Gwiboon tried to have a talk with Taeyeon since that day. But the other girl disappeared just like that. No call, no messages. Her number was always out of reach everytime Gwiboon tried to call her. She went to her small apartment, but the neighbor said that the tenant had left since days ago and she didn’t know when they would be back. Gwiboon went to the chinese restaurant where Taeyeon’s mother work, but the owner said she has resigned since weeks and he didn’t know where she had left after that. It felt like loosing Taeyeon, and Gwiboon couldn’t stop blaming herself. Taeyeon once told her that she used to move from one school to another due to her mom financial circumstance. Taeyeon, her mom and her grandfather were always been in this situation for about 10 years, she had forgotton how many times she had transfered to another school. And because she always came as the new girl, she always experienced the same thing in every school, the bullying. Gwiboon didn’t understand why after all those things she had been through, she could still be the girl who move on and smiled whenever she remembered them, never hate the people who had treated her bad. Taeyeon was an ordinary girl who always think positive and face everyday with smile. Sometimes she’s too naive but that’s what makes her pure and innocent. Gwiboon learned a lot from Taeyeon, and she adored her too. But now with her missing, Gwiboon was afraid she decided to leave again and she wouldn’t spend their senior year together like they had promised. After Jinki would leave to university now she had to lose Taeyeon? The thought of losing someone she loves just made her chest tighten in  pain. If only she didn’t come to Jinki that day, if only Jinki didn’t kiss her...

Jinki, that name got her shivered. Her stomach felt weird and her chest sensationally heated whenever she remembered the kiss. She just wanted to bury her face to anything just to erase the blushing crept up on her face as it recalled. She bit her lips which Jinki had claimed once and she felt giddy at the thought of the boy had stolen her first kiss that way. But she had to restrain herself from the joy of her reciprocated feeling. How could she felt happy when her girl-bestfriend suffered a heart break? That’s just cruel.

It’s getting worst also when she realized Jinki stopped seeing her, nor even calling. At first it was Gwiboon who avoided him, but now it seemed reverse. Gwiboon couldn’t blame Jinki though. After they kissed, Gwiboon didn’t say anything but pushed Jinki away. She ran outside trying to catch Taeyeon but when she knew the girl was nowhere to be seen, she just stood there on the street. Jinki approached her but before him saying something, Gwiboon refused to look at him and left. She knew her action probably had hurt him in a way that Gwiboon didn’t mean to. But she just couldn’t do anything for Jinki when she saw that breaking heart on Taeyeon’s face.

So in the end, Gwiboon let herself break down crying again.

---

Days turn into weeks, and just like that, a month had passed. Gwiboon still hadn’t found Taeyeon and Jinki still hadn’t contacted her. It was still summer but Gwiboon’s still gloomy as winter in the evening. Her brother, Jonghyun was busy looking for music school and had been travelling around. Home felt like cemetary without Jonghyun being noisy or that loud sound of her guitar electric played in his room. Her mother noticed Gwiboon’s changing from lively and cheering girl to restless and quiet one and she wondered if her beloved daughter was sick or feeling depressed. It was strange for her knowing that Gwiboon lost her interest to go shopping or to the spa treatment when she asked her. So, she dragged Gwiboon to hospital for medical check up. Then they would see if she needed psychiatrist. Gwiboon whined and refused to leave, telling her mom that she’s okay and she just needed to be alone but her mother knew better and insisted her to go. Gwiboon knew her mother though, she’s just like her. When she wanted something to be done, she would make it done and wouldn’t stop bugging when she received a refusal. Gwiboon went to hospital with her mother at last.

Her mother sighed as the doctor said that Gwiboon lost so much weight and could potentially get sick. Her blood pressure was low and the doctor said Gwiboon needs to eat well. He adviced her a lot of things which Gwiboon didn’t bother to listen to. When her mother told her to wait while she would get the medicine to the hospital drugstore, Gwiboon just nodded and sat in the terrace near to the park. Gwiboon was looking in serence at the few nurses with patients in wheel chair talking a walk or were resting there enjoying the sun, but then her view stopped at this particular girl, who was strolling a wheel chair as an old man sat on it. She couldn’t believe her own eyes. That girl who was laughing with the old man as she taking him around the park was no one but Taeyeon.

Gwiboon stood up, almost running went to approach them. He was Taeyeon grandfather, he looked sick but somehow still managed to show happiness on his face as Taeyeon talked to him.

“Taeyeon...”

The call turned the girl around and when she saw her, her face changed from cheerful to a surprised. Clearly didn’t expect to meet Gwiboon there. Gwiboon was ready if Taeyeon would ditch or treat her unfriendly. So Gwiboon waited, she waited in awkward silence as she nervously smiled at her. Taeyeon was quiet there, looking at her with unreadable expression and Gwiboon was about to give up, but when Taeyeon slowly sent her a smile back and nodded, she didn’t know how it relieved Gwiboon’s feeling. Gwiboon felt an ease in her chest eventually.

---

After a month hadn’t seen each other, it felt awkward having Taeyeon sitting accross her now. Gwiboon had insisted she would come back home without her mother, telling her mom that she needed to talk with Taeyeon. Gwiboon waited for hours as Teayeon told she needed to take care of her grandfather first before this meeting. Yes, after that coincidentally encounter Gwiboon asked the other girl for meet up at lunch. Gwiboon almost jump in joy when Taeyeon nodded at her offer. Gwiboon missed her and she wanted to clear up things. But as they finally sitting there face to face, Gwiboon didn’t know where to start. She’s just fidgeting, too afraid to talk first.

“How are you?” it was Taeyeon who asked first and it just made Gwiboon felt like shrinking.

“I...” she started, “I’m fine... you?”

“just like what you see now” she smiled.

Gwiboon couldn’t see, honestly. Taeyeon looked okay, she tried smiling a lot but still there’s something not right in her eyes.

“I miss you, you know” Gwiboon slowly gatthered her courage to speak. “i’ve tried to contact you ever since that day....”  she stopped, knowing if she continued, it just reminded both of them about that time.

But Taeyeon let a low chuckled as if knowing what’s in Gwiboon’s mind.

“I purposely avoided you since I saw you with Jinki that morning” she said, playing the straw of her drink.  “at the same time, my grandfather was getting sick. We took him to Incheon for traditional medical treatment because he insisted, you know... old man.. But in the end we’re back as you can see, he’s getting good medical treatment here. So he’s getting better now”

Gwiboon sent her sympathy by reaching out her hand to hold Taeyeon’s. The other just simply nodded at the gesture.

“Taeyeon, i’m sorry” Gwiboon softly said.

The girl looked up at her, “what are you sorry about?”

“about that morning”

“it’s not your fault” Taeyeon cut her, looking away and just staring down. “i should have known it”

“Taeyeon...”

“but still, i am upset” Taeyeon said coldly, “if you like him why did you have to lie to me though? If you told me your feeling before, then i would gladly yield on my own before it’s getting too deep. When you said Jinki and I being together is a good idea, it has led me to this hope, a hope you have ruined at the end though”

Gwiboon didn’t dare to look at Taeyeon now. How come a thing that she thought would make Taeyeon happy, in fact had wrecked taeyeon’s heart instead. All she wanted to do was making Taeyeon happy.

“you don’t have to feel pity on me, Gwiboon. Really” Taeyeon continued, “I didn’t do anything for you that cause you have to give me something in return. For me, having you as my friend is enough. It makes me happy. You don’t have to sacrifice your own feeling for me. Our friendship is genuine, so please don’t make it hard for you”

Gwiboon couldn’t help but let a single tear coming from her eyes. Taeyeon was such a nice girl. This was just unfair. She shouldn’t care about Gwiboon’s feeling when she was still suffering from that broken heart.

“Jinki likes you a lot. You know that?” she looked at her now, “I’ve met Jinki two days ago in bookstore, skinnier, lusterless and restless” Taeyeon stared now at the couple who were eating their lunch, being affectionate toward each other as the guy feed his girlfriend using his fork. Taeyeon probably didn’t notice Gwiboon all fidgety, not looking at Taeyeon now, just listening. “Then he asked me for lunch. He’s still nice as ever even though he’s also suffering a heart break like me”

Taeyeon turned her attention back to Gwiboon, “don’t you see what you’ve done him, Gwiboon?” she asked. “you want to make me happy, that’s your intention at the first place. But you forget that by doing so, you are hurting two hearts at the same time, yours and his”

“but you deserve him more than me” Gwiboon cut her, “you deserve to be loved by someone that you like”

“But am I loved by Jinki then?” he asked back,  “Yes, he loves me as a friend, but no more than that. His heart chooses someone else”

They were silent for some time. Taeyeon was looking back at the couple again, while Gwiboon was just staring at her coffee.

“He likes you, he told me. And I appreciate that. I’m more than happy knowing someone being honest to me even though it somehow hurts me. I don’t know what hurts anymore. I think I’m used to it. It gets me stronger. I don’t regret it” Taeyeon started again, “He likes you since the first time he saw you, since he saw you crying and cursing Jonghyun for not sharing the candies back when you were still little kids”

Gwiboon lifted up her face listening to this, and there she saw Taeyeon’s face lit up softly.

“He never thought that her liking towards you would grow into this loving and genuine affection feeling every day. It’s getting bigger each day and he can’t stop it. He waits the right time to tell to you, until you are grown enough to realize his feeling, until you know exactly what love is between you and him. For you, he waits “ Taeyeon told her, letting out a gentle sigh. “you are his first crush and he loves you. I realize my feeling towards him is nothing compared to what he has to you”

Gwiboon squeezed her fingers now, biting her lips as she tried so hard not to let out a single tear.

“But when I told him that you only care for him because you think he’s like brother to you, it breaks his heart. And it’s worsened when he knows that you…” Taeyeon stopped then, looking at Gwiboon as if she spoke now it would hurt Gwiboon

“knows what?” The brown hair girl wanted her to continue. “he knows what?”

“he said you like someone else” she said, “but of course I don’t believe him. Why would you like someone else when you enjoyed kissing him” Taeyeon let out a small smile. Gwiboon’s felt tensed as red deep blush crept again on her cheeks. She swore her face might look like tomato by right now.

“But seriously” Taeyeon asked, “Don’t lie to me again, Gwiboon. You love him back, don’t you?”

“I…” Gwiboon stuttered. Oh why did it hard to admit her own feeling to her bestfriend now?

“Do you really want Jinki to fall in love with me? Kiss me? Touch me?”

She had once pictured this, of Jinki kissing and touching someone else, even with Taeyeon and it made her sick.

“you’ve been kissed by him, I know he’s good kisser by watching the way he kissed you that morning. Do you want any other girl experienced this from him? Are you okay with him be touched by other girl and they exclaimed his lips, lips that had stolen your first kiss?”

“How dare you…?”

“Do you?”

Gwiboon glared at Taeyeon now, she was angry and her heart was beating so fast in emotion. How dare she was throwing her these questions. But she stopped as she breathed, trying to calm her down.

“I know it…” Taeyeon smiled. “you lied to me. If one thing that upset me the most is someone lying at me. It’s not about what I’ve seen between you and Jinki that morning. It happened anyway but those lies...”

“I’m sorry” Gwiboon looked down, quietly sobbing. “I’m sorry for hurting you with those lies, Taeyeon”

Taeyeon stood up and walked approaching her, kneeling down next to her and whispered. “that’s okay, Gwiboon…”

Gwiboon turned her head aside. She knew when a girl said ‘it’s okay’ or ‘I’m fine’ it means ‘I’m not okay and i’m not fine’ but as she looked her and her smile, it was genuine. That she’s okay and she’s fine indeed. Gwiboon couldn’t help but threw herself to her, hugging Taeyeon tightly and when Taeyeon hugged her back, she knew she was forgiven.

---

Gwiboon couldn’t sleep after that reconciliation with Taeyeon. She had Taeyeon back, but not Jinki… not yet. A girl should be happy when she was told that someone she likes, does actually like her back, but Gwiboon… instead of jumping or trembling in excitement, she felt horrible. So, Jinki thought Gwiboon likes someone else. How could Jinki think that so when Jinki was the only guy who had been filling up all her days most of the time? Gwiboon didn’t know any other guy than Jinki that she’s close with, or other guy who obviously had confessed to her in front of Jinki. The fact was, Gwiboon never had been crushed or spazzed over any other guy. So it was pretty confusing for her.

Then again since that day Jinki kissed her, Gwiboon was coward to meet him. She was afraid, that she would be embarrassed and jittery if she met him. Sometimes though, she would peak through the curtain of her bedroom just to see Jinki’s light bedroom was still on or already off. She could see his shadow there from afar, two houses building away from across, his movement walking back in front nervously, or him just sitting on his study desk. It was sad that all she could see was only his shadow when she could run and pushed his door bell, forcing him in bossy tone to get out of the house and asked him to hang out. But now as Gwiboon saw Jinki’s light in his bedroom was turn off, she sighed dissapointedly. She threw her body on her bed and again, she couldn’t sleep.

In the morning, Gwiboon was awake by the noisy laughter and conversation in the kitchen, with the twang of spoon, stirring in the tea cup, the smell of morning tea and hot frenchy toast. Gwiboon couldn’t help but got up as her stomach growled. Still in messy hair, white short and blue tank top, yawning while walking down the stair.

“Gwiboon?”

She widened her eyes, suddenly fully awaken when she saw Mrs.Lee was sitting with her mom, having breakfast together.

“Oh.. Mrs. Lee” she bowed.

Jinki’s mother was an honored woman. She worked for government as a head of cultural local department who at the same time worked as an artist in her own studio, painting hundred of pictures and most of them were sold in good price, she also did well running the business.  She remembered the first time she met her was when she was a young kid and Jinki took Gwiboon to his house to show his new series of his super heroes card collection, Gwiboon was bored looking at the card and suggested to play hide and seek instead. So Jinki counted and Gwiboon ran looking for a place to hide, and she entered this room with many paintings. She was mesmerized by the beautiful paintings there and accidentally pushed one of them, causing it broke and made a mess everywhere. Gwiboon wanted to cry when Jinki’s mother came in, looking at her with this fierce look for destroying one of her painting. If it’s not because of Jinki who came and begged her mother not to blame and get angry at Gwiboon, she would probably have killed her there. Even though after that, she always welcomed Gwiboon in such friendly eyes whose were similar to Jinki’s, but she still had this guilty feeling whenever she’s around her.

“Oh My Good, Gwi…  wear a proper dress! Go back to your room and get change” her mother screamed. But Mrs. Lee just let a small laugh.

“Na young-ah, please don’t scold your daugther. It’s okay, Gwiboon are you hungry? Come here and let’s have breakfast together. Your mother is so kind offering me to have a tea when I just come to bring her cookies”

Gwiboon slowly walked to the dinning table, pulling out a chair and sat there. She took three toasts, grabbed a glass of milk and ate them eagerly. Mrs.Lee only let out a soft chuckle when her mother tsk-ed her. They continued talking and let Gwiboon devoured her breakfast.

“Has Jonghyun found a university yet?” Mrs. Lee asked.

“He said he’s looking for music school, it’s his dream to be a composer and he gets full support from his father.” she sipped her tea, sighing deep. “As a mother, I can only grant his wish by giving my blessing”

“That’s good. I have always thought Jonghyun can do better in music. He can be a success composer” Mrs. Lee complimented.

“Oh, I heard Jinki is accepted in Seoul University through scholarship program?”

Gwiboon almost choked as Jinki’s name mentioned.

“Yes, he is. We are so happy upon this news when the letter arrived two days ago. But Jinki doesn’t seem happy recently even after the letter came”

“What? Oh.. dear Why? But he’s still not going to turn it down, right?”

“No, of course he’s not going to throw that chance away. Entering that university has always been his dream. Both my husband and I even didn’t know that he has applied to it before. It’s just, I don’t know… since couple of weeks, Jinki rarely talks and looks so restless”

“that’s strange… Gwiboon also turns into this quiet person since these days… or it’s have been couple weeks too?” her mother looked at her, but then shrugged, “but maybe because she’s been sick. You know, unniee… at the beginning of summer, Gwiboon usually gets sick”

“Ohh…” Mrs Lee looked at her suspiciously. Gwiboon really wanted to leave now, but she still wanted to know about Jinki from this conversation. Seoul University, huh?

“But Jinki definitely will go. My husband and I have rented a good apartment with good price not very far from the university. I’m sure Jinki will like it. We are so proud of him. He will be a doctor” Mrs. Lee continued sharing her happiness.

“Whoaa… I’ve always wanted to be a doctor” responded Mrs. Kim.

“He has been packing up his stuff since yesterday” Jinki’s mother nodded while taking a sip of her own tea, “He is going to Seoul tomorrow”

Gwiboon coughed violently.

“Gwiboon, are you alright?” there’s a concern in Mrs. Lee’s eyes. Gwiboon raised her hand, motioning them that she’s okay. She then excused herself, taking her tray and put it down in the kitchen sink. She stopped there, breathing. There she could hear her mom and Mrs. Lee’s talking. She heard Jinki would probably stay there for couple of years until he graduated, then Mrs. Lee talked about his son’s plan to stay and live in Seoul, applying for master program and a job in hospital. She sighed that her son probably will not be back to Daegu and chooses to live in the capital city.

“And I said to him that he should find a girl soon. I even said if he finds a girl he likes in university and they want to stay together in Jinki’s apartment, then they can stay together. I believe in my son’s taste of girl. He will look for a decent, smart and pretty. You know, as a mother who only has one son, I will not wish him to not marry someone. I want to have a grandchild before I turn 70. I heard women in Seoul are classy and very attractive.”

Gwiboon accidentally crashed a glass to the floor, it clanked loudly and just enough to get the mothers attention back to her.

“Oh my God Gwiboon, are you okay?” her mother hurriedly came to her, holding her trembling shoulder. “that’s okay, sweet... i’ll take care this.” She whispered.

Gwiboon stepped back as her mother taking up all the mess, “Gwiboon, are you hurt?” Mrs. Lee turned her around, touching her arms, shoulder, cheeks, bassically checking her up.

“I...i’m okay... i’m not hurting” she jittered. Mrs. Lee looked at her face in relieved. “I... I need to go back to my room. Excuse me”

Gwiboon bowed, pulling herself out of Jinki’s mother warm hold and ran back to her room.

Maybe, after Jinki moved to Seoul, he would easily forget his crush on her and immediately forget her. Gwiboon stiffed as she closed the door, slumping her body down against it. Oh my god, what is she going to do now?

---

She’s not doing anything. Just there laying on her bed, tousling her bedsheet as she just rolled over the bed here and there. Some time, she just looking out of the picture she kept on her tab, sliding one picture to another, pictures which only contained of her and Jinki together. How happy she looks and how bright Jinki’s smile there. She got up from her bed and peeked up through her curtain, looking secretly at Jinki’s room. Light was still on, Jinki hadn’t slept. Should she called him now, telling him that she’s sick and she wanted him to come over to entertaint her? Gwiboon wouldn’t complain for a kiss too actually.

Then the lamp was off, and Gwiboon knew Jinki was going to sleep now. She sighed, walking back to her bed and looking straight to the ceiling. But not until a minute, her phone rang. She checked the caller ID and surprised as it written ‘majingki’. She bulged her eyes, panic, anxious, scared, excited, she didn’t know should she pick that up or...

But she thought too long, because the next thing she knew there’s a beep sound and her voice message was on.

“hey, Gwi...” Jinki talked, “you probably have aslept now. But...” he stopped, Gwiboon listened, “I want to apologize for what i’ve done to you the last time. I know i shouldn’t do such thing to you. It was rude” there’s a silent and Gwiboon wanted so bad to pick the line up. “You might hate me now, i don’t blame you. I understand, it was my fault. The thing is, i still can’t grant your wish to love Taeyeon back because my heart has belonged to someone else and you know who it is”

“But Gwi...” he said again, “it’s not important anymore about my feeling. I just wish... I wish you a happiness for everything you have choosen that you think the best for you. As a friend... “Jinki stopped there, before he continued, “a friend who have known you since you were a little girl, crying over your brother for never asking you to play along, there’s nothing i want but your happiness. So, in the future i would love to see you showing off to me how happy you are.” Gwiboon heard a soft sighed came from Jinki as he paused, “tomorrow i’ll start my new life in Seoul, as university student and hopefully it will also help me to move on. I have ruined our friendship. Seeing you is not anymore comfortable as it was before because of the guilt that always appears after that time, and i know you also avoid me because of that. So i just wanna say, i’m sorry and good luck in your senior year. I will miss you. Good bye, Gwiboon”

There’s a click and Gwiboon later realized Jinki had ended the voice message. Gwiboon stared at her phone, and without even thinking she dialed Jinki’s number back, only to know that Jinki had turn off his phone. She couldn’t call him back and she began to panic, again. No, she had to do something. She just couldn’t let Jinki getting rid his feeling to her that easily.

It was 01.30 am and her parents were falling asleep in their room, Gwiboon tip-toed from her bedroom to the front door, grabbing Jonghyun’s lousy Jacket and only with her bunny slipper she ran out her house and headed straight to Jinki’s. It was dark and so quiet as people were sleeping soundly in their houses. Gwiboon shivered at the cold but he kept running, eyes focused on Jinki’s room there and when she arrived, she looked up hoping that Jinki would came out but no, his room was dark and it’s impossible for her to bang on the front door. She wouldn’t want to wake up Jinki’s parents there. Gwiboon was thinking, or more so… memorizing. There was a ladder, linked to the 2^nd floor balcony next to Jinki’s room, wasn’t it? She walked few steps aside, bursting out through the hedgerows and she almost jumped in joy when she found it there, buried in those green plants wall. She climbed up the ladder carefully, jumping to the balcony and settling through the wall and not until 10 minutes later, she was already in front of Jinki’s bedroom window. She knocked it once, no reply, then twice, still no reply, third time she knocked it was harder that before and the next thing she saw was Jinki lifted up the glass of his window, widening his eyes in disbelief as he saw the other girl was shaking up in cold standing in his room’s balcony.

“Oh My God, Gwiboon what are you..?” Jinki immediately jumped out from the window, taking Gwiboon’s hands and pulling her inside. It wasn’t hard because Gwiboon was light and Jinki was too strong with his grip, not letting Gwiboon out of his hand.

“what are you doing?” he scolded her in whisper, not wanting to make a noisy sound as his parents were sleeping downstair, “How can you get there? Did you climb up the wall? What are you thinking? You could fall down there!”

Jinki had pulled her inside his room by then, closing the window, almost shut it in force. Gwiboon could see that Jinki was mad, but there’s concern in his eyes. Like when her mother scolded her after she was lost in mall, founded by security and her mother couldn’t stop being angry, blaming her for not listening to her when she was told to not being too far from her, but at the same time when her mother was scolding her, she was also crying. Gwiboon made a promise that she wouldn’t make her mother mad and cry again after that.

Now she saw Jinki being like that too, and she couldn’t blame him for behaving that way. This was just her being foolish, yes she didn’t think what would happen to her if she fell down while climbing up. But did she care about it now?

Gwiboon didn’t want to listen nor explain why she’s willing to run, only on her slipper and still in pyjama and Jonghyun’s lousy jacket just to get to Jinki’s room in the middle of the night. She stopped thinking why she did this as she clasped Jinki’s body, burrying her face on his chest, crying.

She could feel Jinki was startled by her action, but slowly she also sensed Jinki’s breath relaxed as he held her back, putting his jaw on her head and carressed her hair softly.

“Did you do this for me?” Jinki asked softly, which was only replied by a weak nod from the girl. Jinki tightened his hold on her.

“you wanna forget me?” Gwiboon sobbed on his chest, “you want to leave me?”

Jinki pulled her from his body, cupping her cheeks with both of his hand, lifting up her face to get her eyes looked at his, “How can i forget you, silly.” He smiled, poking her nose with his forefinger.

“But you will leave”

“You know it’s going to happen anyway sooner or later. I can’t live with my parents forever”

Gwiboon looked away. Jinki was right, he had future and Gwiboon wouldn’t be the one who stand in his path and restrain him. But at the same time, she was afraid she would loss him. The thought of not seeing Jinki everyday had created a pain in her chest.

“C’mon Gwiboon, i’ll take you home” Jinki was about to release his body from her but she quickly pulled him back.

“No, Jinki” she shook her head, “I wanna stay here, can i?”

“But your parents...”

Gwiboon shook her head again, “We haven’t talked in a month, haven’t seen each other for a while and tomorrow you are going to leave already, please Jinki... i wanna...” Gwiboon was hesitant, “I wanna spend tonight just to be with you”

Jinki eyes softened a bit and a smile tugged on his lips, “okay...”

Gwiboon replied him with a smile before she turned, holding Jinki and led him to bed. Soon, they were lying together on Jinki’s bed, facing each other face, not doing anything just simply looking at each other eyes with smile on their face.

“Jinki...”

“Hmm...”

Gwiboon breathed, moving closer and made herself comfortable on his bed, “I love you too”

Jinki stopped breathing as he heard it from Gwiboon’s lips. He blinked once, twice... “But Minho...”

Gwiboon frowned as the name mentioned, “Minho?”

“I saw you with him that day, your head were on his shoulder and.... oh...” there was like a click written on his face, “you and Minho aren’t....”

“what are you talking about?” Gwiboon sighed, “Minho was losing the ball and i happened to be there crying and since i had no someone to cry on to, i just borrow his shoulder”

“Oh...” Jinki looked like a kid who just discovered an answer from his teacher about why there’s a rainbow after the rain back in his play group class, “but why were you crying?”

“I was crying because...” Gwiboon blushed, “I saw your picture with Taeyeon as King and Queen Prom and i was jealous, it was hurt you know...”

Gwiboon regreted her confession as she saw Jinki giggled. “So you really love me then”

The girl rolled her eyes, still blushing she turned her back and pouted. But then she felt Jinki slid his hand around her waist, hugging her from behind as his nose snuggled on her back of neck, breathing softly. It was warm and Gwiboon couldn’t help but squeal inside. Her heart was beating so fast.

“I’m sorry, i should have confessed to you earlier”

“then why didn’t you?” Gwiboon asked, still pouting, “It would be easier for us if you confessed so that i could claim you as my boyfriend since the beginning. I have been waited for you to tell me you love me since....”

“since...?”

“i don’t know, probably since i got my first period” Gwiboon blushed at her own words. Oh my God it was embarrassing. Gwiboon was about to hide her face on the pillow when Jinki crooked her face on her shoulder deeper, ghosting his lips on her skin that made her shivered.

“Jonghyun told me not to confess before you turn 19”

Gwiboon immediately rolled her body, now facing Jinki with a shock on her face, “that dino forbid you to date me or what??”

“No, it’s not like that” Jinki tried to explain, “it’s just... there’s a time, probably 5 years ago Jonghyun came to me and told me that we need to have this ‘adult talk’ and there he said if i want to date you, i have to wait until you turn 19”

Gwiboon couldn’t believe this, “who does he think the he is? He’s going to be the reason why i haven’t married until i got 40” she scoffed.

But Jinki pulled her head towards his chest, calming her down as he kissed her head lovingly, “don’t be mad, he just wants to make sure you won’t get tainted because he loves you. And i just help him to protect you” said him.

“But i guess i can’t control myself when i kissed you that morning” Jinki looked at her as she looked up, “i’m sorry Gwiboon”

“I-I think...” she stuttered “I think i’m adult enough to kiss someone. I’m not a little girl anymore. Well, i can’t be forever a little girl, right?”

“Does it mean...” Jinki smirked, “You are okay if i kiss you now?”

“stop it...” she hissed, “don’t talk and just do it”

Jinki chuckled noticing the blush on her face and didn’t want Gwiboon to wait, Jinki leaned on and kissed her gently. Gwiboon knew this time Jinki went slow, and she enjoyed it when Jinki nipped her lips teasingly. Gwiboon didn’t say she’s fast learner but she somehow ended up kissing him back, giving him the same treatment of kissing and soon the shy and gentle kiss turned into hot and steamy as Gwiboon reached the back of Jinki’s hair while the older pulled her closer, pressing her body up to his with hands gropping inside of her shirt, caressing her waist up to her back. When Gwiboon moaned, Jinki rolled his body and lifted Gwiboon so that she was on top of him, intensifying the kiss as one oh his hand moved down to her and gave her a light squeeze. Moans and pants were filling Jinki’s room along with the sound of kissing. Gwiboon had thought once that kissing was gross but now she must disagree on that. Because kissing Jinki was nice and addicting. And it gave her this indescribable kind of pleasure when Jinki rolled their position so that he’s now on top of her, kissing and hard on her neck. There’s nothing Gwiboon could do but arching her body and turned her face aside, giving Jinki so much access to explore and bite her neck deeper. Jinki’s lips came back to her lips after minutes, spoiling her with more and more kissing. But it was just getting to much to handle when Gwiboon rubbed her thigh against Jinki’s and her hold on his biceps was getting tighter as she let out those whimpers.

“Gwiboon” Jinki whispered as he pulled out, looking at her face. Gwiboon looked hot and bothered, her lips were swollen due to much kissing, moister and still inviting. “We have to stop or this will lead to something that is more serious” he said.

Gwiboon frowned, still panting as if she just lost a lot oxygen after the kiss. But when she felt something hard pressing on her crotch, she knew what he meant.

“I’m sorry...” Gwiboon blushed. Jinki rolled his body back laying on her side, letting out a heavy sigh as he tried to calm down, closing his eyes as he breathed. Gwiboon observed him ad soon when Jinki’s relaxed, Gwiboon snuggled on his body like a cat.

Jinki turned his head to Gwiboon and smiled as he welcomed her body on his arm, “can we just cuddle because i think that was enough” he pointed to the kissing, “it’s amazing though, but we have to stop”

Gwiboon snuggled closer as she nodded, closing her eyes and sighed in content. Although Gwiboon wanted so bad to continue whatever it led to, but she appreciated her now-boyfriend to stop it before it got too far and just gave up when Jinki pulled her in his embrace. It felt warm and safe, Gwiboon wanted to be there forever. They both fell asleep then, in each other arms and fingers grasping to one another, telling that they wanted to be as close as they could be, and since it’s probably their last time they would spend together before her leaving tomorrow, Gwiboon was happy. She just never thought Jinki’s bed could be so much warmer than her own.

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Mrs.Lee hugged her son almost too tight when the train was about to depart, refusing to release him just yet. But a pat from her husband eventually made her realized that she couldn’t hold her only son any longer. Her father gave a warm hug and whispered him a good luck. Jinki turned and saw Jonghyun and Gwiboon were standing not too far next to his parents. Jinki walked to them as Jonghyun smiled at him, then they hugged like an old friends. Gwiboon watched her brother and boyfriend laughed, bidding each other goodbye with silly jokes. Those dumbs...

Jinki then reached Gwiboon’s hand and took him a little bit far from Jonghyun and his parents, not wanting that whatever Jinki wanted to talk to Gwiboon, would be heard by them.

“Be a good girl as long i’m not here” he grasped her hand, “You are going to come after me in Seoul next year, right?”

Gwiboon nodded in assurance, “I just need to study harder”

“You can do it, Taeyeon will help you” he sent her his loving eyes, brushing her neck with his hand gently “if only my parents and Jonghyun weren’t there watching us, i would just kiss you here right now” he chuckled, remembering what happened in the morning when his mother was about to wake him up but also saw sleeping Gwiboon was hidden under the blanket in Jinki’s arm. They both blushed when they opened their eyes, knowing Mrs.Lee had already there with arms folded. But Jinki’s mother didn’t say anything when Jinki told her that he’s going to take Gwiboon home, nor Gwiboon’s mother when she opened the door only to find Jinki holding Gwiboon’s as he told her that Gwiboon had slept over in his room last night.

But Gwiboon was too bother to care to think what might his parents thought about them because the next thing she did was pulled Jinki’s collar jacket and crashed her lips against him. There’s a loud gasp coming from Jinki’s mother but it didn’t stop them from latching their lips as Jinki kissed her back, smiling against hers.

“Yah Stop snogging there. Your train is gonna leave” Jonghyun disturbed. Gwiboon made a note that she’s going to bury Jonghyun’s guitar later when they got home.

Jinki giggled at her as they remoted their lips, Gwiboon blushed even harder now and decided to hide it by hugging Jinki as if it was their last time. She made him promised that he would call her every night.

When Jinki had left, Mrs. Lee came to her. Gwiboon was about to feel she’s going to get killed with the thought Mrs. Lee would probably not happy with the idea of her son and Gwiboon together not as friend but more than that. But she just held her hands and with smile slowly tugged on her lips, “i’ve never seen my son looks so happy again until he had you on his bed this morning” she said, “Jinki has told me you two didn’t do anything last night, and i’m so relieved for that.” She breathed, turning her head to her husband for a while who was now also smiled at her next to her, “but i wanna thank you for giving my son’s smile back”

Gwiboon smiled in content when she hugged her, knowing that she got her bless now was very important. She couldn’t be happier now.

But then when they came home, Gwiboon still had to deal with Jonghyun's annoying teasings, or more she had to give him a lesson for making Jinki promised not to confess to her before she turned 19. She’s going to make him regret for making that rule for her. She smirked when she glanced at his favorite guitar. Any scratch here or there on that thing wouldn’t make him mad that bad, right?