September 3rd 2014, EunB's pov

"Waah! We made it!" I exclaimed happily to my fellow members. We had just performed our new song, Kiss Kiss, to the audience, and had the time of our lives on the stage. I still couldn't believe my dream was about to come true, that I was actually a singer that people liked.

The cheers and chants we got while performing were no joke. I didn't care so much about being famous; I only cared about making people happy with my music. I really loved the idea of cheering up people with my voice, and make them dance along the rhythm, enjoying the fullest of it, just like I did on stage.

We were currently heading to our waiting room that was filled with all our stuff spread around. Our bags, jackets, make-up, other outfits, some food and of course, something our families and fans had sent us.

"I'm so tired!" Zuny wailed when we walked in and the door was closed. As if in cue, she yawned with a widely opened mouth. I just smiled at her and others chuckled at our maknae's behavior.

"Aigoo, our baby can't take this yet!" RiSe joked. Zuny pouted at her, and crossed her arms to show her dissatisfaction of being called a baby. 

"Our baby!" Sojung called too, before she ran to hug Zuny. Soon all of us did that, and we just stood there, hugging each other for minutes. We were all very tired, and I couldn't help but to yawn after Zuny.

"Girls, time to go." Our manager suddenly said from the door, interrupting my yawn.

"Dae!" We answered simultaneously and hurried to pack our things.

"I'm going to the bathroom!" Soojung informed quickly and left.

She didn't know we had waited for this moment to come, wanting to finally get this over with before we got too excited about this. It was already past midnight, so it was already Sojung's birthday today.

"Here, hats. Put them on!" RiSe commanded us all.

"Zuny, get the cake!" Ashley said and Zuny nodded happily.

"EunB!" Ashley called me.

"Yes?" I asked.

"Prepare the decoration with me, don't just stand there doing nothing!" She said. Oh... I hadn't even noticed I had just stood there helplessly, not knowing what to do.

I helped Ashley the best I could, and soon we finished decorating the waiting room lightly. RiSe had finished the card and Zuny had brought the hidden cake around the same time.

"It's so pretty!" I said in a glee. I knew Sojung was going to love this!

"Look at that cute marzipan Sojung!" Ashley pointed out and we stared at the little girl that held a mike in her hands on top of the cake. We hadn't noticed that Sojung already returned from her trip to the toilets, we were too immersed on awing the cake.

"What are we looking at?" Sojung asked as she lowered herself to match our bent backs. We all jumped in surprise and everyone had a small panic written on our faces.

"Now!" Ashley commanded after a while of wondering. As commanded, we all started to sing.

"Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you! Happy birthday to you dear Sojung! Happy birthday to you!" When our song ended, RiSe lightened up the candles on the cake and ordered Sojung to blow them.

"Remember to make a wish!" I reminded her and Sojung nodded curtly. She blew all the candles except for one, but even that fire died down after her second attempt.

"Hurray!" Zuny yelled happily and we all surrounded Sojung.

"Pretty pretty!" Zuny started.

"From my head to my toes!" Sojung continued.

"Pretty pretty!" Everyone else than Sojung sang.

"I've always been this pretty!" Sojung sang and we all laughed.

"Girls, seriously! We have to go now!" Our manager shouted from the door again, interrupting our happy moment.

"What a mood killer..." I muttered and some nodded along with my statement. "Well, let's not waste time! Let's go then!" Ashley declared and we all started to gather our stuff. I smiled at the sight of my yellow banana toy. I never left without it; it was a stuffed toy given me by my fans and just looking at it gave me energy to carry on.

"Can I carry that today?" I heard Zuny ask beside me while staring at the floor. I smiled at her and gave it to her.

"Here." I said as she took it. "Remember to return it!" I warned her.

Zuny nodded and we both went after the others that had moved to the car already. I glanced at Zuny that was extremely tired after all what had happened and I knew I made the right choice of giving my toy to her. Maybe she could get some more energy with that. It was raining when we reached outside and we walked silently in the rain to our car. The rain made me calm and it relieved the enormous stress I felt. The rain was like a miracle that made me feel a lot better, and I couldn't help but to sigh in relief.

As we entered the car, we all tried to fund the best positions to sleep since it was night already and we were all really exhausted after performing. But I just couldn't sleep. Maybe it was because I was so thrilled about our successful job or maybe it was because today was Sojung's birthday.

"You did well girls. Do you want to listen your songs as a reward?" Our manager asked.

"Yes!" I said happily. It seemed like I was the only one awake from us, everyone else had fallen asleep in seconds after we took off. I hummed along with our songs and I was about to drift peacefully to my dreams.

"Oh no!" Our manager shouted as he was driving and I didn't have time to ask what happened. I didn't have time, because the car started to spin around us along with it. I started to panic and I hit my head multiple times, but I still managed to look at everyone else quickly. Like in a drama, it was like a time had stopped.

I saw Zuny hugging my banana toy in panic while she was tightly shutting her eyes. I saw Ashley that had awoken from her dreams, trying to stop her head banging with her hands. I saw Rise that also hit her head very powerfully and lost conscious immediately after that. I saw the birthday girl Sojung that was already unconscious from bumping around carelessly in the car.

Why did this happen? What did we do? Why did they have to suffer today? Please God, if you exist, please save them rather than me. The only thing I could do for them, was to risk my own life for their survival. I didn't care what happened to me, but it hurt me to see them getting hurt. Their heads hitting the car, the fear they had in their eyes, everything they worried about. I didn't want them to suffer since we had worked so hard for our career already.

I prayed that RiSe and Sojung would survive, that they hadn't died yet. What would I do if that really happened? I couldn't live anymore. I couldn't live a day without mourning over them, if they really died. They were so precious for me, like sisters. Family... That was the word I was looking for. They were like a family to me, the second family that had to go through the hardships with me as we shared the boat.

Suddenly, my thoughts, my vision, everything, just out and I didn't know what happened to anyone after that final thump, not what happened to myself, either.

….

I opened my eyes and saw that we were still in the car. I crawled over to the closest person to me, Zuny. "Zuny? Zuny? I said and tried to shake her up. Her face told she was in pain, but she didn't open her eyes. I heard someone groaning in pain, so I approached that person.

"Ashley? Ashley?! Please answer me!" I cried. Ashley opened her eyes and looked around slowly. Her eyes didn't stop to me, but she just closed them again and tried to move. I hold her still as I knew moving wasn't a good idea after what happened. 

She stopped moving because of the pain the movements gave her, and I moved over to Sojung and RiSe. I recalled that they had both lost consciousness, so I immediately checked if they were breathing. Sojung breathed almost normally, while RiSe was hardly even breathing. She just laid there lifelessly. "RiSe..." I started, but tears stopped me.

I cried as I feared for her destiny, I feared the possibility of her dying. I didn't want to see her death, so I started to give her CPR, trying to keep her alive enough long until the help would arrive. I heard the ambulance and I was so relieved. I quickly glanced at the bloody hand that was gaining my attention, since it was stretched close to RiSe's head.

I looked who it belonged to, and my tears couldn't stop. I saw our manager covered in blood laying behind the wheel. Zuny... Ashley... Sojung... RiSe.... Manager.... What should I do? I saw the paramedics coming and the first one they got out wasn't any of those mentioned before. It was me. I saw my own limp body being dragged out before anyone else. I knew it meant that was dead, but I couldn't comprehend it. I heard RiSe's raspy breathing beside me and I was so relieved that she breathed again. 

Was God the one that made my wish come true? My wish, that other's would survive if I'd die? All I knew was that a miracle given to me. I somehow guessed RiSe had been dead for a while now, but since I was ready to sacrifice, they gave her back to us. Or... Back to them, I was the deceased one.

After that thought crossed my mind, I didn't panic at all about being dead. It made me feel comfortable, like it was meant to happen. Of course, I was sad after knowing I couldn't continue pursuing my dream with the rest of them. But for me, their lives were more important than my dreams.

I looked as the paramedics took the girls away, and lastly our manager. I took the ambulances that had Sojung in it, and for the whole trip to the hospital, I held her hand. Even though her birthday ended up like this, it was still a happy day. Without her being born, I couldn't have met her. I might not have debuted and I could've had failed to achieve my dream as far as I did now.

We finally arrived to the hospital and I immediately checked the other girls. Ashley and Zuny were both awake, shaking vigorously from the received shock. I wondered if they knew about my death yet, but I guessed it was better if they didn't. I went over them, trying to act all normal. "Ashley! Zuny!" I said with a failed cheery tone.

They didn't even turn their heads to me. They didn't answer 'EunB!'. They just sat there, staring in to the space. Doctors took them and started to examine them. I was with them, but then I couldn't stand looking at their crying faces as they were told I died in the car crash.

So instead of staying there crying, I started to look for RiSe with tears brimmed in my eyes. I found her after trying couple of unlucky times. She was surrounded by the doctors and she was undergoing a surgery right in front of me. For more than nine hours, I didn't move away, but just stood next to her and tried to give her strength. I didn't know how much my ghostly presence helped, but I still tried. In the end, the doctors had to stop the surgery as her state got worse. 

I just cried more while looking at her peaceful face that hid all the pain she felt inside. Why is it that unconscious people look the calmest ones? Is it because they were having imaginary dreams that held nothing evil inside of them instead of this shocking reality? Was it because they didn't know what was going on around them? I didn't know what it was, but I hoped she just didn't feel the pain.

I sighed as I looked at her. "You guys are the only family that I'm able to see, I guess." I muttered and thought about my real family.

How devastated would my mother and father be when they would hear the news of what happened to me? How they would cry over me, unable to stop it. I couldn't stop my tears at all, and I hadn't even seen my parents’ agony yet.

I felt sorry for them; I wished for my own death voluntarily and gave them that pain. It was like I wanted to die and leave them alone, which was not the truth. I never wanted to leave them, but I didn't want to see anyone of Ladies' Code to get hurt either.

My wish was like a coin, it had two sides of it. It all depended on what side did you look at, and I chose to look at the brighter side of the things; the side where I rescued them by sacrificing myself. No one might ever find out know what I did, but I didn't mind. There were people that would remember me even after my death, more than just my family and friends. I had all my fans supporting me, all the Lavely's. 

I decided to check on Sojung one more time, since I already knew RiSe would eventually survive. I did kiss RiSe's forehead before leaving, thinking it was my final goodbye to her. I stared at Sojung that was connected to the breathing machine like RiSe was. I thought about all our memories together.

The times we were together with Ashley and Zuny, dancing and singing non-stop. I thought about how shocked they all were in the car. How we all were extremely happy just hours ago. I caressed Sojung's cheek carefully and hoped she'd wake up soon.

"EunB." Someone said behind me. I turned around and saw a light. The light was bright and it hurt my eyes, but instead of focusing in the hurting eyes of mine, I glued my stare on the black, shadowy figure in the middle of it all.. "EunB." The person said again, and this time I recognized his voice.

"Ma-manager oppa?" I asked as tears rolled down my cheeks for the last time. I felt guilty of forgetting to think about him, I only worried for the girls though I cared a lot for him, too. Our manager stepped out from the light and pointed at Sojung.

"You were very kind EunB. You saved others so they couldn't get killed, but you also lost your life." He said and took my hand. He carefully caressed it to calm me down and it did make me feel slightly better.

"It didn't work. You died." I protested. Manager just smiled at me kindly.

"I was already doomed when the car started to spin. There was no way you could've saved me." He assured calmly and I believed him.

Maybe my wish did come true, but there was always something to be sacrificed to make it happen. I was the one that lost my life for RiSe, manager oppa lost his for Sojung. I smiled at him in understanding and he walked in front of me.

 "Now, are you ready to go?" He asked and I nodded. 

He was already going through the light, while I heard a soft cry. I turned around and saw that Sojung was awake.

"EunB?" Manager asked as he came back.

"Just a minute." I said and took my hand off his. I approached Sojung quietly and stopped in front of her bed.

"Sojung?" I asked gently and her gaze landed on me.

"E-EunB?" She asked hardly. I nodded and smiled at her. "Why are you so shiny?" She asked in confusion. I chuckled and answered her

"I just am."

I was pondering what should I say, or should I say nothing at all. "Sojung... What was it that you wished for?" I asked after making up my mind.

"I... I wished that Ladies' Code would be more known..." She admitted guiltily. I pitied her, all she wished was for all the best to Ladies' Code, but now it couldn't happen. Well, know we were more known, but this wasn't the right way. Wishes just were not into details. If you didn't clarify what you wished for well, tragically things like this could happen.

"It's okay Sojung. We appreciate your wish. Now, close your eyes and sleep for now. You must have a surgery to heal and you need energy to do that." I said as I tucked her to bed.

"Yes..." She muttered quietly. When I was sure that she had fallen asleep, I turned to our manager.

"I'm ready now." I said as I walked towards the light.

My only regret was not to say proper goodbyes to Zuny, Ashley and my family, but it was harder when they were grieving for me. But I promise them something instead of painful goodbyes. There would not be a day I wouldn't watch over them, I'd always be by their side and support them the best I could.

Rest in piece EunB,

Get well soon RiSe,

Strenght to the rest of Ladies' Code that survived and to EunB's family and friends.