Now.. Now.. don't give me that look again. I told you we're just friends! You know I love you, right? How I wish I could show it to you, more than just this mere letter.

Tomorrow's the big day. I suddenly feel scared. I suddenly remembered the day you dented my Car.. It is how scared I am now. Just the same way. I'm scared I lose myself here, without even seeing a glimpse of you.

Looking back our Happy times I remembered you dragging me to the beach on a winter night, holding my hand every supershows as if telling the whole world I am yours and you are mine, Telling your KyuLiners how much you love me and that you don't know what to do without me, whenever you're drunk. And you being a jealous brat never slipped into my mind.

I just wished, I've done enough to prove to you that I love you. I just hope I will still have time to fulfill the fantasies that you have always dreamed of and the little things that you asked me to do.

Remember when you begged me not to join We got married's pit-a-pat? But I didn't listen to you..

I wish, I did... you wouldn't have cried that night in your sleep.

Remember when you begged me to go to Disneyland Japan with you because you were afraid you'll get lost and won't understand them? But I didn't.. I was expecting you to ask me again, but you just flew without saying a word.

I wish I did said Yes. I realized sacrificing a schedule being with you is nothing compared to the three hurtful words you hastily threw when I rejected you.

Remember when you asked me to give you little of my time because you feel like left out in my world? I cried that night being selfish that I had to think of myself first before you. I wish I didn't give a damn of my separation anxiety attacks and just spend the rest of my days with you before enlistment.

There were things I wish I have done before leaving you.

There were things I am sorry for especially for not being with you.

But believe me, and I promise.. I will try.

I will try to survive tomorrow's battle and be with you the next day.
And if I have a chance to live tomorrow. Let's start our life to forever.

If I live tomorrow.. Make me feel you love me again.

But If not..

If not.. Baby, I'd like to let you know that I love you.

Take Care of yourself always, I'm not around to do it anymore.

Listen to Hyungs always, you know aside from myself they're the only ones who could protect you.

Never hate Umma, Appa and Ahra Noona.. because they're the only ones who could love you more than I do.

If I won't live tomorrow.. I'd just want to let you know that I tried.

Mianhae Kyuhyun-ah..

Saranghaeyo..

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          Minnie.