Yoona's POV

I could feel the effects of alcohol running through my body, yet, I couldn't accept it. I was too stubborn to.

"I swear, I'm not drunk" I said over and over to a bunch of guys who were surrounding me, I saw Tiffany roll her eyes at me as she left me there with the guys, they just smiled or laughed at me. I couldn't help but laugh too even if there was nothing precisely funny happening right now, I have to blame that on the alcohol.

"Want to dance with me, pretty girl?" A guy whose name I don't really remember asked, I stared at him and noticed he was really handsome, there was no way on earth I would say no. 

As we were dancing I felt myself become dizzy, I pressed my hands on his shoulders since I needed to support myself onto something, I think he took it as a hint that I was up for some skinship since he didn't lose the chance to place his hands on my waist and pull me closer to his body, I just blushed.

The sober Im YoonA would've pushed him away and kicked his on the spot. The Drunk Im YoonA just blushed and acted as if she was actually enjoying it.

, I think I am really drunk.

I don't know how, when or why we started kissing, neither I have idea of when did his hands got to my , all I know is that I wanted him to stop. Right now. But it seemed like my mind was not commanding my body today, since it was working on its own. 

He separated our lips and took my hand, pulling me towards the exit of the club.

Oh . 

"Let me go! Please!" I tried to shout at him, but my voice wasn't loud enough, he was the only one who could hear me.

"Don't even try it Im YoonA" He spat at me. "I know you want it too." Before I could even respond to his statement he was kissing me again. Once again I was too weak to do anything, I wasn't responding, but I didn't do anything to stop him. Suddenly, I felt he abruptely pulled away from my lips, but his grip on my wrist became so hard it actually hurt.

I couldn't believe what I saw then, he had not pulled away from the kiss, somebody else had pulled him away from me. That somebody was no other than Seo JooHyun.

"I know you are drunk" She said looking at me, as stern as ever, "And I also know you have been ignoring me for a week." her gaze softened a bit after she saw me gasp. "But there is no ing way in hell I'm going to let you make the biggest mistake of your life by going home with this guy." Her words moved me and at the same time surprised me. She... she cursed. 

"Get out of the way nerd, unlike you" He said looking down at her, "We're gonna have one hell of a good time, aren't we?" The way he stared at me scared me but I shook my head. 

"I told you I don't want to go with you!" I screamed, he pulled me closer to him.

"You're not going anywhere but to my bed, got it?" 

Once again he was pulled back and I stared completely surprised at the next thing that happened, SeoHyun pulled him hardly towards her and punched him. Yes, SeoHyun had just punched a guy in the face.

It was freaking awesome.

He fell to the floor holding his nose and I noticed blood started falling from it and SeoHyun just shook her hand in pain. 

Then she took my hand and pulled me towards the exit. 

"Did you drive here?" She asked me rather coldly.

"I...yes" I answered, I wanted to thank her, but the words refused to roll out of my tongue.

"Could you lend me the keys? I'll drive you home". I nodded and gave her my keys. 

The trip home was awfully quiet.

...

"YoonA.." I heard a soft voice say. I was sleeping and I refused to open my eyes. I heard a familiar sigh and before I could say something I felt I was being lifted. That someone was carrying me bridal style, but I could feel he or she was having a hardtime to do it. I'm not that heavy am I? I slowly opened one of my eyes, scared of who I could find, only to see SeoHyun carrying me towards my dorm. Thank god I only lived on a second floor. 

"If you are awake" I heard her say "You should walk to your dorm, you're not heavy but you know I'm not particularly strong". 

"You should say that to the guy you punched.." I answered, while slowly getting down from her hold. 

She smiled shyly and blushed. 

Not long after that we reached my dorm room, since she had my key she opened the door and I walked in, I noticed she stopped moving, she took my hand and left my keys on the back of my hands.

"Well, now that you're home I've to go back home, don't want you to feel uncomfortable with me, I'm calling Hyo-unnie or a cab, whichever answers first" Seo said simply, but I held her wrist and shook my head.

"You're staying here."

"YoonA... you've been ignoring all of us, you've been ignoring me for the past week, I'm aware that you don't like the fact that I'm a lesbian, so I am saving you from the pain of having to be with me" The hurt and pain was palpable on her words, I couldn't help but feel guilty.

"Look... I'm sor-" She cut me off.

"Let's talk about this when you're sober, okay?" She said while looking directly into my eyes. "I don't want you to regret this tomorrow."

"Stay" I said simply. "So we can talk when I wake up."

She looked doubtfully at me, but nodded, I was really glad she accepted staying with me. 

I made my way to my bedroom and she followed behind me.

"Where do you keep your blankets?" She asked softly. "It's cold in your living room." 

I wanted to tell her that she could sleep with me on my bed that I wanted her to cuddle with me until we both fell asleep and I was about to tell it to her, but I knew I shouldn't, it must really be just the alcohol thinking.

"It's over there." I said pointing were I kept my blankets while I changed into some pijamas. "If you want you can wear some of my pijamas, though I'm not sure they'll fit you." I continued talking.

"Are you calling me fat?" She asked me while holding some blankets and a pillow. A very cute expression was plastered on her face.

"No, I'm just saying your body is very well developed." She widened her eyes and blushed at my comment. I couldn't help but wonder if this was really the alcohol talking and why the hell would I be checking her out right now.

"Well... thanks, I suppose." She said taking some shorts and a tanktop from my drawer. 

She stepped out of the room and closed the door. I layed on my bed and started to drift off to sleep while the face of the girl sleeping on my couch filled my thoughts.

...

"Ugh." 

I groaned as I opened my eyes. I knew I shouldn't have drank yesterday. 

"YoonA" I heard a voice calling me from the doorframe. "I already cooked breakfast, come when you feel like eating" I nodded, avoiding her gaze, I really shouldn't have gotten drunk yesterday. "By the way... I left you a glass of water and an aspirin on the nightstand next to you, I also made coffee." 

"For someone who doesn't drink, you know quite a lot about how to take care of a hangover." I muttered softly.

"I live with Hyo-unnie, of course I know a lot about taking care of a hangover person." I could hear the smile in her words but I couldn't meet her gaze.

What the heck was I thinking yesterday? Why did I let her come here? 

I should have asked her to leave. 

I don't have anything about people being homoual, really, it's just that... when I heard SeoHyun was a lesbian I couldn't help but feel... inmensily happy, I was so happy in fact, that I confused myself. I mean, why would I be happy that my childhood friend was a lesbian? the only logical conclusion I could get to was that I liked her.

I felt my head throb harder now.

I took the aspirin and drank the water, my mind ran thoroughly around the events of last night, hoping that I didn't give her any hint that I liked her. I was glad I didn't. I know this will go away eventually, because I don't like girls, it's just a silly crush on her, I know it. I suddenly remember something. 

"Let's talk about this when you're sober, okay? I don't want you to regret this tomorrow."

"Stay. So we can talk when I wake up."

Damn, this was what I feared would happen if I continued to han out with her...talk to her about it and I know it'll result in one of two things. 

Either I tell her what I feel for her or push her out of my life completely.

It's either do or die now... To die has never sounded so inviting.

...

After readying myself I finally found the courage to get out of my room.

SeoHyun was sitting on the couch, casually reading the book she used to leave here so she had something to read while she spent time with me, the shorts she wore hugged her hips perfectly and made it easy to stare at her perfectly shaped legs, the tank top had a revealing v-neck that invited me to take a closer look to the younger girls' cleavage. I averted my gaze from her and sighed. I continued walking towards the table where I just sat. Not uttering a single word.  She looked up at me and smiled sadly, she stood up and walked to the kitchen not long after that she brought me a plate full of food.

"I know you're a heavy eater so I cooked a lot." She sat right in front of me and I noticed her plate didn't even had half of what there was on mine, but it was no surprise though, since she had cooked pancakes, eggs, bacon and all of those were not part of her healthy diet.

Wanting to avoid exchanging any kind of conversation with her, I just ate fastly, literally shoving the food down my throat.

"Whoa, seems like someone's hungry." She said with a light giggle, I just glared at her in return, she stopped giggling and gasped, she continued eating and made no other attempt in having a conversation with me until we both finished.

"I knew I shouldn't have stayed." She stated while standing up from her seat. "I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable, you just... I forgot for a second that you were..." she stopped talking, looking for the correct word to describe it."disgusted by who I am." If only you knew SeoHyun-ah.

She took her clothes from next to the couch and entered the bathroom to change clothes.

I didn't want her to be mad at me... I wanted her with me. But I knew it'd be hard to forget about her if she was here all the time... but I knew, that I couldn't live without her.

She stepped out of the bathroom and passed by me, not uttering a word, I silently followed behind her until she reached the door. She opened it slowly and as she was about to completely leave my dorm, I don't what possesed me but I stopped her by grabbing her wrist.

"Don't..." I muttered, causing her to look at me. "Please don't leave me..." A tear rolled down my cheek and she sighed, closing the door behind her.

"Can you tell me what are we playing right now?" I found her tone of her voice slightly frightening as she asked me this.

"What do you mean?" She chuckled bitterly and I noticed tears were rolling down her cheeks too.

"You push me away just to pull me back in!" She practically screamed. "You give me hope just crush it right after!" I flinched at her words, I couldn't stop myself in wondering what exactly do I give her hope in.

"Hope?" I asked, feeling smaller than I have ever felt in my whole life.

"You seriously don't know?" She looked at me, shooting a confused angry look at me, that bitter smile was back. "Ever since I came out you just pushed me away but yesterday you kept pulling me right in, complimenting me, joking around with me as if nothing has happend. Then you wake up and don't even look at me, do not exchange any words with me and when I finally decide to leave.. you pull me back inside!" Through her words there were sobs every now and then. "Just tell me... please, what do you want from me?" I unconciously leaned forward, wiping her tears away with my thumbs while cupping her face. 

"I'm sorry." I whispered. "This is all my fault." 

She just grimaced. 

"I know I push you away... but I can't stay like that for long." I stared intensily into her eyes, her soul connecting with mine and I knew then and there... it'd be fine. I knew she loved me, just like I loved her, I could just tell from the way she looked at me, the way my actions affected her, she loved me.

I'm not letting her go. There's no way on earth I'll do that right now.

"I can't live without you, SeoHyun. That's why I can't push you away for long." I breathed in, preparing myself mentally for what was coming next. "But I couldn't help but push you away... I... am scared, I was terrified in fact. This conversation we're having is one of my worst nightmare." I laughed nervously. "I love you, SeoHyun-ah"

She widened her eyes and took the shape of an 'o'. 

Before she could voice out her thoughts I pulled her face, that was still being cupped by my hands, and kissed her. She didn't hesitate in responding as she wrapped around my neck and I slid my hands down through the outline of her body before resting them around her waist. Pulling her as closely as I could physically could.

The kiss deepened when I bit her lip and my tongue made its way in . I heard her sigh against my lips and as if we were synchronized we both pulled apart softly.

"I... I love you too, YoonA" She muttered, her breath brushing against my lips, intoxicanting me. "You don't have to live without me... you don't have to be scared anymore." She pecked my lips and flashed me a breathtaking smile. "I'm not going anywhere. Unless I'm not the one you want."

"I don't want nobody else, Seobaby".