to move forward in their own lives, and I feel that it's only me who's left behind and still believes in the power of OT9.  And when I say it's only me, it's only me. Because even the girl who made us believed in "OT9" slowly faded from our lives.

She's not present in group chats anymore, all those things she said- "A phone call, a text away" faded as well. She let the members down countless times, too many that 

I had to be the one to apologize and explain things to them. I tried my best to make them believe in OT9. But everytime I tell them to try and call her, it all went 

directly to voicemail.

Even my relationship with her has been affected. Those late night phone calls, turned into short hours. And now, I am only lucky if I get to talk to her for 10 

minutes. I know that she's busy, and so I try my very best not to rant or nag at her. Because I know she's doing this all alone, she hasn't got anyone. But that's hard 

to understand now especially when she's a little bit more sensitive and moody about things. She gets mad when I call her too much- scowls at me for being to immature 

and for pleading for attention. And when I forget to text her, she'll be mad at me.

 

 

Just like now.

 

 

"The hell Yuri! I was calling your phone 30 times! Haven't you noticed?!"

"I'm sorry we were busy at practice."

"Busy huh? You're too busy yet you still got the time to upload 2 videos on instagram, fooling around and learning Japanese. Wow..."

I sighed, since I don't want this fight to be big, I usually do the thing I do. "I'm sorry, I'll make it up to you I promise."

"You always promise!!! I will to do this, to do that yada yada yada! Bull!!! Am I not that important to you anymore!?"

"Of course you are!!! Are you doubting your value in my life?" I couldn't help but raise my voice as well.

"So now you're mad at me?" I hear her scoff from the other line. "You know why I called you huh? Because it's our 90th monthsary!"

"M-monthsary?"

"Yeah, 7 years and 6 months of being together. But too bad, I'm the only one who remembers it."

"Sica..."

"I understand- after all a designer's schedule isn't as hectic as a Girls' Generation singer right?"

"W-"

"Good luck on your practice. Bye."

 

 

She hung up on me again, like any other ending iun the phone we ever had- I didn't know how to react so I just ruffled my hair.

 

 

"Yah Black Pearl, what's wrong?"

"It's our monthsary today, she got mad 'cause I forgot it."

"Ahhh..."

"Don't be like that Hyo. C'mon help me!!! I need some advice, what should I do so that she won't be mad at me anymore?"

"You're stupid you know that?" What? I looked at her confused. "Here you are, worried as hell because she got mad 'cause you forgot your monthsary. But when she 

forgets your monthsary, it's alright and brush the thought off immediately."

"I was only avoiding fights."

"You can't avoid fights with Jessica Jung. It's always a fight when you're in a relationship with her."

"...."

"Tell me something honestly, are you not hurt?"

"Of this?"

"All of this. You waiting for her to reply to your messages, to wait even late nights because she promised that she would call you then doesn't get mad when she 

forgets important events in your relationship... Tell me."

"It hurts." I paused. "A lot actually... But I just keep it all inside. I keep telling to myself that- it's alright, she's busy achieving her dreams. You should be 

proud of her, and try to understand her. It's just-"

"3 years?" Hyoyeon said. "Does she even remember your promise? 'Cause I'm sorry but- I think everytime you try to remind her about the 3 years- she gets mad, scowls at 

you or hangs up the phone..."

"She's just busy. That's all."

"Please don't make a fool out of yourself. Yuri face the truth- she's already moved on."

"NO! She's not! Believe me it's not!!!" I said. "She cannot! Remember what she said?! It's OT-"

"Don't even go to that matter!! It's not in' OT9 anymore!!! WAKE UP YURI! THIS IS REALITY!!"

"BUT SHE LOVES ME! WE LOVE ONE ANOTHER! SHE CAN'T MOVE ON FROM ME! I know it!! She still loves me!!"

"If she does Yuri... Then why didn't she left Blanc and Eclare just to be with you?"

"...."

"There's a difference between somebody who wants you, and somebody who would do anything to keep you. Remember that."

I stopped my eyes from crying. "But... But she promised me. She promised me she would wait for me... Hyo, we got everything all planned out. She said- she said we 

wou--"

"Everyone promises until they found someone better." That line made me cry. 

"What am I going to do now Hyo? Is it really over? Where am I gonna go right now?" I sniffed. "I'd be so lost without her."

"You will not be lost. You're just in a road with no directions. But you'll find the place that you'll like, and you will stay there. You are not lost, you are on your 

way..." She said, wrapping an arm around me. "It's over Yuri... You can't keep watering a dead flower."

"...."

"I know, it's sad for me too. When you try to pick up a conversation with someone you really want to strat a conversation with- but you notice they don't put efforts 

in the conversations, and you feel like they are pushing you away, to the point that you'd realize that things have changed and it'd be better if you let them go. 

You'll realize that people come and go, sadly, even the ones we thought we never lose."

"Can... Can I ask for a sign then? If that doesn't happen before the New Year, then- then I'll let go."

"Up to you bud. It's your story after all." She tapped me before leaving me alone.

 

I put my hands together and asked for the sign.

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"Wow, who would've thought that we would be facing the New Year still working huh?"

"Don't worry Sunny Bunny. Atleast you would have lots of money to buy me food! HAHAHA!"

"Shut it shikshin or no more fish cakes for you!!!"

"Yaahhhh! Come back here!"

"Will those two ever change?"

"Oh, don't mind them Tae. They're just in love."

"Are you telling we are not in love with each other Ppani!?"

"No no no! Not like that! But! Ughh... We learned to control these emotions. Look at SooSun, they just got together. Let them be, as if we weren't like that you know." 

Tiffany winked at Taeyeon who just blushed. "Hey Yuri, why are you looking at your phone?" 

"N-nothing." I said. 

"Girls, get ready. You're about to perform."

"GIRLS!!! COME HERE!" Taeyeon shouted like an umma. "Alright hands in! Jigumeun-"

"So Nyuh Shi Dae!!"

 

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After our performance, we said our greetings, and we all took photos that's to be uploaded on instagram. We all uploaded it on the way home. And when we got there, we waited for the final countdown. And I was holding onto my phone, waiting to call that person who's on the other side of the world 'cause she's in New York now. We all stood up and went to the balcony.

 

"10!"

"9!"

"8!"

"7!"

"6!"

"5!"

"4!"

"3!"

"2!"

"1!"

 

 

 

 

 

"HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!"

 

 

Fireworks erupted and it brought light to the dark sky where there were no stars. We clinged our champagne glasses together and greeted Happy New Year to all of our friends and family. While they were busy- I went inside my room and called Sica.

 

"Hello?"

"Hey, it's me." I started. 

"Oh."

"Well, I just wanna say- Happy New Year!" I said with much energy. "I know I may be disturbing you. But, that's all I just wish you a Happy New Year and I just wanna tell you I love you." Here it goes... Brace yourself Yuri. Whatever her answer maybe- will be the fate of your relationship with her.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Happy New Year Yuri."

 

It all makes sense to me now Hyoyeon...

 

 

FLASHBACK

 

"What sign did you ask for?"

"I asked that if she'll greet with me with a Happy New Year Seobang- she still feels the same. And if not-"

"And if not, you will learn that boys do cry, cigarettes do kill, parents lie, flowers die and life goes on... With or without Jessica Jung."

"I... I will." I said. "I will learn to accept the fact that I cannot always be happy. I will learn to accept reality."

"Then good. And I hope, whatever her reply may be- please be strong."

"I will."

 

END OF FLASHBACK

 

"Yuri? Yuri are you still there?"

Tears started to flow down from my eyes. "Y-yeah. I am still here."

"Are you crying? Why?"

"N-nothing. I'm just sleepy. Just got back from performance."

"I heard. Please take care of yourself, I will hang up now so you could rest. I'll see you when I get back."

"I love you."

 

TOOT TOOOT TOOOT TOOT

 

Hearing the end tone made her cry her heart out... Who would've thought that she would welcome the New Year with a broken heart? She expected a result like that to happen. But never in her life she thought that it would hurt this much. She cried, and shouted the girl's name again and again that the other members went inside rushing to the girls who's crying her heart out. Some of them comforted her, some cried with her. For nothing feels worse than losing the one you love over a phone call.

While she was crying, she came to realize a thought. It doesn't make sense when you would let go of someone you have wanted for so long. But it's more nonsense to hold onto something when there's nothing left anymore.

So she promised to herself. Someday she would understand that even though they breathe the same air, they don't breathe the same 3 words anymore. That someday, she would really have come to a decision on losing the girl she loves or losing herself because of loving her.

So in the morning, when the sun rises, she promised to herself. One day, she would wake up and she would understand why she needed to go through all of this.

 

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Jessica's POV

 

Ever since New Year, I haven't heard from Yuri. Although I would text her from time to time, to update her with my schedule but she wouldn't reply. I went to ask Krystal to ask Yuri but she said she never met Yuri in the company since the latter was so busy with her schedule. I wanted to ask the girls, but no. Tyler said that if I wanted to move on from being a GG member, I should cut my connection to them and focus on my career now. As a CEO. But honestly, my heart breaks a little when I get a call from them. I wanna answer it, but in order for me to focus on my life now- I need to stop.

Now, I am in Hong Kong to attend a YSL event and after this I would fly back to Korea again. Maybe I should meet with Yuri. I missed her presence so much. I can't wait to hug that kkab!

When I got outside of the car, the Chinese media immediately followed me and asked me billions of questions. Argh these medias really. I answered their questions politely, but one question got me stunned.

 

"Jessica, did you know that Yuri is in Hong Kong today?"

I paused for a while, but in order for them not to be suspicious, I decided to act cool. "Oh no I didn't know that. But she's in Hong Kong? Ah, I see."

"Will you be seeing Yuri after the both of you finish your individual activities?"

Oh trust me, we will. "Uh, I don't think so. I don- yeah."

 

The rest of the event was all blur to me. I tried to act all friendly and polite since these are the media and the market that I want to please in order for my line to be establish here. But deep inside I was mad. How could Yuri not tell me that she was in the same place as me? And during the break I googled our distance. And it's freakin' 12 minutes only! Yuri!!! You owe me some explanation!!!

After the event, I immediately called her and she hung up on me!!! How could she! I tried calling several times and finally! She accepted the call.

 

"Well it's about time you accept my call!" I said. "How could you not tell me that you were in Hong Kong which where I happen to be. And our distance is 12 minutes only!"

"Is it really 12 minutes? Does it really take 12 minutes for us to meet and be together again?"

"What are you talking about? Are you drunk again? Ughh... You're having a headache. Please tell me you have your pills."

"I am neither. I'm perfectly fine."

"If you are then you should've told me so that I could cancel all my meetings today just to meet you privately!"

"Will you? Will you really do those for me?"

"Yuri you're weird okay? Where are you I am coming to meet you."

"Could we meet by your hotel? Mine has a lot of Chinese media. And I have to be back at Korea today as well."

"Fine. Let's meet at my hotel."

 

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KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK

 

I ran towards my door and looked outside to see if Yuri was out there. And indeed she was. So I opened the door and we looked into each others' eyes. How long have I not looked into her eyes? It's been months, yet she still has this effect to me. I couldn't help it but to hug her. She seemed quite shock but I don't care. I settled my nose to her neck, to inhale her kiwi scent that I miss the most. Finally, it feels like I've been alive.

 

"What are those?"

"My apology dinner." She said as she raised 2 plastic bags. "I don't have the time to cook dinner."

"It's alright- I- I've prepared something as well."

 

I let her inside to see the candlelight dinner I've prepared for the both of us. She smiled at me and sat at the table while I prepared our food. We ate together in silence. It's awkward because we never ate in silence. Everytime we would look at each other, we would share a small smile. After eating dinner, I was washing the dishes while I told her to wait at the couch by the living room. I checked myself out in the mirror before going back to the room where she was there already standing.

 

"You know, I'm suppose to be mad at you." I said. "You're so busy, you didn't even contacted me ever since New Year... Have you been so busy that you forgot that you have a girlfriend?"

"...."

"But it's alright now. I already forgive you." I smiled. But still there was no reaction from her. "Is there something wrong?"

"I wanna say I'm sorry, because I haven't been talking to you for the past few weeks. It was because I've been preparing for this event."

"What event?" I said curiously.

"This." She goes down on her knee and reveals a red box.

"Yuri this is-"

"Remember? You made me promise to return this to you not as a promise ring but as an engagement ring?" She looked at me. "You remember right?" I nodded. "Well then Jessica Jung. Will you..."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Will you let me go?"

"What?"

"Will you?"

"I don't get it."

"I can't do this anymore Sica. We need to stop this."

"Stop this? Stop what? This relationship?! NO!"

"Please..."

"But why?! Where did I go wrong?! Tell me!" I don't undestnad what's happening. This isn't what I planned!

 
"We're just different people now. Too different to be still together."

"How are we different?!"

"It's because you changed!" She stood up.

"I changed!? You changed! You were the one who didn't update me! If it wasn't for that reporter I met earlier- I never would've guess that you'd be here!" I said. 

"Me? It's me who changed? It's you!" She pointed a finger at me. "You said you were gonna be a phone call away or a text away. You said you will always be there with us as long as we leave a space for you. You said you will always be in our hearts! But let me ask you! Are we still in your heart? AM I STILL IN YOUR HEART!?"

"Of course you are!!! It's just that I have to change my priorities, you're my family you should understand and support me!"

"That's what I did..." She said. "I understand you scolding at me for being to clingy... For disturbing you during your events or meetings. I understand you, forgetting monthsaries and special occassions like my birthday. I understand you, for not being able to call late at night-because you were all up working. I supported you, that's why I explained to the girls why you couldn't answer them. I supported you, that's why all of my gifts to my friends and family the past Christmas are all your brand... I supported and understood you... It's all because I love you. So much..." Tears fall down from her eyes. "But something happened... Something unexpected happened."

"Please tell me what happened." I said. Oh God, please don't... Don't let her say to me that she has fallen out of love for me, nor she loves someone else. Please...

"On New Year's Eve... I greeted you a Happy New Year and I said I love you. But what did you reply?" She looked me in the eye. "You called me Yuri... And you didn't say I love you to me... You never called me Yuri. You call me-"

"Seobang." I said, barely a whisper. Tears start to form in my eyes as well. "I'm sorry... Forgive me.. It's just that I was busy and I did all those things in New York, I need to learn fashion and-"

"That's why I am letting you go... So that you won't have to worry about me anymore. So that I won't hold you back anymore."

"No please no... Please don't let me go..." I begged with tears in my face. "I don't want you to let me go... You're not holding me back... I promise. Just please, please..." I shake my head. "Don't."

"We need to let go Jess."

"STOP! DON'T CALL ME THAT! CALL ME SICA! I AM YOUR SICA BABY!!! CALL ME THAT! PLEASE!"

"Jess-"

"Seobang... Seobang please don't do this." I held her hands. "What happened to our plans?! We still need to prove to Young Min that he's wrong right? We need to prove to him that we're better than this. That we're stronger than this!!! It's just a little setback to our relationship. We promised!" I said shaking her. "We promised seobang! 3 years!!!"

"Whatever happens- I still believe you were the greatest thing that has ever happened to me."

"No please..." I kissed her hands. "I can't... Without you."

"You were my happy ever after Jess... But now, you're just my once upon a time..." She opened my palm and put the ring onto my hand. "It's time to turn the page."

 

She leaned in and kissed my forhead. Tears from her eyes went down to my face. It hurts so much that I couldn't move... How can I possibly feel this way?

 

"Can't we stay together seobang? Give me another chance... I promise I won't mess up... Please?"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"I don't think so..."

 

 

Our hand were still intertwined with one another and as she turn my back on me, the grasp of our fingers were slowly loosening as she walk slowly away from me. She was at the door and I could tell that she was tempted to look back. And then a hit of flashback went through me.

 

Months ago, this same scenario happened. We were holding our hands and she was slowly walking away from me. And with every step she take, I kept on mumbling the words 'Please don't turn your head back.' 'Don't turn..' I kept chanting those words because I knew that moment that if she did- I would never let her go...

Now at the same moment, but I chanted a different one.

 

"Please turn back... Please please please look back at me. Please seobang.." I said with hopeful eyes. "Please look back at your Sica baby..." And I thought she would...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

But she didn't.

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YOOSSSHHHH! And that's it everybody! The end!  I am so sorry to bring you to a sad ending. And please do tell me, do I do one shots well? Kekekeke~ Another question...

 

 

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