Kiseop is deeply in love with Eli for years, he couldn't confess to him until now for one major reason, he's very afraid that he'll reject him and lose him as a friend. You know how everyone says if you love your best friend, when you breakup you'll never be able to be like before, that's what Kiseop thinks, he's scared he'll break apart hopelessly. And what Kiseop doesn't know that Eli feels the same way towards him, no matter how many times Kevin tried to convince him that Eli loves him too, he refused to believe so.