GRi - Changed the Way You Kissed Me
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Song: Changed the Way You Kissed Me - Example
Pairing: Jiyong x Seungri - GRi/JiRi/Nyongtory/Nyongtori
Word count: 867
Thanks to Lyzbog for the song title!
We’d been together for a while when it happened.
It changed the way you kissed me.
I didn’t know what it was before days later when I finally confronted you because you’d been avoiding me and I was tired of it.
I had cornered you in the studio, intent on finally getting some answers from you. You never evaded me like that before and I feared it had somehow something to do with me.
I still don’t know if I should have just ignored it and waited for you to eventually come around even if you would most likely never explain.
I’d probably have been better off not knowing.
“It’s nothing, Ri,” you had said, smiling weakly at me, and I had immediately known that wasn’t the case at all.
“Something’s bothering you, hyung,” I had countered, folding my arms over my chest and watching you closely, searching for something in your eyes and your behaviour that would tell me what was troubling you or at least give me a hint. “You have avoided me for the last couple of days now. Did I do something wrong?”
Your smile had left your face then, replaced with a frown and the lip-biting you’re so known for.
“No,” your soft answer had been. “You didn’t do anything wrong…” And then you’d hesitated. “I did.”
“Hyung?”
“I- I’m sorry, RiRi, baby. I… The party and, and I…” You’d looked up at me then, eyes watering, and whispered, “I’m sorry. She… We were drunk and she… She and I…”
I hadn’t looked back when I slammed the door behind me.
Now, two weeks later, I still ignore your calls. I still leave the room when I see you. I still hate you.
I still miss you.
I still cry.
I still dream of you.
I don’t know where to go from here. Everyone knows you shouldn’t go back to a cheater no matter what they tell you, no matter the promises they make to you. I won’t do it again, I was wrong, I’m sorry.
Lies.
It’s all lies.
But I want to believe that you loving me wasn’t a lie. If, at least, your love were real… What is a relationship without flaws?
I haven’t forgiven you yet, however. My mind says not to forgive you, but my heart, despite being in pieces, begs me to.
Maybe it’s because my heart knows you’re the only one able to put it back together.
That sounds so cheesy.
My phone is making noises again and I glare at it, knowing all too well who’s calling. Nonetheless, I saunter over to it, reaching for it and looking at the screen. I snort.
Jiyong.
“I don’t want to talk to you,” I mutter, watching the phone lit up, ringing, ringing, pleading me to pick up. “I don’t want to. Hyung, I don’t want to heart your excuses.”
Once the phone stops ringing and the screen goes back to black, I shake my head and angrily wipe away the tears on my cheeks.
I’m the one lying this time.
The phone lights up again and I swallow, sliding my finger over the screen, accepting the call.
There’s a pregnant pause over the phone. Then:
“Ri?”
“Jiyong hyung,” I answer coolly and I almost hear you flinch.
“Seunghyun-ah… Can… Can we meet up? Please?” you ask and I frown.
Half an hour later you’re here, sitting before me and looking nothing like the fearless leader of Bigbang.
I shift a bit in my seat and you clear your throat.
“I… I’m sorry, Seunghyun-ah, I really am. I didn’t mean to do it. I didn’t… I love you. It was a mistake and I’ve been tearing myself apart ever since because of it. I don’t want to lose you. Please.”
“Should have thought about that before you let her seduce you,” I mutter.
“I’m sorry,” you stress, standing from your seat and approaching me. You crouch and grab my hands, seeking out my eyes. “I am. I am so sorry. I don’t know why I did it. It meant nothing, nothing, I promise you, and I’ll never do it again. Please take me back. Please, please. I can’t be without you.”
My heart isn’t made of ice. His words affect me and I find myself crying. “Why should I take you back? You broke the trust I had in you! How can I be sure you’ll never do it again?”
“You’re my inspiration, Ri,” you say softly. “You’re my muse. When I look at you, I feel inspired and I can write. In these weeks without you, I haven’t been able to breathe. I can’t breathe without you – I can’t live without you. You make me smile and laugh and without you… I feel so hollow. I’m sorry.”
You draw me into your warm embrace and I bury my face in your neck, wrapping my arms around you. I realise how much I’ve missed holding you and being held by you; how much I’ve missed you.
“Don’t mess this up, okay?” I croak hoarsely and you hold me tighter. “Don’t make such a mistake ever again. I won’t forgive you then.”
“I won’t. I promise. Thank you.”
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