After calming down a bit I decide to go back to my room.

Maybe sleeping will help me feel better.

But the tears just won't stop flowing.

Every time I try to close my eyes I see her face.

It's driving me crazy.

Please let me sleep.

I want to forget everything and just stop thinking.

Sleep is the feeling that makes me feel closest to being dead...

And that's exactly what I want to be right now.

I jump out of my bed and my feet lead me upstairs... to the rooftop.

Once I'm there I stand close to the edge.

I look down and see the busy streets.

Tears start streaming down my face again.

Jung Soojung.

The name that makes me feel like I'm being bathed in chocolate sauce but at the same time like my heart is being pierced with daggers.

If we can't be together when we're alive... let's be together when we're dead.

1, 2, 3, 4...

I love you Jung Soo-

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?"

Huh?

This voice sounds kind of familiar.

Curious I turn around but I don't recognize the person.

But after taking a closer look my eyes immediately widen.

"Ms Jung? What are you doing here?"

"Get down. You're going to hurt yourself."

"I'm sorry but how did you even get into my house?"

"What do you mean how?

I have the key and now come down, please. Let's talk about it.

Suicide is never the solution."

"Why do you care?

We don't even know each other so please just leave me alone."

"What do you mean we don't know each other? Please come down.

I'm begging you."

By now tears are streaming down Ms Jung's face.

I look at her in shock.

Why would she cry for me?

"Ms Jung. You shouldn't cry for a stranger you know."

"Stop talking nonsense. Have you become crazy or something?

Look into my face and say you don't know me again."

I look into her eyes intensely but I still can't figure it out.

"Well, you're Ms Jung.

But that still doesn't mean that we're associated in any way."

The woman in front of me breaks out in heavy sobs now.

"Stop calling me Ms Jung.

I'm your mother.

Do you understand?"

I stare at her in shock.

Is this woman crazy or something?

"B-b-but...

No!

You're Soojung's mother.

You're the one talking nonsense right now."

She sighs heavily and I can see her shivering visibly.

"You...

are...

Soojung."

W-w-what?

This must be some kind of joke right?

Why does my body feel so weak all of a sudden?

My surroundings become blurrier and blurrier until finally everything turns black.

Am I dead...

or asleep?

Whatever state I'm in right now, I hope I never have to wake up again.

Good-night.