Disclaimer: So I realize the song was written when DBSK was still together. And I realize it's written in Japanese. I'm going off the translated lyrics. Hopefully no one gets confused. Anyways, enjoy!

 

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Jaejoong stared at the blank piece of paper willing himself to write a new song. There was a pile of crumpled paper to his right. He had already penned a few lines down but they didn’t feel right. Frustrated, he swept his hand through his hair and laid his head on the table. In the corner of his eyes, he saw the frame he had placed there years ago. It was a picture of Eunhee, her band members, and s. He turned his head towards the picture and stared, letting the memories wash over him.

 

How many times has this happened today? His mind was constantly overwhelmed with memories of her. Not a single day goes by without him thinking about her.

 

He closed his eyes and thought of her. He could see her in front of him. Her face. Her eyes. Her smile. Her laughter. Her tears. His inspiration.

 

 

[Flashback]

 

“Oppa!” Eunhee greeted Jaejoong as he came into the studio. She was in the middle of recording for the group’s album. “What are you doing here?”

 

“I was off today,” Jaejoong put his stuff down on the couch. He sat down next to one of the producers. The producers smiled and greeted him. Getting up, they mentioned they would take a quick break and walked out of the room to grab snacks. “I thought I’d come help you girls with recording. Seems like you’re the only one left.”

 

“Really? Oppa you’re the best!” Jaejoong could see stars in her eyes as she looked at him. He laughed and patted her head.

 

“Show me what you have so far.” Putting earphones on, he listened carefully to the music as he followed along the music sheets.

 

“What do you think?” Eunhee had been watching him intently wanting to know what he thought.

 

“Not bad,” Jaejoong said as he took off his earphones. “But I think you should re-record this part. It’s a little rushed. We can tighten it up and make it flow better. You want to go back in and I’ll help you record? And then we can see what other things you need to record.”

 

“Okay. Thanks oppa!” Eunhee ran into the booth and got ready. “What section do you want me to start?”

 

The producers had come back in with some snacks and saw that they were already recording. Sitting back down, they shot a look of appreciation towards Jaejoong. He and the other two members were so good at helping out whenever they were free. They would often come in on their days off to help the girls get ready for debut. They definitely appreciated all the help they were getting from the boys.

 

After two hours of recording, everyone was satisfied with what they had recorded. Jaejoong watched as she put things away properly. As she came out, she ran and hugged Jaejoong.

 

“Thanks oppa!” Eunhee looked up and smiled so sweetly at him it took his breath away.

The memories of you remain, they’re so strong
I read a short message from you and it makes my chest tighten painfully
But I want to keep protecting your eternal happiness

I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you
Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it
Even though I want to see you so much, I miss you so much
I’m waiting for you, don’t forget me
 

Heartbreak. Why did it hurt so much? Jaejoong felt his heart shatter when he checked his texts.

 

[Hyung, we’re getting married!] Attached were a picture of the happy couple and a picture of the ring.

 

She was getting married. He lost her and there was no way they could go back to the way they were before.

 

[Flashback]

 

Holding two drinks in his hand, Jaejoong was on his way back to the studio. He was in the middle of writing songs when Eunhee decided to join him. They had been talking and sharing ideas for an hour. Feeling thirsty, he offered to get them drinks. As he approached the studio, he could hear Eunhee talking with someone. He smiled hearing Yoochun’s deep laughter coming from within the room. Yoochun must have come to check on him like before.

 

“Eunhee,” Yoochun’s voice had suddenly become so serious that even Jaejoong stopped in the middle of his tracks. He was curious what was going on.

 

“Hm, oppa?” even Eunhee was surprised at how serious Yoochun had suddenly become.

 

“Do you want to go out on a date with me?” Jaejoong’s heart dropped. Since when did Yoochun have feelings for Eunhee? Please say no. Please say no.

 

“Eh?” Eunhee was shocked. “But I thought you liked unnie.”

 

“Oh. Don’t tell me you believe those rumors,” Yoochun laughed it off. “We’re just good friends. Besides, they say that about every single female lead I’m cast with.”

 

“But you have really good chemistry with her and you guys are so cute together! I watched your drama together. You can’t fake that kind of chemistry.”

 

“Haha. You watched it?” Jaejoong could tell Yoochun was amused. “You’re an actress as well. You know how it is. Sometimes, we get those feelings after being in character for three months. And when it ends, it leaves you feeling empty. But those feelings aren’t real. Besides, would I be asking you out if I liked someone else?”

 

It had gotten so silent in the room and Jaejoong could feel the tension in the room from outside.

 

“I know it’s sudden but what do you say? Just a friendly date. If it doesn’t work out, we stay friends and I promise I won’t make it awkward for us.”

 

“Uhm,” Jaejoong could hear Eunhee’s hesitation.

 

“No pressure. If you don’t want to, you can say no and we’ll just pretend nothing happened.” Jaejoong could tell Eunhee was thinking about it. Not able to stand it any longer, Jaejoong walked away before she responded.

 

Why did he choose to walk away then? Would things be different if he didn’t walk away? Would she still be his now if he had chosen to walk in?

 

On the path we’d always walk, I felt your presence
Silently, I close my eyes and pray that it’ll never disappear
 

Jaejoong decided to go for a walk. Thankful that it was cold out, he layered up and covered up with a beanie and thick scarf. Throwing a mask on, he checked to see if he could be easily recognized. Grabbing his cell phone and his keys, he walked out of his apartment and started wandering around.

 

Unknowningly, he had walked to the park next to work. The park where he would accompany her in the past. Walking along the trail, he could almost hear her voice next to him.

 

“Oppa, let’s get some ice cream. Hurry!”

 

He remembered her tugging at his shirt to get him to hurry.

 

“Oppa, do you think we’ll do well tomorrow?”

 

When was the last time he had to comfort and encourage her? By now, she was able to stand on her own on different shows with or without her members.

 

“Oppa, do you think I should take this role?”

 

Slowly but surely, she had stopped coming to him for these kind of things. She had Yoochun to help her now.

 

“Oppa look! It’s so beautiful”

 

How many times did he stand there and stare at her watching the sunset?           

 

Sighing, he sat at their place and watched as the sun set. When was the last time they had sat there and watched the sun set? How he wished they could go back to that time.

You just kept on laughing and smiling
I’ll always remember and cherish that
And I’ll keep yelling out to the world, even if the words I use are but ordinary

I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you
Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it
Even though I want to see you so much, I miss you so much
I’m waiting for you, don’t forget me
 

He was on the rooftop of the company building. From here he could see the night sky line. He remembered Eunhee bringing him here once to let off some steam. He looked at the picture text that Yoochun had sent him. They looked happy. She looked happy. Unable to hold it in anymore, he let out a scream. Letting it all out, he just kept shouting until he was drained.

 

[Flashback]

 

“Oppa, what’s wrong?” Eunhee tapped his shoulder. She had come to visit him and noticed he was hutched over the table frustrated. He was so tired. With the drama and planning for the concert, he was stressed to the max.

 

“Eunhee-ah, you came. What are you doing at the company so late?” Jaejoong tried stretching his overworked muscles.

 

“I just got back from our last activity for the day,” Eunhee rubbed his shoulders and he melted under her touch. “Oppa, come with me.”

 

He let her pull him towards the staircase. Walking a few flights up, he found himself on the rooftop with Eunhee.

 

“What are we doing here?” Jaejoong was confused.

 

“I come here whenever I feel stressed,” Jaejoong still wasn’t following. Eunhee laughed and pulled him to where she was standing. “I come here and just scream. Let off some steam. Try it oppa.”

 

“But …” Jaejoong looked around. It was quite loud on the rooftop. He could hear the bustle of the street and cars honking from the ground.

 

“Don’t worry. It’s so loud and they can’t hear you down there. Trust me. I tried getting Unnie’s attention once. It didn’t work. See.”

 

Jaejoong watched her incredulously as she let out a loud yell.

 

“Your turn oppa,” Eunhee tugged at his hand, trying to get him to do the same. Jaejoong let out a small yelp hesitantly. “Yah, are you the great Jaejoong of JYJ? You can do better than that.”

 

Jaejoong laughed at her antics and gave out a loud shout. She was beaming and decided to have a shouting match with him. Soon enough, they fell to the floor laughing at how ridiculous they looked.

 

“I’m so glad no one can see us,” Jaejoong laughed as he laid on the cement floor staring into the sky. He could feel her sit up. She was watching him, trying to see if he felt better. “Thanks Eunhee. I feel better now.”

 

Your fragrance hanging in the air and these feelings that build up, baby
So that this’ll never end, I’ll hold your hand even tighter
So that we’ll never be separated

I’ll become the wind and wrap gently around you
Right now, I want to fly to a world with you in it
Even though I want to see you so much, I miss you so much
I’m waiting for you… I’m waiting for you
 

Jaejoong woke up groggily. He was here late last night writing songs when he fell asleep. How he wished he stayed asleep for just awhile longer. Where he could dream of a world where he and Eunhee were together.

 

He could still smell her perfume and feel her touch his face tenderly.

 

“Oppa,” she shook him gently and he could feel his heart burst with love for her. Was this a dream? If he was dreaming, he’d rather sleep than wake up.

 

“Hyung,” Jaejoong felt a sturdy hand shake him. “Wake up. You fell asleep again.”

 

“Chunnie?” Jaejoong turned around and saw a concerned Yoochun standing behind him. “What are you doing here?”

 

“We came to check on you,” Eunhee replied and helped Jaejoong clean up the table. “Were you writing songs again? Oppa, you should have gone home if you were tired.”

 

Everyone in the company knew of Jaejoong’s bad habit when it came to song writing. Jaejoong shrugged not wanting to let them know why he was here so late.

 

“By the way, hyung, did you get my text?” Yoochun was grinning from ear to ear. Immediately, Jaejoong was brought back to reality. Eunhee wasn’t his. Crestfallen, he tried to hide his sadness.

 

“Congratulations!” Jaejoong forced a smile hoping they wouldn’t see through it.

 

“Thanks hyung, we’re not going to get married anytime soon though. We thought we should wait a little before we tie the knot. You know, with our busy schedule and stuff. But we wanted to have a small private party for now.”

 

“Oppa, will you come?” Eunhee asked with Yoochun by her side. She looked so happy next to him. He always did take good care of her. Perhaps Yoochun was better for her.

 

“Of course,” Jaejoong replied. He was willing to do anything for her. Even if it meant standing on the sidelines. Even if it meant his heart would break again and again. It was all worth it. At least, he would still be able to stay by her side. Even for just one moment. Even if it was only as a friend. Even if her heart belonged to someone else. He’ll stay by her side and protect her and that smile of hers. As long as she was happy.

 

 

 

“Hyung, did you finish this song already?” Yoochun was peeking at the top page. It was his newly written song. The song he had written while thinking about her. Jaejoong nodded and waited as Yoochun looked over everything. “Wow … hyung. I think this is one of your best ones so far. Did you think of a title yet?”

 

Jaejoong shook his head. “I was still thinking of it when I feel asleep.”

 

Yoochun nodded and passed it over to Eunhee to look at. “What do you think? Doesn’t it look like it’ll be a hit?”

 

Eunhee looked at it. Jaejoong could hear her humming the melody as she read the music sheet.

 

“I love it. I can’t wait til you guys record it. Can I come watch you guys if I have time?” Eunhee passed the music back to Jaejoong.

 

“Of course,” Yoochun replied hugging his fiancée from behind. “Hyung, what do you think of ‘Wasurenaide’ as a title?”

 

Jaejoong thought about it for a few minutes and nodded. “Sounds good. Thanks Chunnie.”

 

With a heavy heart, he watched the couple interact in front of him. Picking up the music sheet, he wrote the title down. Wasurenaide. Don’t forget me.

 

 

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