“Welcome to our home, Hyung!”

“Welcome to our home, Oppa!”

Junho was surprised to see the greetings from the kids in the orphanage. They all looked happy to see him coming. He never expected to have this kind of greetings. They all waited for him in front of the orphanage’s gate. All the kids hugged Junho, it made him felt so loved. He was deeply touched.

“Finally you come, hyung. We had been waiting for you.” A little boy cutely said.

A little girl with long hair also nodded. “I’m happy you come, oppa.”

Junho smiled at them. “Why are you waiting for me?”

“Because you’re the one who saved our noona’s life.” Another little boy said. The girl who was standing behind him just smiled shyly.

“Yeah, noona had told us how hyung stood in front of noona and tried to fight with that bad ahjussi.”

“Hyung is so cool, really!”

“And oppa is so handsome, what eonni had said is true.”

The girl widened her eyes in shock. “Yah, I never said that!” the girl protested.

The little girl said again innocently. “Eonni really said so, eonni always talked about it every day since the day eonni met oppa. Eonni said oppa is eonni’s type.”

“NOOOO! I never said that!” the girl’s cheeks redden. The kids laughed at her happily.

 Junho glanced at her and laughed. She looked really cute when she was embarrassed. So, she had said I’m handsome and I’m her type? Junho couldn’t help but giggle. Seemed like he got a chance to know her true feelings for him.

She cleared . She stared at Junho. “Let’s walk around. You should see everything in this place.”

Junho, with her and the kids, walked around the orphanage. The orphanage was not that big. There was only one building that looked like an old school and a small park that had some rides. The kids’ rooms were in two floors, the 3^rd floor for the girls and the 4^th floor for the boys. The hall was in the 2^nd floor and some rooms which one of them was a music room, with a big piano. The 1^st floor was for offices of the owner and staff of this orphanage.

The girl told him that all the kids in this orphanage could go to school because of the fund they got from some people who donated their money for the orphanage. The owner of this orphanage was always active in doing charity events for the kids. The owner wasn’t rich, but he always gave the best for the kids first than himself. She really respected the owner. He somehow had become her role model.

“Why do you work here?” Junho asked when they were playing swings in the park. The kids were playing with other rides. Some of them were riding their bicycle.

She smiled slightly. “Why do you want to know?”

“I just want to know.” He replied. “It’s the first time for me to have friend working in an orphanage.”

“It must be a new experience for you, I guess?” she chuckled.

“You can say that.” He said, smiling.

She let out a deep breath. “I just think I should help and accompany these kids.” She said after some seconds silence. She stared at the kids who were busy playing with their friends. The girl then turned around and smiled at him. “I realized there are some kids who had lost their family and no one wanted to take care of them.” She said. “I thought that I’m lucky enough to have my parents with me, who take care of me all the time, since I was baby until now. I’m really grateful. But then, I thought about the kids who had no parents and family, where would they go, what will they do for living? They’re only kids, they don’t know how to take care of many things. They barely can protect themselves. It’s so heartbreaking how they’re alone in this world.

“It’s so nice, right, helping other people? I’m so happy that I can help these kids, accompany them to face their bright future. We the staff have promised ourselves that these kids would be successful people in the future. And we try with our best to make them having best education. We will give everything they can’t get from their parents and family, until they’re old enough to leave this orphanage or until there is family that wants to take them.” She giggled when she saw Junho just gaped at her. “I talk too much, don’t I?”

Junho smiled slightly. “No, that’s okay. I really want to hear your reason anyways.” He couldn’t stop staring at her. “Your point, it’s interesting. You really like to help people.” He was still amazed by her. She just gave him a smile.

“You like to help people, too, don’t you? Like you had helped me on the train.” She reminded him and chuckled.

He smiled widely at her. “You always remember it, huh?” he .

“Of course. That’s the most frightening thing I ever experienced in my life.” She blurted out. “I always think like this, if you didn’t help me, what would happen to me?” she grinned. “I was so grateful that I could meet you. And I’m so grateful we can be friends like this.” She said sweetly.

How do I stop myself not to fall for you?

“Well, I’m grateful, too.” He commented at last.

“For what?”

Because I’ve found the girl I saw in my dream.

“I’m grateful to have a friend like you.” Junho smiled at her. She giggled like a little girl and it was so lovely in his eyes. He then remembered what the kids told him earlier. “Hey, I’m a bit curious about this.” He started to talk. “Did you really say I’m handsome and I’m your type to the kids?” he gazed at her intently.

“W-what?” Her cheeks got redden. “Why are you talking about this?”

She is sure so cute when she’s embarrassed like this. Junho couldn’t help but giggle. “I’m just curious, that’s why.” He replied simply.

She cleared . “N-no. I didn’t say such things like that.”

He nudged her. “Don’t lie to me. I know you’re lying.” He saw her face redden even more. It’s so funny. He chuckled.

“W-what i-if it’s t-true?” she said of out the blue, stuttering.

“Do you ever think of me not only as your friend?” he asked.

She got frozen. “U-uh, that...”

He smiled to himself. She had thought about it. Definitely. Does it mean she has feelings for me? “What if we have that kind of relationship?” he said suddenly.

She widened her eyes. “W-what?”

She didn’t expect this thing, right? Junho smiled. It was too early if he confessed to her right now. He was really sure about his own feelings. He never felt so happy like this when he was with her.

He just needed the perfect time to tell her everything.

“I’m joking, I’m joking!” Junho laughed. And that time, she didn’t look that shocked anymore. That was a relief.

“Yah Lee Junho! Don’t joke around!” she hit his arm many times.

“Aww, that hurts!” He pretended to be hurt. She stared at him and then laughed.

Junho always came to the orphanage once a week to teach the kids about playing guitar. He got close to the kids, to the staffs, to the owner, even to her. He was like had found a world he didn’t even know before. The kids’ world, it was surely different than his, but he somehow could feel how hard everything they had been through. It was so wonderful to be part of them. Junho felt so happy. He was extremely happy because he could see her often. It was hard not to fall for her. She was so sweet and caring. And the important thing was she was the girl in his dream. He always thought God somehow let him to meet her. They were destined to meet, that was why he saw her in his dream.

“We will have a visit to an orphanage in Busan next week. You will go with us, right?” that was what she asked him on the phone. He just smiled widely, even though she didn’t see it.

“Should I come?” he playfully asked.

“Of course you should come with us! It’ll be very fun!” she giggled. “The kids will be so happy.”

“Okay, I’m in.” He replied. She sounded so excited on the other line. “Anyway, has the owner told you about the charity concert in the orphanage that will be held this weekend by me and my friends?” he talked about another topic.

“He had told me. That’s a good idea.” She replied. “What songs you guys will sing?”

She still didn’t know about his band yet, and he didn’t know why he tried to hide everything to her.

“W-we’ve composed our own songs.” He laughed awkwardly.

“Oh, really? That must be very cool!” she really had no idea. “Many people will come, right?”

He laughed even weirder. “Of course. I’ve told all my friends to come.”

Actually it’s not friends, but fans.

“Aigoo, it’ll be very exciting if many people come!” she exclaimed.

Every time he heard her excitement, he always thought he should tell her everything soon, he should tell her about his true identity, that he wasn’t a guitar teacher, but he was a guitarist of a famous rock band.

But, how could he explain it? He didn’t know, really.

Junho was practicing with his band mates the songs they would sing in the event. They even practiced some new songs. But, it seemed like there was only one new song that would be performed at the event.

“You know, Junho, you had composed a great song.” Chansung commented when they finished practicing. Junho just grinned at his friend.

Wooyoung took the musical score and laughed. “Love is Lovely.” He read the title of the song. “It’s surely composed by someone who is in love.” They laughed together.

“Yeah, the lyric is also written by the same person.” Taekyeon added.

“Shut up, guys.” Junho hissed. “You guys agreed to perform this song. It’s not a problem, right?”

Wooyoung laughed. “It’s really a good song, dude. But, I think I know your ulterior motive.” He added mysteriously.

Junho blinked. “What do you mean?”

Chansung nudged Junho. “You want to confess to that girl, right?”

Junho’s eyes widened in surprise and then he shook his head. “No, not yet. I just want her listen to our song.”

“Awww, really?” Taekyeon, Wooyoung and Chansung said in unison and in an annoying tone. These guys, seriously...

“I’m serious!” Junho said in frustration. His friends just laughed at him.

“Have you told her about us? You said earlier she’s not so into rock songs and she didn’t even know about us.” Wooyoung said. “Don’t you think the beginning of a relationship should be good without lies?”

Even Wooyoung thinks the same. Should I tell her?

Junho nodded. “I know about that, man. But..” he took a deep breath. “I think she will understand.”

The event was held on 3 in the afternoon. Junho and his friends came an hour earlier. Many people had came, and they could see most of them were their fans. Junho had expected that. So, now they were in the music room, preparing everything.

“Ah, you’ve come!” the girl greeted them cheerfully. Junho smiled warmly at her. Today she looked beautiful. She wore a simple white dress. He couldn’t stop staring. Oh dear. He was still in his imaginary land when she said,”so these are your friends?”

He blinked when Wooyoung realized he was daydreaming and quickly elbowed him. “O-oh, yes! They are my friends!” Junho said. Wooyoung, Chansung and Taekyeon then introduced themselves to her. She looked so grateful.

“It’s really nice to know you guys.” She said with smile on her face. “I’m so thankful you guys help us.”

“It’s our pleasure.” Wooyoung answered. “We’re happy to help the kids.” He smiled, too wide. Junho raised an eyebrow. Wooyoung always behaves like this if he meets girls. Junho then was nudged by Chansung.

“This is daebak. She doesn’t even recognize us.” He whispered. “I think she really dislikes rock music.” He sounded amazed. “Or else, we’re not famous enough.” He added.

“Shut up, or she will hear you.” Junho whispered back.

To their surprise, she asked. “I see many photographers out there. Do you guys document this event?”

“A-ah, yeah! They’re our friends!” Junho quickly said. “This event will be very memorable, right? It’ll be great to have the photos and videos!” Junho laughed awkwardly, the others also did the same. Actually the event was held and helped by the company and it was one of their monthly schedules. It really had to be documented.

She nodded in response. She believed in his story. Junho sighed. That was a relief.

Finally, Junho and his band mates came to the stage. Most of the visitors were so loud, that they were cheering their names. Junho smiled and waved happily at them. The fans also brought some banners which had their photos for cheering them today. Some of them started to get photos of them by clicking their cameras. Everyone looked so excited. And he was the same.

Along the performance, Junho kept looking for her. He wondered where she was, and wondered if she listened to their songs. He wondered if she liked the songs. But all he could see was their fans, he couldn’t find her.

But, at last, God let him see her.

She was in the back of the crowds. She was looking at him. She even waved at him and gave him her thumb, a sign that she liked the performance. Junho couldn’t help but smile. He felt so happy.

“Well,” Wooyoung spoke after their finished performing some songs, everyone went silent,”the next song is a new song, that composed by our guitarist Lee Junho.” Everybody got so loud and crazy. They clapped enthusiastically. “The title is Love is Lovely. Hope you enjoy this song!”

Everybody got loud again. Junho kept staring at her. She looked really surprised, he could see it. Well, he didn’t tell her anything about his new own composed song. But he really hoped she liked it. And then, Wooyoung started to sing.

I don’t know how to say

But I really like you

I don’t know how to confess

But I really love you

Do you ever know my heart even if I don’t tell you?

Do you ever feel the same even if I don’t show you?

Do you ever expect I will confess to you?

Love is lovely, you say that to me

Love is lovely, I say that to myself

It’s so lovely to love you like this

Love is lovely

The song was almost over when Junho saw the girl talking to some people who brought banners and cameras. After that, she glanced at Junho before she left the crowd. Junho was confused. What was happening?

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

Junho blinked to hear her sudden question. He was really confused. “What?” It was only them in this music room. She called him after the event was over. She said she needed to talk about something.

She stared at him intently, looked really annoyed. “Why didn’t you tell me that you are a guitarist of a famous rock band?”

She already found it out?

He was shocked. “H-how...”

She laughed awkwardly. “Am I the one who doesn’t know anything?” she asked. “I feel so stupid.” She looked so mad. She didn’t even look at Junho right in the eyes. It was the first time she did that to him. He couldn’t say he liked it. It simply hurt him. He felt that he had lost the cheerful her. Of course he wouldn’t think of it, because she never got mad all the time when they were together.

“Listen..” Junho tried to make everything clear. He needed to make her not to get the wrong idea. “I had always wanted to tell you, but...”

“But what? You fooled me first?” she cut him off. She stared at him.

He was dumbfounded. “That’s not my point!”

“But, why didn’t you tell me?”

Junho couldn’t give an answer. He stared at her regretfully. He never expected this kind of thing happen. He thought she would understand, he thought...

“And this charity event is one of your schedules?” she spoke again. “And those people who came are your fans? And those people who prepared everything are your company’s employees? And the people who documented this event are journalist?” she laughed weirdly. “You’re really good at lying.” She commented.

Junho sighed. He couldn’t blame her. She must be angry, he lied to her. She was right. He was a liar. “I can explain this.” He murmured. “I know it’s my fault I don’t tell you everything earlier. I’ve told you I’ve always wanted to tell you, but...”

“All your excuses don’t have any effects to me.” She cut him off again. “I was just....” she let out a heavy sigh. “I was just disappointed about your dishonesty.” She finally completed her words. “I-I always tell you everything.” She stuttered. She looked away, not let him seeing her eyes. “I told you about the kids, about everyone in this orphanage. I told you about myself. I never lied to you, I always told you the truth. But, why did you...” she couldn’t complete her words this time.

“I’m sorry.” He whispered regretfully.

He knew everything was shocking for her. He saw her taking deep breaths many times. She looked flustered.

“But now, knowing the truth, I have no bravery and confidence to be friends with you anymore.”

What?

Junho thought he misheard what she had said. “What are you saying?”

“We can’t be friends anymore.” She said firmly.

She really said it, she really meant it.

What the heck is going on in here?

“But, w-why?” he asked, stuttering. He needed to find the answer. He needed to know. She couldn’t decide this thing all of sudden. They had been good friends since they met on the train. She was not the type to say such hurtful things. She was never good at it. She was the type who didn’t want to hurt others.

Doesn’t she realize it hurt me so much?

“We’re really different.” She murmured.

“What?” Junho was shocked to hear the answer.

“We’re really different, our worlds are different. You’re somebody, and I’m just... nobody.”

What?

“That doesn’t make sense.” He was really dumbfounded. “You want me only be friends with other rock stars? Can’t I make friends with people who work in different field than mine?”

“We’re really different.” She still murmured the same things. “I-I can’t stand the stares of your fans.”

Fans?

So, that’s the problem?

“I just knew everything about you today. T-they told me.” She said. “They said that they knew everything, and they figured out about me.”

Junho blinked. “What?”

“They knew you always came here to meet me and the kids. They asked what kind of relationship I had with you. They said they didn’t like me to get closer to you.” She told him. “They even said that the song you composed is probably for me. They hated me for that.”

He got shiver.

“I never experienced that before.” She added weirdly. “It’s...scary.”

I’ve hurt her. Oh my goodness.

 “I really want to say let’s not meet again.” She laughed awkwardly. “But, we have a plan to go to Busan next week.” She added. “I think after that, I can say it properly.”

She left the room and Junho felt his heart broken into pieces.