Im a dreamer. I dont mind what you say about me, infact i find it funny at times how many of you try to pull me down. Fall 7 times, get up 8.

Recently someone had told me I will never accomplish what I want in life and that person is me.Well not me directly but the me inside my head. It is my self demons, they pull you down, weaken you and take away any slither of confidence you have, but I bounce back from that, start believing that I of all people can do what i am afraid to achieve. Lately, I have been bringing myself down, saying to myself everyone is judging me,stop, act like you are invisible, FOR CHRIST SAKE FADE OUT OF SIGHT!! but, as I lay here under the stars, sight seeing, connecting the dots in the sky,watching all the shooting stars fly by, I whisper to myself softly,

"please..give me the confidence I need to go far just like a shooting star? give me a life where I don't have to try and hide at all and i can be my self without running?..please.."

It was all fine until i heared that voice, that soul crushing, dream stealing, pain covered voice.

"no use wishing on a star sara, its already dead..just like your dream..hahahahahahaha!"

he continued laughing.

"no it isn't, the star might be dead to you but to me it is very much alive, and since when was my dreams relevent to you?"

"they aren't.."

"yeah and who are you? oh yeah that's right, irrelevent"

"..you-"

"go away"

"whatever.."

then he left. It worked, the confidence of standing up to someone is one thing to another person but to me it was new, It was working, or was it?

On the way home I was thinking so much about that star then I realised one thing, wishing upon stars is childish and silly,but that is what makes us human. without being childish what are we? we're pain. Wishes only happen if you make them, change "I wish" to "I will", confidence and capability come when we need it to or when we make it happen, that is what makes as independant and childish when we are done being an adult. I smile to myself.

It only happened when Iwanted it to, i have cheated myself out of so many things I believed i couldn't do yet had the capability of doing it the whole time. All you need is the belief.