Eric was mad.

Eric was exhausted.

Eric was frustrated.

He wanted to shut himself in tiny room and wait till everything will go away and when he will be able to see smiling faces only. But reality was harsh and he couldn't escape it. He had commitments; he had promises to keep...

He knew that Shinhwa was in deep now; no genius was needed there to know it. He just couldn't accept the fact that when it came to them - all things will crush at the same time. Some kind of weird fatum that was all members had and couldn't get rid of it.

During those few days he wasn't even able to smile or laugh. Maybe his face forgot how to do it already? The only things that he was doing now was endless sighing and "I'll work on it". He couldn't sleep at night, he couldn't eat properly, he wasn't able to do things that made him happy, because he knew that he's responsible for it; that he's a leader so he must work as one.

He was so glad that at those sleepless nights his lover would be there; hugging him tightly, kissing his head, listening to all his worries without stupid comments and lots of “ifs” that would only make him more angry and frustrated.

In moments like that he knew why Hyesung was definitely his soul mate - he knew him. He knew when to say something, when to kick his to make work harder and harder, but he also knew when to kiss him hard without any questions, without any words, just the two of them. Heck, he wasn't even bothered when Eric was yelling and sometimes throwing things around the apartment. Hyesung was just sitting, nodding from time to time and... He just was. He was there when Eric needed him the most.

He was now sitting on his black sofa, his dinner not touched, his lover beside him and some variety show on TV in front of them. He could feel Gomdori's fur on him feet from time to time when the

puppy was begging for food (once from him, once from Hyesung), but not getting any of course.

All of sudden Hyesung put his plate on a coffee table and stood in front of Eric blocking the TV completely. Not that Eric mind, because for him Hyesung's lean body was way more attractive than his hyung's muscles. The only problem was Hyesung's frustrated face and flushed face.

"Eric..."

Oh no, he thought. In this moment he wanted to yell and probably start a big pointless fight with his lover, but when he inhaled some air and furrowed brows, Hyesung shooed him and showed that he wants to talk first.

"Eric, listen to me please. I can't take it anymore..." The vocalist was for sure frustrated. He was trembling a bit and trying hard to look Eric straight in the eyes.

Just when leader wanted to say some sharp comment and definitely start the fight already, Hyesung said something he wasn't expecting at all.

"Take care of yourself, please. I can't stand watching you like that." Younger crouched in front of him, took the plate away and held both of his hands tightly. "You know I'm here when you need me, you can tell me anything, but I can't watch you like that." His eyes became teary. "I love you so much, Eric-ah... So please, at least in this apartment, at least with me, love your life and be happy."

Eric didn't know what to do. To smile like an idiot? To kiss Hyesung as hard as he could? To say some cheesy thing to him like he always did?

Not thinking much, he leaned forward and kissed Hyesung as hard as he could. The vocalist was way too shocked by his action so he moved away.

"What the hell are you doing?!"

"I'm loving my life."

Author's note:

Hi guys! I'm very sorry that I'm not updating much, but it's exams time in my university and engineer stuff are not very easy so yeah... Excuses, excuses.

I know it's a short one, like always, so sorry once again. 

FIGHTING! 

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