Based on the song, In Heaven, by JYJ. Jaejoong originally wrote the song to express his remorse for the death of his friend Park Yong-ha. You might of heard of him, he was an actor in dramas such as Winter Sonata and I believe he was a popular singer in Japan as well. Since the song has not been officially released, I used the subtitles from a fancam compilation to write this. 

I don't think I do the song justice with this piece of fanficiton, but I tried my best. Somehow my friend's birthday party put me in a good enough mood to write. So here you go.

Since this whole lawsuit deal started, I've been thinking about the boys and their relationship with their fans.

I understand fans being upset and heartbroken about them being separated, and a lot of name calling and hate has been going around at different people and groups. People hating HoMin for not leaving too, people feeling like JYJ betrayed DBSK, people saying that Yunho has been a bad leader and JYJ are greedy, that Changmin is happy they are gone so he can get more of a spotlight. In all honesty, these opinions are baseless and hurt the Dong Bang boys greatly. At this moment, I don't feel that they will get back together in the near future, but maybe some day they will. I'll always have a little faith.

But the fans and their relationship with the boys. When the fans say all these hurtful things I feel heartbroken. Every bad rumor is like a knife in their hearts. They want fans to trust them and to be able to trust fans. The hardest thing about becoming a public personality is having to take criticism and and hate. From my own experience, just one comment can make you want to stop and hide in a hole. These five are incredible to be able stand strong and live their lives while continuing their careers. I'm proud of them for that, and I hope they are able to continue without the difficulties of being judged for their every actions. It might come with being an idol, but idols are human too and fans need to respect that and own up to what they say and think. Don't think that just because they are an idol they don't feel hurt by it, that they expect it and therefore don't feel the full force of it.

If there are 800,000 for DBSK, and all 800,000 were shocked by the split and started to choose sides or spread rumors or hate on a side, if all 800,000 did one of these things (because all 800,000 then some have done of these to some extent, even if it was without malicious intent) they will feel the force of this 800,000 fold. They are human, one comment hurts, 800,000 is literally a knife in their hearts. Comments everyday, directly about them, to them, some to hurt, some hurting without meaning to, false information tarnishing their names, secrets no one really knows about, they are hurt by these are they are the strongest people simply for still being alive. 

I think Jaejoong would die if he didn't have the support of Cassiopeia.

Whenever he tweets about crying and needing to be comforted by Junsu or Yoochun, this thought grows stronger. The bags growing under his already heavy lidded eyes, the color of his face, the way he seems to be getting skinnier despite him saying he is growing fatter, his constant reminder to fans that they need support and JYJ is still part of DBSK. 

I think Jaejoong would die if he didn't have the support of Cassiopeia. 

That is where the idea comes for this oneshot. I could have gone with the way Yong-ha died, debt, father's illness, failed business, but no, the biggest threat to their lives right now are the fans. Only the fans can kill Jaejoong, nothing else.