They say knowledge is power and education is key. The more you know the better you are. But Namjoon's sick of all of it. He doesn't want to have this mindset anymore. He misses the days when he can just wake up and not have to think about the responsibilities of a 20 year old and overthink himself to the point where it freaks him out about the future. Namjoon think the people who have the mindset of a child are truly gifted. They can still look at the world in the way Namjoon wants to look at it: bright and inviting, as if there's nothing to be scared about. Namjoon envies those people so much because he knows that maybe sometimes too much knowledge can end up frustrating you to no end.
The books the he's read the songs that he's heard to and the movies that he's watched all tumbled down into a goop of knowledge that influences him to be the person that he is today. To be Rap Monster, hip hop, Kim Namjoon. But who was he really? Namjoon always asked himself but never got the answer.