You build me up and I fall apart.

- Christina Perri "Human"

Sigh. Today is the day. The day he's gonna take her to a romantic cruise and a dinner at the dock.

I dont want to go out, but i have to check if everything in order .Who brought me home last night? I cant remember. Oh well. So I took a bath and head out.

All afternoon I assigned and tell people whats supposed to happen and where things should be place. At around 4:30 in the afternoon Ji came in to check the place and the yatch.

"Dee" He greeted with a boyish smile.

"Hi Ji, so any feedback?" 

"It's perfect Dee, Thank you so much" He held my hand and squeezed it. I nodded in acknowledgement. He then excused himself to check on the yatch. 

I didn't realized that I feel asleep, until Driver Lee tapped my shoulders.

"Omo, What time is it?" I asked groggily.

"It's 6:50 Dara, we should head home so you can continue resting."

"Aniyo, I wanna watch the thing unfold. You can go home now Lee-Appa" I said while smiling.

"Are you sure? Call me Sandara if you need any help going him arrasseo?" He said and I nodded in reply. So i bid Lee-Appa Goodbye and hid behind the trees and saw him arrive with his white bentley.

Its like everything is in slow motion. Nah kidding. He wet out the car and opened her door. She's really a work of art isnt she? She's perfect for him, not like me who's not Girly but Geeky. They look so perfect together. I cant take this anymore. No more. I clutch my shirt rumpling my shirt. After I saw him kissed her forehead and whisper something in her ear. I lost it. 

I ran away, away from him, from them. I end up stopping at a playground. 

I laugh bitterly. How cliche huh? Ended up in a playground. So should i cry my heart out now? Yea thats a good plan. I'm going crazy right? Maybe Its not just a Crush. Not an Admiration. Not love. But Obsession. Yea. I'm obsessed. 

I sat on the swing and stared at the sky while crying. This the end for me i guess. I should stop this now. He loves her not me. I cried my hearts out, then out of nowhere it started raining. 

Great just ing great. I love my life. Damn it.