Chapter 2
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there you go, chapter 2. and Baby Step's not finished yet. maybe around 3 chapters more to go. enjoy - M
-Chapter 2-
Taeyeon's POV
She hangs up.
I didn’t expect her to say anything before,
I deserve it,
eventhough I saw this coming,
but that doesn’t mean it will hurt any less.
Then I heard the door closed behind me
“where have you been?,”
sunny's voice come crawling upon me,
with her soft and questionable looks,
but I can't face her right now,
I don't know if I could.
I held my gaze on the ground,
I try to collect my senses,
but then my eyes become blurry,
“taeyeon-ah, what’s wrong? Why…omo why are you crying?,”
sunny's voice went to an octave higher,
she sits herself beside me and try to comfort me,
she wipes the tears that ready to fall onto these grass,
I try to look away,
but it doesn’t work
sunny tries to pull my face at her,
when she saw the tears that's been streaming down now,
she immediately embraces me with her wide open arm,
and I just collapsed at her,
I cry my hardest,
I was sobbing my heart out
And she doesn’t say anything,
She doesn’t dare to ask anything
She is here, holding me, shooting me with a sweet-nothing,
“taeyeon-ah, whatever it is, it’s going to be fine, let’s get you home.”
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Jessica’s POV
He-eo-ji-ji mot-ha-neun yeo-ja,
ddeo-na-ga-ji mot-ha-neun nam-ja
When I check my dialer screen, I don’t expect to see her name
She called me
What do I do?
What does she want?
What do I want?
do I have to pick up?
Ignore it, just like she ignores you a thousand times before,
but why is she calling me now?
I mean, it’s a good thing right if she calls?
But why do I so worried?
What if she wants to break things up?
What if she wants to yell at me or something?
What if this is the last time I could hear her voice?
Sa-rang-ha-ji anh-neun u-ri geu-rae-seo no no no no no no
Damn, I couldn’t live with “what ifs”
“yeoboseyo.”
And I don’t hear her reply immediately,
I listen to her breath instead.
there are some background music swinging back there
Is she not in the dorm right now?
What is she doing at this hour out there?
“taeyeon?,”
I just said her name,
after a long time ago I stopped calling her name,
calling her name again brings back a burn-sweet feelings.
My voice sounds like I might break within second
It’s been awhile since I call her name
“sooyeon-aaaahhhh, thank you for picking up.”
She sounds drunk
Doesn’t she?
What is she doing right now? Gosh…. Way to go to make me worry even after what she has put me through
“taeyeon, are you drunk?,”
“no.” “maybe a little.”
She is drunk, or maybe, a little bit tipsy,
she has never been a good drink,
she couldn't drink.
or maybe she is now,
after all it was once upon a time when I knew she couldn't drink.
I try to massage my nosebridge
And relieving my breath without I realized that I’ve been holding,
“taeyeon, please go home, you never drink until this late, hell, you have never ever drunk before, where are you? who was with you?”
my tone turns to worried all of sudden, I should learn how to control myself sometimes,
“I’m with sunny. But I want to talk to you,”
Oh so sunny was dragging her to drink until this late?
We need to talk soon, sunkyu
“please give the phone to sunny, I want to talk to her, she needs to take you home, we can talk in the morn…”
“I want to talk to you, now, if I don’t say it now, I could never talk to you and I will hate myself even more.”
She sounds so nervous out of nowhere,
I don’t have a heart to say no
I have this urge to hear it
I want to hear what she needs to say
Even she has to pull some tantrum eventually
“go on, I’m listening.”
“sooyeon-ah, mianhaeyo, I’m so sorry, I’m sorry for ruining what we had, for ruining our friendship, I’m sorry for ignoring you yet you didn’t know what’s wrong, with me, you, us, and guess what? Everything’s wrong with me,”
I hold my breath, I don’t expect some apologies from her lips
And I don’t expect some confessing
I fall on the floor, wrapping my arms around my legs
Holding onto my phone tightly,
First of all,
I can’t believe she did it because she has feelings for me
There are so many ways yet she chooses to ignore me
What do I do now?
Of course I’m hurt,
if she just tell me since day 1 maybe it won’t be this messy
but I should've known she’s not that kind of person
she just hold it in to herself
she’s scared
and she doesn’t try to recognize that I do have feelings for her too
who didn’t fall for this girlto be very honest?
But I can’t take it like this,
It doesn’t feel right,
There is a line between us
“I’m truly, madly, deeply in love with you...”
This is just too much,
I feel like I need to say it back,
I want to say it back, because it’s what I feel to her
But it really doesn’t feel right
Moreover she is not in her clear state,
“would you be able to forgive me, sooyeon-ah?.”
I can’t do this over the line,
hell yeah I'm scare,
so I just hang up,
And try to call another number,
“sunny-ah, please check on taeyeon and take her home, I’m going to check on her in the morning, don’t say anything, just take her home safely, and text me when you guys get home.”
After saying not to worry, she hangs up.
I clenched my teeth and massaging my scalp,
It doesn’t feel real,
I just got a confirmation if she really has feelings for me
But what do I do now?
Even I really want to say I have feelings for her too,
I don’t want to be ignored again if it doesn’t work out,
I don’t want to go back on this state again
I just want everything went back to normal where she didn’t have those feelings to me
Where we were so happy together,
Where I just longing her from afar
Adore her from closer
At least by then, I have her on my side
But I did want her to have feelings for me back then,
I do have feelings to her
And when all my dreams come true,
Where she apologizes and return my feelings,
I don’t know what to do
And without I realize,
sleep has taken me over to another world
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