June's lovenote
Love Song in MayFirst of all, uhh...hello~
Thank you for reading. Although i seem to only have two readers/five subscribers, i'm so happy i even have two readers who commented. xD
Secondly...
do you find this fic very incomplete/too weird/random/crappy?
Cuz you know...i was struggling n rushing to end this by May.
The title was inspired by a song i was randomly listening to n love...so i thought i should dedicate a fic to it...xD
Now....i'm confused by my own story....@_@
bcuz i didn't decide who he is at first...
i want him to be a figure of hope that seems like fantasy.
but then i gave him too much personality.
the original draft of his character is just mysteriously challenging her in quiet, passive way, but he did it in err, noisy/straightforward way. so i got lost in my own characterization....
i think it's because i start to imagine this and that idol from random groups...whoever could fit into the character, as i build him...but really, can you think of anyone who could fit? any group...i just want to know who you imagine when reading him...doesn't even have to be someone i know...lol
it'd be easier if i made him without much personality colour.
and her.
well, i'm not as old and frustrated as her so i obviously am no good at portraying her psychological state of mind accurately...but i tried to imagine...huhu...
she's old(well, kind of) and lonely, matured or tried to be, even if she's not really that matured, she tried to be, because that's what she's supposed to be. i'm not sure about in real life though. i think...ahh, i don't want to think about it....i don't want to imagine myself being old i'm already kind of older than most ppl here....it'll eventually come...T^T....let me enjoy my remnants of youth lol.
and i can't refer to any drama actresses either cuz they're gorgeous even being 40...lol. i tried to look around for unmarried/single women in my society and imagine their inner feelings, though mostly they looked fine on the outside n not inferior in anyway...but of course they won't show it...
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