"Jaehwan-ah, are you really okay ? I am so worried about you.You cant force yourself,if you cant do it just stop working as an idol.I am begging you.Let me just look after you." 

"Omma,your cute son is a strong boy you know? Dont worry omma what I need to do is just positive.I need to be happy and that will be enough.Everything can be cured,omma." 

Argh this possibly the hundredth time she told me.

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My mum called me before Music bank start.She congratulated us too for being the first place nominee.

Why doesnt she put her trust in me?Life must be go on,right?

Oh yes I am the cutie main vocal Ken now.It had been two years we debuted as Vixx.Superhero,Rock your  body,On and On and Voodoo Doll are totally awesome.I am so proud of myself because I am able to endure all those painful things yeah you know we trained hard to debut and practice singing and dancing and so on.

We even received our first win just now ! 

YESSS! 

And we are going back to our dorm right now.Taekwoon hyung,N hyung and Ravi are still crying while Hongbin and Hyuk are busy replying congratulary texts from their families.What about me? Haha yes I am talking with my mind . Sometimes I pat Taekwoon hyung's back.

"Guys I am so happy .. today.. finally we did .. it right ? N hyung talked in tears.

All of us nod,agree with our leader.Yes,as Taekwoon hyung said , this is just the beginning.

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Argh my head ! I suddenly feel so dizzy . It is so hurt that I cant even open my eyes.It is like there is someone grabbing my head tightly and I feel like being slapped too. Arghhh ! I cant hold it anymore. 

I am pretty sure that Hakyeon hyung knows what is going on.I realise that he is massaging my head slowly . "Jaehwan-ah take an enough rest okay?We will be arriving in ten minutes," he whispered.  I slightly shake my head and turn off my eyes. This is it . The thing that my mum worried about.

As soon as we arrived,I quickly head to the bedroom.Without changing,without removing my makeup yes I have no strength right now.I havent feel this pain since five months ago.When I have a headache,it is just nothing for me but .. this .. is worse.

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