Not A Wrong Hope
Wrong Hope"how is it? Did she like the gift? Is she happy? What are you talking about to her? "Many of the questions Minhwan asked to Seunghyun when he home. But Seunghyun didn’t answer, he lay down on the couch, covered his face with a hat.
"Seunghyun? she didn’t like it? Or .... "
"My job has been completed, now she can go back to that person. I'm happy if she happy. "Minhwan who had been interested to hear Seunghyun story, instantly limp, he never saw Seunghyun all this down. He rarely heard maknae complained about his love problems, he just knows Seunghyun who can smile at any moment.
"If she is yours, she will come back to you." Said him, patted Seunghyun shoulder
"Yes, one day she will come back to me."
Sohyun entered the dorm without a voice, not wanting to wake her unnies and told her love story is over. She entered the room slowly. She laid on her mattress again. Everything is gone.
"Don’t complain if it hurts." Sohyun understand the meaning of IlHoon’s words now, she knew she was stupid, until whenever she wasn’t going to get what she should have.
"This your Rilakkuma that missing right?" JiHyun saw Rilakkuma's favorite Sohyun doll has returned, she found it in a box unwrapped gifts.
"Oh, yes." JiHyun raising eyebrows while looking Sohyun just sat in the bed. She should be happy, to find it, but JiHyun felt nothing wrong of her maknae,
"How it was, Yesterday? What did Seunghyun talk about?"Bam! Sohyun tried hard to forget it, forget how Seunghyun leave. Sohyun didn’t answer, she looked back tears that flow automatically when she heard his name. JiHyun immediately stood up hugged Sohyun, she knew her maknae been through hard times lately.
"Everything will be okay." She Sohyun’s back that very weak in Jihyun arms.
"Losing more painful than I thought. What do I do now unnie?"She sobbed told how person who had helped her so far to stand up again, but suddenly left her alone. JiHyun who couldn’t bear to saw maknae’s sorrow tried to calm her down,
"If he really likes you, there must be a reason he did this." She replied.
Today with empty heart, Sohyun started work, she didn’t know how to live the next day, tried to smiled in front of everyone to the invisibility stronger, but she was completely vulnerable. Today she decided to stay in the studio together with IlHoon,
"Hey." Ilhoon yelled at his friend, but he saw his friend that come with a sour face and not passionate. He saw Sohyun just put her bag on the couch just like that, then covered her face,
"What's wrong? Are you tired? Do you have a busy schedule? "Sohyun nodded to avoid questions that would lead to Seunghyun.
"I'll get you a drink." Ilhoon immediately went out to the CUBE café, while she took a deep breath, she could at least lie on Ilhoon, if Ilhoon know it all, it must be painful for him. She sat stared at the empty studio, without her request that place reminded her of memories with the young guitarist. She took a box of gifts given from Seunghyun, that she hasn’t touched it, even though she knows the thing in it. She slowly opened it as though it were the most precious thing. She took the keychain, but she was shocked find other stuff in the box. A flashdisk. And she rose from her place and plug the flash was on the computer. She opened the folder named "Kwon Sohyun." Apparently there was a file inside, a song titled, "Meeting." She was played a song, listen to the song through the headset nervously.
In the evening clear sky with shine lights that rise up and fall like soft waves
Jonyog muryob nouri mulgyolchinun hanure
I had see you crying with the bits from your heart
mundug ulgo itdon gudeui geu mosubi tto olla
How are you now? Are you really happy like this?
jal issonnayo hengboghangayo
The secret yearning that I've hidding is spilling out through with my young tears
samkhyowatdon gurium nunmullo hullo
Is it still time? For your back
ajigingayo nege onun gil
And if I wait just few more days, will you come back to me?
myot bamul do semyon onayo
I truily believe in that promise that you've did to me saying that you'll come back to me
Doraondadon gu yagsog midgo itjyo
Is it still time? For your back
ajigingayo nege onun gil
And it's all about that time when you came
ijenun ol ttedo dwennunde
Please, I beg you, don't be too late to back
nomu nudjinun marayo
We don't have much time to fell our love
saranghal shigani juljanhayo
The person whon had saw you as they've passed by away
Jinachida gunyorul bwassotdanun saramun
They said to me that they've remembered of you who was always smiling
manhi udgo itdon yeppojin gunyol giog handeyo
They've asked to me if you're okay, than they've asked if you're happy also
jal issonneyo hengboghenneyo
It's a part from how much yo're doing it so well
gogjongboda jal jine dahengieyo
Is it still time? For your back
ajigingayo nege onun gil
Had you forgotten me and our moments?
hogshina nal ijoganayo
There no way that you could have or choice, you had told me that you loved me
Gurolli objyo saranghan detjanhayo
Is it still time? For your back
Ajigingayo nege onun gil
Will you come back to me after you leave all the things that are busying you?
bappun il kkuthnamyon onayo
So don't worry, cause even if you back a little late
gogjong mayo jom nujodo
I'll still be here waiting for you
yogiso nega gidarilgeyo
All people always say sorry when they leave out
ttonal ttenun da mianheso da
And also lie when they say that will come back, but you're different from them
doraol duthandedo guden darujyo
Is it still time? For your back
Ajigingayo nege onun gil
And if I wait just few more days, will you come back to me?
myot bamul do semyon onayo
I truily believe in that promise that you've did to me saying that you'll come back to me
doraondadon gu yagsog midgo itjyo
Is it still time? For your back
ajigingayo nege onungil
And it's all about that time when you came
ijenun olttedo dwennunde
Please, I beg you, don't be too late to back
nomu nudjinun marayo
We don't have much time to fell our love
saranghal shigani juljanhayo
tears that she had been tried to held, finally fell away. Every word in that song, has a deep meaning. “is this that you want to say all this time, why did you just say that?"
"Ekhm ... Do you hear me?" Sohyun eyes wide open knew voice that she missed talk to,
"Hey, ah .... This is actually your birthday gift, I'm sorry to say this late. Happy Birthday Kwon Sohyun. I hope you get a lot of happiness in this year, may your will be achieve. I hope you're getting tall and adult. "Seunghyun chuckled briefly, Sohyun glad to hear his voice, the tears that continued to fall as she smiled broadly, as if actually Seunghyun was talking in front of her. She really missed to hear Seunghyun’s chuckle.
"Do you remember the day we first met? you short-haired girl, greeted every person in the music event, with your sweet smile .... You gave a smile at all, but then I regretted that I couldn’t get your greet, because I had to go on stage. After the show and announcement of the winner of that week, and it was your group, you cried. Crying like a child innocent and naive, I did see it, really wanted to congratulate you. But I don’t have enough courage to say hello,even to see you I just felt I couldn’t. However you cried behind a bright smile, because your smile I smile, too, I don’t know why.. the reason .... "
"From that day I kept tried to find information about you, borrowed notebook from Minhwan and searched on the internet, and was wondering on your friends. Kwon Sohyun her name, she was born on August 30, 1994, likes white color, her favorite food is sushi, like men who don’t have eyelid and taller than her, she was an artist when she was child .... I forgot what next, but from all that I don’t know, I know one thing. She the most innocent girl I've ever met, she was very gentle, she will reply when someone , she is brave, rarely showing tears, she would cry when happy. She can’t lie. She ..she is the person that I loved so much, and I can’t live without. Yes she's Kwon Sohyun."Seunghyun sighed, he was silent for a few minutes before continued his words,
"Also .... I hope you're pleased with him. I hope he will treat you much better than me. You must really like him, he won’t stay still like me, he'll be nice that I never did, he never thinks you like a child, he would treat you as an adult woman and can take care of yourself, but not like me, I still think you too careless to do everything by yourself, he wouldn’t argue with you he will succumb, not me, I will continue to do so until I get bored doing it, but unfortunately I never get tired of doing it with you, he won’t be cold to you, he will be a warm person, not like me the clunky, awkward, and cold with the person I loved so much ..... he also won’t give everything like I do .... I hope it's the right choice. I ... hmm .... "Seunghyun paused his throat felt choked, the words that should be it he said smoothly, stuck on the tip of his tongue.
"..... I miss you, miss you so much and it hurts to know you're not part of me anymore .... I hope you like my gift .... I love you, Kwon Sohyun. "
"Sohyun?" Sohyun didn’t hear anything, she just heard Seunghyun who was talking to her, this time Seunghyun honest with her. Seunghyun more open than ever, the confession that naive and innocent to Sohyun. Sohyun felt like want to run with her both feet into his arms, unfortunately it won’t happen.
"Sohyun
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