Dear Kyungsoo,

Hello. Wait, I lost my train of thought again-- Oh. How are you? I am here sitting on the bed, listening to music while writing this and watching our dog slowly falling off his bed while he is asleep. I am kind of sleepy but I really don't want to stop talking to you. 

So I was thinking..if something happened to me, how would you know? I don't mean to be gloomy or anything but it was really bothering me these last few days. You have your cousin and I am sure that if there was something wrong he would tell me. But me..I don't have anyone that knows. And I really don't trust my friend with my emails and passwords. I am thinking of this because accidents happen sadly. You never know what life will bring you and the more I think of it the more I know that I don't want to ever be your husband that just disappeared one morning. So, baby, I swear if you don't talk to me for more than five days and I haven't told you anything beforehand, think of the worst scenario possible. Because in all honestly, there is nothing else that could keep me away from you.

These thoughts passed through my mind a lot today because on the way home from that birthday party, I was the one driving. You know, I am really not a bad driver. But today on the road, a cat jumped in front of the car and thank God that I had good reflexes to stop. But I realized, that if I had no other choice, if I had to choose between the life of the cat or the my life and whoever was with me on the car, I wou