D-day.

I switch on my lappie and laze around my room. It's my birthday but it felt like any other day. Watching some latest movies online with my Ben&Jerry ice cream place in betweeen my legs. I look out of the widnow and sigh. *My life really right? Mum and Dad went to an urgent overseas meeting, the boys busy with their shedules, Mark... No no i think i'll try call JackJack*

~Ring Ring~ 

"Baby girl?"

"Jackie~ where are you?"

"On set babe. Text me would you? i can't answer a call actually," i sigh and end the call

To:Jackjack <3

Oppa, im sick. No company. I'm dizzy.

SENT

I giggle knowing that he would freak out and keep questioning me in 3.......2.....1

From:Jackjack <3

Really baby? I'm coming over since i cancel my schedule. Be there in 15

Hey, i might be selfish but really i need someone to talk to right now. Like girls to girls talk, exactly the same except for the fact he is a guy not a girl. A smile crept on my face being notified that someone will be here for me. I stare at the picture of all of us together, senior prom. Tears filled with happiness as i reminisce the memories that we have made back then. I watch the clock, right on time i hear the door slam from the living room. I stay motionless. I close my eyes and hope to be a woken by the friend that stays with me truth my thick and thin. I felt hand gripping my arms and shaking me like i meant the world to them. I slowly opening my eyes controlling the tears that was form earlier on.

"Come on baby girl, spit it out. And if i have to force it out, i would do anthing to pull it off your mind plus i bought more ice-cream and whipped cream" He look at me with a stern look, i soften as he gave the aura of protection. This is what i call, true friend. 

"Firstly, You know today is my birthday right? I don't blame you if you forget since you are busy. Secondly, you know its 3 days starting from today before Mark's wedding. So...., i today need some counselling from my most favourite person. May i?" I look blankly at my phone's screenlock, Me and Mark's childhood picture.

"Yeah duhhh how can i forget your birthday? there is a party tonight, perhaps a big surprise for you. I guess you need to let out the feeling about Mark right? I'm sure about it so yeah spit it all out, i'm all ears. I watch him picking up a spoonful of ice-cream and fed me. I start by telling my recent feels of Mark.

"It felt as if we were back in our childhood days till the moment he as me if im ready to let him go. My feelings go strong everyday,longing for him. Wanting him to notice me." I hit my chest and gerab the shirt. My tears spilling.

"He propose to her. Now my life is on the cliff, not knowing if its gonna end there or walk away ignoring the pain? You tell me. How am i suppose to keep this away Jackson?" i was sobbing by then.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~A/N  this is a small update will finish it up by tonight